know? He always understood shit without being taught it.”
“Sounds like Larry,” I agreed. “Always knew how to get what he wanted without asking.”
Motta laughed at that, but the laugh transformed itself into a coughing fit. I grabbed a white towel and handed it to him. He sounded like he was hacking up what was left of his lungs. When the coughing subsided, he put the towel down and slipped a green plastic oxygen mask over his nose and mouth. He took shallow breaths. Shallow was probably the only option left to him. Finally, some color came back into his face, and the panic in his eyes, which he hadn’t bothered hiding, subsided.
He removed the mask. “You ain’t from Meals on Wheels and you ain’t a respiratory therapist, so what you doin’ here, Prager? Not that I don’t enjoy the company.”
“Wanted to talk about Larry with you, talk some old times.”
“Old times is all I got. No time to make new memories.”
“Does it scare you, dying I mean?”
“I used to be scared of it, but when you die this way, in little pieces. . Hey, when it comes, it comes. This!” he said, making a sweeping gesture, “This ain’t really living and it ain’t really dying, pal. It’s waitin’. I always hated waitin’.”
“I hate waiting too. Bad news is better than no news.”
“Exactly. I jus’ hope the lungs crap out on me before the shit spreads into my brain. I can see why you and Larry Mac got along. You think like he thought.”
Finally, an opening. “Not really. I wasn’t an ambitious cocksucker.”
If I thought that was going to make an impression on Frankie Motta, I guess I was going to be disappointed. Coughing out his lungs might have concerned him, but he was still a tough motherfucker.
“Come over by the doors a second,” he said, the electric motor whirring as his chair moved ahead of me. “How long you figure it’s been since that boat passed? Thirty seconds? A minute?”
“Something like that.”
“You see the water? Even though the boat’s gone, the water’s still telling you it was there. I hear there are some weird little seafaring cultures in Asia where they can read the ripples in the water like the Indians here can read tracks.”
“And this relates to Larry how?”
For the first time since I stepped into the room, the real Frankie Motta reared his head.
“Shut your mouth and pay some attention, then you won’t have to ask no stupid questions.”
“Your house, your rules,” I said.
He liked that too. Maybe he’d give me a gold star on my Delaney card for being such an apt pupil.
“See,” he continued, “Larry didn’t understand that stuff like about the boat. It was a big blind spot for him. He thought you could sometimes float a boat by without leaving a wake. Maybe I thought the same thing there for a while, but I learned. There was this time once when I had a boss, a foolish old man who had some silly ideas of honor.”
“A guy like Tio Anello, for example.”
“Yeah, hypothetically speakin’, a guy jus’ like him.” Motta smiled at me. He had a smile not too dissimilar from my father-in-law’s, as warm and welcoming as a lobster claw. “Well, old men, they lose focus sometimes and look backwards instead of the way ahead. They forget what’s important and what’s not. They think because a thing used to work one way for a long time, it should always work that way. You catchin’ this, Prager?”
“You mean like this old man maybe having rules against getting involved with the drug trade? Like that?”
He showed me the lobster claw again. “You’re pretty fuckin’ sharp.”
“Sometimes.”
“What does a guy like me do with an old man who taught him everything about the world, about survivin’, about all the important things? What does a man like me do when he can see the future in a way the old man he works for can’t?”
“Depends on what he thinks is more important, the future or the past.”
“From where I’m sitting today, it’s the past. But that’s only because I got no future, so that don’t count. Back in them days, I thought the future was important. I thought survivin’ was everything.”
“And anyone who thinks the future is important has to plan for it.”
“So I planned, but I tried to do it without hurtin’ the old man. I hid it from him, because if he found out about it-”
“You’d have to survive and that would mean clipping him. . hypothetically speaking, of course. And he meant too much to you for that.”
“There was that, but even if he had a sudden change of heart and decided drugs was the best thing since cheese fries at Roll-n-Roaster, he’d a had to. . you know. . make an example of me for challengin’ his authority.”
As Motta spoke, things about the past were falling surely into place like tumblers on an old combination lock.
“Dexter Mayweather! You bankrolled D Rex.” I could feel my mouth turn up into a self-satisfied smile.
Frankie Motta bowed his head in respect. “That’s good!”
“This way Anello couldn’t connect you to the drugs, but you could salt away the profits and have a network in place for when the old man died.”
“Hey, that Dexter, he was one sharp fuckin’ nigger, let me tell ya. A little too sharp for his own good, maybe. We coulda been the fuckin’ kings of Brooklyn, the two of us.” He was screaming. “We coulda run this town and them cocksuckin’ Russian scumbags woulda had to come beggin’ to us for a piece a the pie. But-” Motta was gasping for air again, his chest racking violently.
“Anita!” I shouted and slid the green mask over Frankie’s face.
Motta flailed his left arm at the little table next to the bed. He made a C out of his right forefinger and thumb and squeezed the tips together. “Inhaler! Inhaler!” he gasped.
I found a mustard yellow inhaler on the bedside table and curled his fingers around it, then removed his mask. He took two blasts from the little plastic device and his breathing eased almost instantaneously. Anita bolted through the door, took a glance at the inhaler, and eyed me in that same disapprovingly way Ronnie had. I was beginning to feel like Typhoid Mary’s intern.
“Mr. Frankie cannot get excited. It puts too much strain on his lungs.”
“I’m sorry.”
“You’ll have to go now.”
“No!” Frankie rasped. “He’s stayin’. I’ll keep calm, Nita.”
“Mr. Frankie, this is not good for you to get excited.”
“I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die.”
“You are not dying yet!” Anita chided as if she had a vote in the matter. She turned and wagged her little index finger at me. “Don’t make me have to come back in here. I come back and you are out, no matter what Mr. Frankie says. Understand?”
“Perfectly.”
“Okay.” She eyed me skeptically as she closed the door behind her.
“She’s a tough cookie, that one,” Motta said. “Woman cares more about me than my ex-wife did.”
“She gets paid to care.”
“So did my ex-wife. We pay ’em all, one way or another.”
Argue that.
“Before, you said something about D Rex being too smart for his own good.”
“Everybody’s a team player up to a point. Dexter thought he saw an opening and he went for it.”
“Got him killed, huh?”
He rolled the chair over to me and began patting me down before I could answer. His movements were practiced, familiar, but his touch was weak. “You wearin’ a wire?”
A wire! Talk about coming full circle. Then again, it wasn’t the wire Larry had planted that started this mess. The wire and Malik Jabbar’s taped interrogation simply marked the end of the intermission, an intermission to a drama whose opening act was played out nearly two decades ago.
