Hilda bit her lip. 'I don't know what made me say that. I didn't mean to interrupt.
Go on please, and tell me how it was.'
'Well, it was like that. Almost as if he were there. In a way, he really is there. She never lets him go. It's the most beautiful and dignified sorrow I've ever known. It's so beautiful that it has its compensations, I should think. Its very completeness is a compensation. It gives her a fixed star to steer by. She doesn't drift. We sat there evening after evening in the quiet of that magically haunted room, and watched the sunset burn on the river, and felt him. Felt him with a difference, of course.'
Hilda leaned forward, her elbow on her knee, her chin on her hand. 'With a difference? Because of her, you mean?'
Wilson's brow wrinkled. 'Something like that, yes. Of course, as time goes on, to her he becomes more and more their simple personal relation.'
Hilda studied the droop of the Professor's head intently. 'You didn't altogether like that? You felt it wasn't wholly fair to him?'
Wilson shook himself and readjusted his glasses. 'Oh, fair enough. More than fair. Of course, I always felt that my image of him was just a little different from hers. No relation is so complete that it can hold absolutely all of a person. And I liked him just as he was; his deviations, too; the places where he didn't square.'
Hilda considered vaguely. 'Has she grown much older?' she asked at last.
'Yes, and no. In a tragic way she is even handsomer. But colder. Cold for everything but him. `Forget thyself to marble'; I kept thinking of that. Her happiness was a happiness a deux, not apart from the world, but actually against it. And now her grief is like that. She saves herself for it and doesn't even go through the form of seeing people much. I'm sorry. It would be better for her, and might be so good for them, if she could let other people in.'
'Perhaps she's afraid of letting him out a little, of sharing him with somebody.'
Wilson put down his cup and looked up with vague alarm. 'Dear me, it takes a woman to think of that, now! I don't, you know, think we ought to be hard on her.
More, even, than the rest of us she didn't choose her destiny. She underwent it.
And it has left her chilled. As to her not wishing to take the world into her confidence--well, it is a pretty brutal and stupid world, after all, you know.'
Hilda leaned forward. 'Yes, I know, I know. Only I can't help being glad that there was something for him even in stupid and vulgar people. My little Marie worshiped him. When she is dusting I always know when she has come to his picture.'
Wilson nodded. 'Oh, yes! He left an echo. The ripples go on in all of us. He belonged to the people who make the play, and most of us are only onlookers at the best. We shouldn't wonder too much at Mrs. Alexander. She must feel how useless it would be to stir about, that she may as well sit still; that nothing can happen to her after Bartley.'
'Yes,' said Hilda softly, 'nothing can happen to one after Bartley.'
They both sat looking into the fire.
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