Beckwith is a strange man, he thought. He can become fanatical about the Cause, though he's never been east of the Panhandle. That's it, he thought now. That makes the difference. He didn't see the Wilderness, or Cold Harbor, or Yellow Tavern.
The morning wore on and he began to feel hungry, but his body ached and he remained on the bed, smoking cigarettes when it would occur to him, not moving his leg. He wasn't worried about the knee.
He was dozing again when the light knocks sounded on the door and he sat upright with the suddenness of it and winced, feeling the muscles pull in his knee.
'Who is it?' His palm covered the bone handle of the pistol next to him.
A girl's voice answered him.
He was off the bed, went to the door, opened it, and the girl was in his arms. Close to her cheek he said, 'Barbara ' but her mouth brushed against his and that was all he said. For a moment they clung together, then he drew her inside and closed the door.
'How'd you find me?'
'Beckwith told us.'
'Your father's with you?'
She nodded. Her dark hair was pulled back tightly into a chignon and it made her face seem delicately small. 'I told him I wanted to be with you.'
'That must have touched him,' Walker said. He led her to the bed and sat down next to her. There was no chair in the room and he felt suddenly embarrassed at being alone with her, and at the same time he was conscious of his uncombed hair and the two day beard, even though he knew it would not matter to her.
'Lou, you hurt your leg!'
Her gaze remained on his knee, but she said, 'You're going to try again, aren't you?'
'You're not supposed to know about that.'
Her eyes lifted to his, frowning. 'What good will it do?'
'If I knew all the whys, I'd be wearing yellow epaulettes with fringe.'
'One more dead man isn't going to help anything.'
'You didn't talk to Beckwith very long.'
For a moment the girl was silent. 'We're leaving,' she said then.
'For where?'
'I don't know toward California.'
'Your dad's idea?'
'Partly. But maybe I'm more worn out than he is.'
She looked at him longingly. 'Lou come with us.'
'You know better than that.'
'Why?'
'I'd be a deserter.'
Her eyes begged him again, but she said nothing and finally her head lowered and she stared at her hands in her lap. Walker made a cigarette and smoked it in the silence, trying to rationalize going with them: but he could not.
The girl was rising when they heard the footsteps outside the door. Then the three knocks.
'Walker?' Beckwith's voice came from the hall.
Walker looked at the girl, then went to the door and opened it. Risdon stood in the doorway. Behind him, Beckwith said, 'Go on,' and Risdon moved into the room. Beckwith followed a step behind, with the barrel of his pistol pressed into the man's back.
Beckwith looked at the girl and then to Walker.
'Lou,' he said. 'You're about the most resourceful man I know, even when you're sick.'
The girl had gone to her father and now she looked at him with frightened surprise. 'You told him!'
'I had to. I don't want him saying we're running away.'
'What do you call it?' Beckwith said.
'I'm getting too old to play soldierboy,' Risdon said.
'You think you can just walk away?'
'He's not in the army,' Walker said now. 'He can leave any time he feels like it!'
'With all he knows about us?' Beckwith asked.
'God, if you can't trust him, who can you!'
'Lou, I wonder about that more and more every day.'
'Cut out the foolishness!'
'Were you going, too?'
'No.'
'Just take your word for it?' Beckwith's thin face was expressionless. 'Lou,' he said, 'I'm not play actin'. You know what they do to deserters.'
'What's he deserting from?'
'Me,' Beckwith said quietly. He added, then, 'Lou, I'll have to take your word about you not going but get over on the bed out of the way.' Walker hesitated and Beckwith turned the pistol on him threateningly. 'I can include you as easily as not.'
Walker backed against the bed and eased down, keeping his right leg stiffly in front of him. As he sank to the bed, something hard dug against his thigh. His hand moved to the side of his leg, then stopped. It was his pistol.
Risdon was watching his daughter and now he was about to speak: it was on his face.
'Keep it to yourself,' Beckwith said to him. 'I don't want to hear any more.'
'What are you going to do?' Walker asked him quietly. His hand was on the pistol butt now, close under his leg.
'What I have to,' Beckwith said. 'We can't take chances on either of them.'
'Here?'
'Out somewhere.'
Walker's fingers closed around the pistol grip. He hesitated, because he wanted to do this the right way, and he wasn't sure what that was. He heard Risdon say, 'Beckwith ' and saw the agent's head turn toward Risdon. At that moment, Walker raised the pistol and cocked it.
Beckwith heard the click and his head swung back. He looked at Walker as if what he saw could not be possible.
Walker held the pistol dead on the agent's chest.
'I'm not going to try to convince you of anything,' he said. 'Just let go of the gun.'
The surprise passed and Beckwith's drawn face scowled. 'You're making the biggest mistake of your life.'
'If you don't think I'd shoot, hold on to that gun for three more seconds.'
Beckwith's pistol was pointed midway between Risdon and Walker. His eyes held on Walker's face, trying to read something there. Then, slowly, his arm lowered and when his hand reached his side, the fingers opened and the pistol dropped to the floor.
Risdon stooped, picked it up and glanced at Beckwith as he rose.
'You just lost yourself a job.'
'You've got to take him with you,' Walker said now. 'Drop him at maybe Cuchillo by the time he finds help you'll have all the distance you'd need.'
Risdon frowned. 'You're coming now, aren't you?'
Walker shook his head.
The girl looked at him in disbelief. 'Lou, why would you stay now?'
'The same reason as before.'
'But it's different now!'
'Why is it? I'm still a soldier. I haven't been serving under a private flag of Beckwith's.'
The girl continued to look at him with the plea in her eyes, but now there was nothing she could say.
Risdon shrugged. 'Well, you can't fight that.'
