Then I bolted for the outdoors and rushed like one possessed down the lane, lifting and running until I staggered up our porch steps and collapsed against Mother, who had heard me coming.
“Oh, Mother! She’s one of us! She’s Jemmy’s love! She’s wonderful!” And I burst into noisy sobs in the warm comfort of Mother’s arms.
So now I don’t have to go Outside to become a teacher. We have a permanent one. But I’m going anyway. I want to be as much like Valancy as I can and she has her degree. Besides I can use the discipline of living Outside for a year.
I have so much to learn and so much training to go through, but Valancy will always be there with me. I won’t be set apart alone because of the Gift.
Maybe I shouldn’t mention it, but one reason I want to hurry my training is that we’re going to try to locate the other People. None of the boys here please me.
II
IT Was as though silver curtains were shimmering back across some magic picture, warm with remembered delight. Lea took a deep breath and, with a realization as sudden as the bursting of a bubble, became aware that she had completely forgotten herself and her troubles for the first time in months and months. And it felt good-oh, so good-so smooth, so smilingly relaxing. “If only,” she thought wistfully. “If only!” And then shivered under the bare echoless thunk as things-as-they-are thudded against the blessed shelter Karen had loaned her. Her hands tightened bitterly.
Someone laughed softly into the silence. “Have you found him yet, Karen? You started looking long enough ago-“
“Not so long,” Karen smiled, still entangled in the memories she had relived. “And I have got my degree now. Oh, I had forgotten so much-the wonder-the terror-” She dreamed a moment longer, then shook her head and laughed.
“There, Jemmy, I seen my duty and I done it. Whose hot little hands hold the next installment?”
Jemmy smoothed out his crumpled paper. “Well, Peter’s next, I guess. Unless Bethie wants to-“
“Oh no, oh no!” Bethie’s soft voice protested. “Peter, Peter can do it better-he was the one-I mean- Peter!”
Everyone laughed. “Okay, Bethie, okay!” Jemmy said.
“Cool down. Peter it will be. Well, Peter, you have until tomorrow evening to get organized. I think after the excitement of the day, one-well-installment will be enough.”
The crowd stood up and swirled and moved. The soft murmur of their voices and laughter washed over Lea like a warm ocean.
“Lea.” It was Karen. “Here’s Jemmy and Valancy. They want to meet you.”
Lea struggled to her feet, feeling impaled by their interested eyes. She felt welcome enwrapping her-a welcome far beyond any words. She felt a pang catch painfully somewhere in her chest, and to her bewilderment tears began to wash down her cheeks. She turned her head aside and groped for a handkerchief. Someone tucked a huge white one into her hands and someone’s shoulder was strong and steady for a moment and someone’s arms were deft and sure as they lifted her and bore her, blind with sobless weeping, away from the schoolhouse.
Later-oh, much later-she suddenly sat up in her bed. Karen was there instantly, noiselessly.
“Karen, was that supposed to be real?”
“Was what supposed to be real?”
“That story you told. It wasn’t true, was it?”
“But of course. Every word of it.”
“But it can’t be!” Lea cried. “People from space! Magic people! It can’t be true.”
“Why don’t you want it to be true?”
“‘Because-because! It doesn’t fit. There’s nothing outside of what is-I mean, you go around the world and come back to where you started from. Everything ends back where it started from. There are boundaries beyond which-” Lea groped for words. “Anything outside the bounds isn’t true!”
“Who defines the boundaries?””
“Why, they’re just there. You get trapped in them when you’re born. “You have to bear them till you die.”
“Who sold you into slavery?” Karen asked wonderingly.
“Or did you volunteer? I agree with you that everything comes back to where it started, but where did everything start?”
“No!” Lea shrieked, clenching her fists over her eyes and writhing back on her pillow. “Not back to that muck and chaos and mindless seething!”
The blackness rolled and flared and roared its insidious whimper-the crowded emptiness, the incinerating cold- the impossibility of all possibilities ….
“Lea, Lea.” Karen’s voice cut softly but authoritatively through the tangled horror. “Lea, sleep now. Sleep now, knowing that everything started with the Presence and all things can return joyfully to their beginning.”
Lea ate breakfast with Karen the next morning. The wind was blowing the short ruffled curtains in and out of the room.
“No screens?” Lea asked, carrying the armed truce with darkness as carefully as a cup of water, not to brim it over.
“No, no screens,” Karen said. “We keep the bugs out another. way.”
“A way that works for keeping bugs in, too,” Lea smiled.
