into the grey, moist, full space of the water, pulsing with his own small, invading motion, and arched over with mist and dim woods.
‘Don’t you wish it were you?’ asked Gudrun, looking at Ursula.
‘I do,’ said Ursula. ‘But I’m not sure—it’s so wet.’
‘No,’ said Gudrun, reluctantly. She stood watching the motion on the bosom of the water, as if fascinated. He, having swum a certain distance, turned round and was swimming on his back, looking along the water at the two girls by the wall. In the faint wash of motion, they could see his ruddy face, and could feel him watching them.
‘It is Gerald Crich,’ said Ursula.
‘I know,’ replied Gudrun.
And she stood motionless gazing over the water at the face which washed up and down on the flood, as he swam steadily. From his separate element he saw them and he exulted to himself because of his own advantage, his possession of a world to himself. He was immune and perfect. He loved his own vigorous, thrusting motion, and the violent impulse of the very cold water against his limbs, buoying him up. He could see the girls watching him a way off, outside, and that pleased him. He lifted his arm from the water, in a sign to them.
‘He is waving,’ said Ursula.
‘Yes,’ replied Gudrun. They watched him. He waved again, with a strange movement of recognition across the difference.
‘Like a Nibelung,’ laughed Ursula. Gudrun said nothing, only stood still looking over the water.
Gerald suddenly turned, and was swimming away swiftly, with a side stroke. He was alone now, alone and immune in the middle of the waters, which he had all to himself. He exulted in his isolation in the new element, unquestioned and unconditioned. He was happy, thrusting with his legs and all his body, without bond or connection anywhere, just himself in the watery world.
Gudrun envied him almost painfully. Even this momentary possession of pure isolation and fluidity seemed to her so terribly desirable that she felt herself as if damned, out there on the highroad.
‘God, what it is to be a man!’ she cried.
‘What?’ exclaimed Ursula in surprise.
‘The freedom, the liberty, the mobility!’ cried Gudrun, strangely flushed and brilliant. ‘You’re a man, you want to do a thing, you do it. You haven’t the THOUSAND obstacles a woman has in front of her.’
Ursula wondered what was in Gudrun’s mind, to occasion this outburst. She could not understand.
‘What do you want to do?’ she asked.
‘Nothing,’ cried Gudrun, in swift refutation. ‘But supposing I did. Supposing I want to swim up that water. It is impossible, it is one of the impossibilities of life, for me to take my clothes off now and jump in. But isn’t it RIDICULOUS, doesn’t it simply prevent our living!’
She was so hot, so flushed, so furious, that Ursula was puzzled.
The two sisters went on, up the road. They were passing between the trees just below Shortlands. They looked up at the long, low house, dim and glamorous in the wet morning, its cedar trees slanting before the windows. Gudrun seemed to be studying it closely.
‘Don’t you think it’s attractive, Ursula?’ asked Gudrun.
‘Very,’ said Ursula. ‘Very peaceful and charming.’
‘It has form, too—it has a period.’
‘What period?’
‘Oh, eighteenth century, for certain; Dorothy Wordsworth and Jane Austen, don’t you think?’
Ursula laughed.
‘Don’t you think so?’ repeated Gudrun.
‘Perhaps. But I don’t think the Criches fit the period. I know Gerald is putting in a private electric plant, for lighting the house, and is making all kinds of latest improvements.’
Gudrun shrugged her shoulders swiftly.
‘Of course,’ she said, ‘that’s quite inevitable.’
‘Quite,’ laughed Ursula. ‘He is several generations of youngness at one go. They hate him for it. He takes them all by the scruff of the neck, and fairly flings them along. He’ll have to die soon, when he’s made every possible improvement, and there will be nothing more to improve. He’s got GO, anyhow.’
‘Certainly, he’s got go,’ said Gudrun. ‘In fact I’ve never seen a man that showed signs of so much. The unfortunate thing is, where does his GO go to, what becomes of it?’
‘Oh I know,’ said Ursula. ‘It goes in applying the latest appliances!’
‘Exactly,’ said Gudrun.
‘You know he shot his brother?’ said Ursula.
‘Shot his brother?’ cried Gudrun, frowning as if in disapprobation.
‘Didn’t you know? Oh yes!—I thought you knew. He and his brother were playing together with a gun. He told his brother to look down the gun, and it was loaded, and blew the top of his head off. Isn’t it a horrible story?’
‘How fearful!’ cried Gudrun. ‘But it is long ago?’
‘Oh yes, they were quite boys,’ said Ursula. ‘I think it is one of the most horrible stories I know.’
