it.”
“Wait,” Ian said, catching her arm. “You’ve done a fine job with it, and I’d be happy to have ye continue.”
“ ’Tis no my place to do it now,” she said in a tight voice.
Ach, he felt lower than dirt. But before he could get out a word of apology, she was out the door. No sooner was she gone, than his brother slammed his fist on the table.
“Ye have no notion what it’s been like here, while you’ve been off having your adventures,” Niall said.
Ian met his brother’s angry gaze. “Then you’ll have to tell me.”
“Da was barely alive when I got him home.” Niall worked his jaw as he leaned forward and stared at his hands. “I don’t know what we would have done without Sileas. She was the one who washed his wounds every day and put on the salve she got from Tearlag.”
Grief and guilt curled together in Ian’s gut. He would never know if he could have saved his father from injury had he been at his side in the battle. But he was as good as any man with a sword, so he might have made a difference.
“During the time da did not waken,” Niall said, “Sileas spent hours at his bedside, talking and reading to him as if he could hear every word.”
It struck Ian as odd that Niall spoke only of Sileas taking care of their father. “What about mam?”
“Mam stopped speaking when she thought da was dying. She was like the walking dead herself.” Niall kept his eyes fixed on his hands and spoke in a low, rough voice. “Sil and I did our best to make her eat, but she grew so weak we feared we would lose her, too.”
Guilt was bitter in Ian’s throat. Niall was far too young for the burden he’d been carrying—and it was Ian’s burden.
“Mam’s been much better since da woke up a couple of weeks ago. But da…” Niall turned to gaze out the small window. “Well, it’s been almost worse since he awoke and found his leg was gone.”
Ian leaned across the table and squeezed his brother’s shoulder. “I’m sorry I wasn’t here. We came as soon as we heard the news of the battle.”
“Ye should have been here long before then,” Niall said, his voice hard. “For Sileas, ye should have been here. You’ve shamed her by leaving her for so long.”
Ian had never considered that his absence might shame her. Until he returned, he had thought of her as an awkward girl not ready for marriage.
“One way or another, I will make it right,” Ian said. “I am grateful to ye for taking care of the family in my absence.”
“It’s Sileas ye should be thanking, not me.” His brother stood abruptly, jostling the table. He was shaking with anger. “Sileas has worked herself to the bone, keeping the family going these last weeks. Did ye not see the circles under her eyes? I do my best to help her, but it’s no enough.”
“I’ll see to things now,” Ian said, keeping his voice quiet.
“Then you’d best convince her to stay,” Niall said, “for we cannot do without her.”
“Sileas is not going anywhere soon.” At least not until he made up his mind.
“ ’Tis a wonder she hasn’t left ye yet,” Niall said, his eyes burning into Ian. “If ye don’t know it, there is a line of men just waiting for her to lose patience with ye.”
CHAPTER 7
Ian listened to Alex’s snoring in the next bed and watched the sky grow light through the crack in the shutters of the old cottage as he thought about the day ahead. It was an important day, for him and for the clan. After weighing the advantages and disadvantages over the two days since his return, he had decided to accept Sileas as his true wife. He would tell her today, after the gathering at the church.
In the end, it was an easy choice. Sileas had become the peg that held his family together. After not being here when they needed him, he would not take her away from them now. They were all very fond of her. In fact, he was a trifle concerned Niall’s feelings toward her were not entirely brotherly, but the lad was young and would get over it soon enough.
For his mother, Sileas filled the hole in her heart left by the baby daughters she had lost. What surprised him was the closeness between Sileas and his father. Busy as Sileas was, Ian found her at his father’s bedside several times a day. Her presence seemed to soothe him. Although his father had never openly mourned the loss of their daughters as his mother had, perhaps he, too, had carried a wound that Sileas healed.
If for no other reason, Ian would have kept Sileas for the sake of his family. Added to that, she was heir to Knock Castle, a good manager, and she made his blood run hot. What more could a man ask for?
Now that he’d come home to take his place in the clan, he needed a wife. There was no good reason to upset the basket when he already had one that suited. The only objection he could claim was that he hadn’t chosen Sileas in the first place. It would be just pigheaded to let that stop him when everything else weighed in favor of the marriage.
Now that he’d made up his mind, it was only a matter of getting Sileas alone so he could tell her. Saving the clan from Hugh Dubh came first, of course. He would speak to her after the business at the church today.
Then he could join Sileas in the bed upstairs.
He smiled to himself. That particular advantage had weighed heavily in favor of keeping the marriage. No more sleeping in the old cottage with Alex. And once he told Sileas of his decision, she would stop giving him the sharp edge of her tongue.
He could think of other uses for that tongue…
“Are ye going to lie abed all morning?” Alex said, and Ian turned to find his cousin dressed and strapping on his claymore.
Ian grinned at him, feeling better than he had since returning home. He could hardly wait to see Sil’s face when
