using her words like tiny knives to cut away my complaints. 'Your concern should be about yourself and your own behavior. I thought I made that quite clear the last time we had a talk.'
I stared at her a moment as a terrible anger washed over me. Grandmere Catherine had taught me to respect my elders, but surely she had never anticipated me having to show a woman like Mrs. Ironwood respect. Her age and her position shouldn't shield her from justifiable criticism, I thought, even if it came from someone as young as I was, but I bit down on my lower lip to keep my fiery words locked inside my mouth.
The Iron Lady seemed to enjoy my struggle to keep control. She glared back at me, waiting, hoping to see me become insubordinate so she could justify a harsher punishment, perhaps even have me expelled and keep me from ever seeing Louis again, which, I suspected, had become her real motive.
I swallowed back my tears and fury, spun away from her, and returned to the ballroom, where I found the last dance in progress. Most of the girls glanced my way with interest, most with smiles on their faces. Whatever they uttered to their male companions brought laughter. It sickened me to see such joviality after what had been done to Abby.
Over by the tables, Gisselle held court, surrounded now by more followers and admirers, including Jonathan Peck. Her laughter was so shrill it could be heard over the music.
'I bet that's the first time a girl's turned down the Greenwood dance trophy,' she said as I approached, more for my benefit than anyone else's. There was more laughter.
'Oh, here's my sister. Give us a report, Ruby. Where's the quadroon gone?'
'Her name is Abby,' I fired back. 'And thanks to you she left.'
'What do you mean, thanks to me? All I did was read the results of the vote, and why would anyone run off after winning?' Gisselle asked with an expression of utter innocence. The others nodded and smiled, gleefully anticipating my response.
'You know very well why, Gisselle. You did a very mean thing tonight.'
'Don't tell me you condone the presence of mixed bloods at Greenwood,' Jonathan remarked. He pulled his shoulders back and pressed down the sides of his hair with his palms as if he were standing in front of a mirror instead of a dozen admiring females. I turned on him.
'What I don't condone is the presence of cruel and vicious people at Greenwood, nor do I condone the presence of snobs and arrogant young men who think they're somehow God's gift when in truth they're more in love with themselves than they could ever be with anyone else,' I retorted.
Jonathan's face flushed red. 'Well, I see where you stand when it comes to associating with people of a lower class. Perhaps you're in the wrong place too,' he said, looking to the young men and women who had gathered around us for support. Almost all nodded in agreement.
'Maybe I am,' I said, hot tears burning under my eyelids. 'I'd rather be in a swamp surrounded by alligators than here with people who look down on other people because of their family background.'
'Oh, stop being such a goody-goody,' Gisselle complained. 'She'll get over it.'
I drew closer to her, my eyes so filled with fury that the girls around her parted to make way. Hovering over her chair, I folded my arms under my breasts and spit my question down at her.
'What did you do, Gisselle? Listen with your ear to our door?'
'You think I'm so interested in your private talks? You think there's anything you've done that I haven't read about or seen?' she replied, reddening under my accusation. 'I don't have to put my ear to the door to know what goes on between you and your quadroon friend. But,' she said, smiling and sitting back, 'if you would care to confess, to describe what it was like sleeping beside her . . .'
'Shut up!' I screamed, unable to hold back my flood of emotion. 'Shut your filthy mouth before I—'
'Look how she's threatening her crippled sister,' Gisselle cried, cringing dramatically. 'You see how helpless I am, how helpless I've been. Now you all know what it's like to be a crippled twin and have to live day in and day out watching your sister have fun, go wherever she wants, do whatever she wants.'
Gisselle covered her face in her hands and began to sob. Everyone glared at me angrily.
'Oh, what's the use?' I moaned, and turned away just as the music came to an end.
Mrs. Ironwood was immediately at the microphone. 'It looks like a storm's brewing,' she advised. 'The boys should move right to the waiting buses and the girls should head back to their dorms immediately.'
Everyone started toward the exits, but Miss Stevens hurried to my side.
'Poor Abby. What they did to her was horrible. Where did she go?' she asked.
'I don't know, Miss Stevens. She ran down the driveway and down the road. I'm worried about her, but Mrs. Ironwood wouldn't let me go after her.'
'I'll get into my jeep and see if I can find her,' Miss Stevens promised. 'You go back to the dorm and wait for me.'
'Thank you. There really is a bad storm coming, and she might get caught in it. Please, if you find her, tell her I had nothing to do with what Gisselle did tonight. Please, tell her.'
'I'm sure she doesn't think that anyway,' Miss Stevens said, with a smile of kindness. We saw Mrs. Ironwood watching us from the side as we followed the crowd out of the ballroom.
A streak of lightning cut a white gash in the dark and foreboding sky. Some of the girls squealed with excitement. Some of the Rosewood boys stole quick goodbye kisses before mounting their buses. Jonathan Peck had a crowd of at least half a dozen doting Greenwood girls around him, waiting and hoping for him to press his precious lips to theirs, or at least to their cheeks.
Another crack of thunder caused more shouting and scurrying about. I saw Miss Stevens hurry away to get to her jeep and I looked hopefully down the driveway for a sign of Abby before I turned to walk quickly back to our dorm. Perhaps she had circled around and gone back herself, I anticipated; but when I arrived, I found our room empty. I went back to the main lobby to wait for Miss Stevens. All the other girls arrived, bubbling over with excitement about the dance and the boys they had met. I ignored them, and for the most part, they ignored
