Guy Haley
Omega point
One might say that, by virtue of human reflection (both individual and collective), evolution, overflowing the physico-chemical organisation of bodies, turns back upon itself and thereby reinforces itself… with a new organising power vastly concentric to the first — the cognitive organisation of the universe. To think the world (as physics is beginning to realise) is not merely to register it but to confer upon it a form of unity it would otherwise… be without.
CHAPTER 1
Otto Klein sank into blackness as the machinery on the wall invaded his cybernetic mind and spread its pages wide.
Notes sounded, silver trumpets in the dark.
It always came back to that.
Why had he agreed to this?
The trumpets faded.
It wasn't right. He shouldn't have to see her again, not under these circumstances.
Honour appeared in the black, a ghostly nimbus around her. Her head was shaved, her face drawn. An ovoid scar ran from her left ear right the way round to her occiput. She smiled nervously. 'How do I look?' she said.
Otto wanted to say that she looked beautiful, and that he was sorry, but he was a spectator to his own past, and could only say what he had said. Back then he was eager to hear how she found the mentaug, trying to justify himself, to make her see. He hadn't thought what the surgery might mean to her.
He listened as he said what he had said, and hated himself for it, as he'd hated himself every single time he'd lived the moment through again.
She lost her smile. 'I'm tired, Otto,' she said.
Honour's face crumpled into itself and fire bellied out from where it had been, a point of destruction growing to paint a long-ago battle into his mind. The stink of war filled his nostrils, chemicals, fire, blood, shit, fear… A man slid from Otto's bayonet, his face going slack as his nervous system caught on to the fact he was dead. The silent near-I adjutant in Otto's mentaug scanned the field of churned mud and shattered trees for another target.
A ripple in Otto's mind; another time, another place. Stratojets screamed, plunging from the edge of space. A line of nuclear heat erupted along the horizon.
Otto raised his rifle. Another man died, and another.
Hamburg, as it was before the world went to hell. Ice cream in one hand, running on to his fingers as it melted, making them sticky, the strong grip of his father's fist on the other. Security, safety. After that day, he'd never felt safe, not truly, no matter how strong he had made himself, or how strong he'd allowed others to make him.
Strength masked brittleness. His father had a different kind of strength, also insufficient. Was anyone ever strong enough?
Sleet in New London, refreshing after the heat of the summer.
Honour's face, drawn and thin, mouth slack with the idiocy of Bergstrom's Syndrome. 'How do I look?'
Otto screamed. He fell forward hard and straps bit into his flesh. A stab from the diagnostic in his spinal interface port brought him back roughly into the now. He jerked about, panicking, not knowing where or when he was.
'Steady, steady, Klein.' A cool hand in blue latex pressed against his chest, small and delicate, like Honour's hand. Otto fought violently against his restraints, at the mercy of his memories as his mentaug spooled down, its infernal chattering filling his mind as it communicated with the machines in the maintenance room.
He blinked his eyes free of tears. A long, sad face came into focus. 'Are you with us? Klein? Are you with us?'
'Ekbaum,' Otto croaked. His struggling ceased, and he knew where he was. He'd been looking for Lehmann, his old comradein-arms. He'd severed contact, refused to return his calls. Ekbaum knew where Lehmann was, but had said he would only tell him if Otto came in for maintenance. That was why he was there. He didn't want to be, but things had been going wrong. It would only have been a matter of time anyway.
The doctor, a tall man of ungainly slimness, stood taller. His thin shoulders lost a part of their permanent hunch, the creases in his perpetual frown lessening. 'You are back, good, good.' His face tried a smile, so absent it must have been without the consent of his mind. He turned his back and consulted a screen, tapping at it.
'What did you do?' said Otto. The noise in his head ceased and the room took on a shocked quiet, as of a crowd suddenly silenced.
'The mentaug immersion was a bad one? Disjointed, frightening even?' asked the doctor as he consulted with his machines. 'I suspected so. Very disappointing.' In his green scrubs and blue gloves, long-nosed face pallid in the screenglow, Ekbaum resembled a carrion bird, expression set in distaste forever at its diet. 'One should ask, 'What did you do to yourself?'' He pursed his lips at something red and blinking on a gelscreen. 'When was the last time you came to see me, Otto?'
'I…'
'I shall tell you,' said Ekbaum gently. 'March 14th, 2126. Over three years ago, Otto. The terms of your consultancy license and cybernetics permissions both stipulate a six-monthly check-up.' Ekbaum's sad face grew sadder. 'And now look at you.' He shook his head. 'Look what you have done to my work.'
Otto wiped a line of saliva from his mouth. 'Can you fix my shoulder?'
'That? Yes, of course.' Ekbaum waved a hand. 'But that is not what concerns me. The VIA doctors, they told you that your shoulder is becoming deformed owing to misalignments in wetware governing the accretive processes of replacement carbon plastics, yes?'
Otto nodded. Two nurses, one human female, the other sheathed AI, came forward and undid the straps holding him upright to the diagnostic table. They pulled him forward and helped him to a chair, the robot bearing most of his significant weight. The woman handed him a glass of water. He gulped it down. He was dripping with sweat. 'They told me it was a flaw in my initial design.'
Ekbaum's weak smile hid a modicum of outrage. 'My designs are good. Are they experts in cybernetic interfaces? No. The problem is not in here.' Ekbaum slapped Otto's arm. 'It is in here.' He prodded Otto's forehead. 'This is a problem of the mind, of its interface with the mentaug. The machinery within you is functioning perfectly, it is you who are malfunctional.'
'Is it…?'
'No! No.' Ekbaum shook his long head. 'No need to look so alarmed, it is not Bergstrom's Syndrome. You're clear of all that. It is some other thing, an emotional trauma, overwork, stress, something of that order. The stresses upon it are throwing your systems out of synchronisation.' He gave Otto a brief, sympathetic look. 'Your wife, Otto. That is what is interfering with your correct operation, emotional backwash, disturbing the equilibrium.' Ekbaum looked reproachful; he always did, not at Otto in particular, but at the world. He'd once told Otto he'd gone into cybernetics to arrest death, only to find it reflected at him tenfold.
Otto could have laughed. He was supposed to be a war machine. Stress should not be an issue. Now surely that was a design flaw. 'Fine.'
