slushy tracks. He looked at the nurses' station, where a woman was covering a switchboard. He looked out the window and saw that the snow had stopped.
There was a sobbing scream from up the corridor, where the examining rooms were.
Everybody looked up, and the same half-sick expression was on every face.
Another scream, followed by a harsh, braying cry of grief.
Everyone looked back at their magazines. The kid with the broken arm swallowed audibly, producing a small click in the silence.
He got up and went out quickly, not looking back.
At the laundry everyone on the floor came over, and Ron Stone didn't stop them.
I don't know, he told them. I never found out if he was alive or dead. You'll hear. I just don't know.
He fled upstairs, feeling weird and disconnected.
'Do you know how Johnny is, Mr. Dawes?' Phyllis asked him. He noticed for the first time that Phyllis, jaunty blue-rinsed hair notwithstanding, was looking old.
'He's bad,' he said. 'The priest came to give him the last rites.'
'Oh, what a dirty shame. And so close to Christmas.'
'Did someone go out to Deakman to pick up his load?'
She looked at him a little reproachfully. 'Tom sent out Harry Jones. He brought it in five minutes ago.'
'Good,' he said, but it wasn't good. It was bad. He thought of going down to the washroom and dumping enough Hexlite into the washers to disintegrate all of it-when the extract ended and Pollack opened the machines there would be nothing but a pile of gray fluff.
Phyllis had said something and he hadn't heard.
'What? I'm sorry.'
'I said that Mr. Ordner called. He wants you to call back right away. And a fellow named Harold Swinnerton. He said the cartridges had come in.'
'Harold-?' And then he remembered. Harvey's Gun Shop. Only Harvey, like Marley, was as dead as a doornail. 'Yes, right.'
He went into his office and closed the door. The sign on his desk still said:
THINK!
He took it off the desk and dropped it into the wastebasket. Chink.
He sat behind his desk, took everything out of the IN basket and threw it into the wastebasket without looking at it. He paused and looked around the office. The walls were wood-paneled. On the left were two framed degrees: one from college, one from the Laundry Institute, where he had gone during the summers of 1969 and 1970. Behind the desk was a large blow-up of himself shaking hands with Ray Tarkington in the Blue Ribbon parking lot just after it had been hot-topped. He and Ray were smiling. The laundry stood in the background, three trucks backed into the loading bay. The smokestack still looked very white.
He had been in this office since 1967, over six years. Since before Woodstock, before Kent State, before the assassination of Robert Kennedy and Martin Luther King, since before Nixon. Years of his life had been spent between these four walls. Millions of breaths, millions of heartbeats. He looked around, seeing if he felt anything. He felt faintly sad. That was all.
He cleaned out his desk, throwing away personal papers and his personal account books. He wrote his resignation on the back of a printed wash formula and slipped it into a laundry pay envelope. He left the impersonal things-the paper clips, the Scotch tape, the big book of checks, the pile of blank time cards held together with robber bands.
He got up, took the two degrees off the wall, and threw them into the wastebasket. The glass covering the Laundry Institute diploma shattered. The squares where the degrees had hung all these years were a little brighter than the rest of the wall, and that was all.
The phone rang and he picked it up, thinking it would be Ordner. But it was Ron Stone, calling from downstairs.
' Bart?'
'Yeah.'
'Johnny passed away a half hour ago. I guess he never really had a chance.'
'I'm very sorry. I want to shut it down the rest of the day, Ron.'
Ron sighed. 'That's best, I guess. But won't you catch hell from the big bosses?'
'I don't work for the big bosses anymore. I just wrote my resignation.' There. It was out. That made it real.
A dead beat of silence on the other end. He could hear the washers and the steady thumping hiss of the ironer. The mangler, they called it, on account of what would happen to you if you ever got caught in it.-
'I must have heard you wrong,' Ron said finally. 'I thought you said-'
'I said it, Ron. I'm through. It's been a pleasure working with you and Tom and even Vinnie, when he could keep his mouth shut. But it's over.'
'Hey, listen, Bart. Take it easy. I know this has got you upset-'
