'How is she?' I asked through the crimp in my throat.
'Having another MRI,' he said.
'Tell Claire we got the shooter,' I said. 'He confessed, and we've got him locked up.'
I told Edmund that I'd check in with Claire later, then I dialed Joe again. This time I got the voice mail at his office, so I tried him at home.
Got his voice mail there, too.
I braked at the light on Eighteenth Street, tapped my fingers impatiently against the steering wheel, stepped on the gas as the light turned green.
An old memory came into my mind – the day I'd been promoted to lieutenant on the heels of bringing down the 'bride and groom killer,' a psycho who'd surely earned a top-ten ranking in the Most-Depraved-Criminal Hall of Fame. At the time, I viewed my promotion as pretty much a political appointment. No woman had held the job before. I'd stepped up, let them pin a gold shield on me, without ever knowing if the power and responsibility of the job were what I wanted.
I guess I still didn't know.
I
But sometimes you couldn't know a thing until you were there.
A dotted-line reporting to Tracchio was bullshit.
I'd be going backward in rank.
'I told him I wouldn't take it unless it was okay with you,' he'd said.
I pulled the phone back from the passenger seat and hit redial, the sound of Joe's voice on his outgoing message calling up so many memories: the storybook trips we'd taken together, our lovemaking, little things about Joe that I adored – every moment savored because I didn't know when I'd see him again.
What I wouldn't give to be in his arms tonight, to have him wrap me up in his love, and to feel his ability to see the real me. His touch could make the bad feelings go away…
I clicked off my phone without leaving a message, called Joe's other two numbers – same thing.
I pulled my car into a parking spot, set the hand brake, and sat there stupidly, looking at nothing, wishing that I could see Joe.
And then a bright idea broke through.
Chapter 26
I DIDN'T LOOK LIKE ANYONE ELSE in the flight lounge, all men in gray suits and red or blue ties – and me. I'd dressed in a new butter-colored cashmere V-neck, tight jeans, and a waist-skimming tweed jacket. My hair gleamed like a halo. Men stole glances, gave my ego a boost.
As I waited for the plane to board, I checked things off in my mind: That Martha's dog sitter was on duty. That I'd locked up my gun and badge in my dresser drawer. That I'd left my cell phone in my car. Actually, leaving my cell phone was an oversight, but I didn't need a shrink to tell me that by shedding my hardware, I was telling the Job to go straight to hell.
I was traveling light, but I
I felt a little reckless as I boarded the plane. Not only was I leaving town with a major conflict unresolved but something else was giving me the jitters.
Joe had made surprise visits to me, but I'd never dropped in unannounced on
The glass of preflight champagne helped settle me down, and as soon as the plane lifted off, I lowered my seat into the reclining position and slept, waking up only when the pilot's voice announced our imminent descent into DC.
Once on the ground, I gave a cab driver Joe's address in northwest DC.
A half hour later, the cab swooped around the plantings and fountains in front of the deluxe, L-shaped Kennedy-Warren Apartment Complex. And only minutes after that, I stood in the densely carpeted top-floor hallway of the historic wing, ringing Joe's doorbell.
When he didn't answer, I rang the bell again. Then I slipped the first key into the lower lock, used the second key on the dead bolt, and opened the door.
I called out, 'Joe?' as I stepped into his unlit foyer. I called again as I approached the kitchen.
Now I was asking myself,
The kitchen opened into a large, attractive area that was both a dining and a living room. Hardwood floors glowed under the stream of light pouring through the windows at the far end, and I saw a terrace beyond.
I noted that the richly upholstered and dark-wood furnishings were in neat, apple-pie order.
My second look made my heart slam to a stop.
A woman was curled up on a sofa, turned toward the windows, reading a magazine, the white cords of an iPod dangling from her ears.
I was too shocked to move.
Or speak a word.
Chapter 27
MY HEART RATE ZOOMED as my focus narrowed to the woman on the couch, a sandwich and cup of tea beside her on the coffee table.
I took in her black tank top and workout pants, the thick, blond-streaked hair knotted behind her head, her bare feet.
My body felt bloodless except for the tingling in my finger-tips.
My face flushed with anger but also shame. I didn't know whether to shout or run.
The woman must have caught my reflection in the glass. She dropped her magazine, put her hands to her face, and screamed.
I screamed, too. '
'Who are
'I'm Joe's girlfriend,' I said. I felt naked and raw, wishing I had a badge to flash at her. Any badge.
'I'm Milda,' she said, jumping up from the couch, leading me into the kitchen. 'I work here. I clean house for Mr. Molinari.'
I laughed, not out of humor but out of shock.
She yanked a check out of her pants pocket and stuck it out for me to see.
But I was barely focusing on her. Images from the last few days were flying around inside my head.
And now this young woman's presence was undoing whatever hold I had over my emotions.
'I finished early and I just thought I'd sit for a few minutes,' she said as she washed the dishes she'd used.