San Francisco Noir

Hey, she shouted, come on! It is fun! and she waved at me, as if she’d just run into a line of surf that looked inviting but might have been thought too cold for immersion. In spite of myself, I gave a little wave in return.

She hung there, two hundred fifty feet above the glinting ocean, but not far from a disheveled, vacant-looking fellow who, observing Baby’s classy entrance, rolled, wiggled, swam, and serpentined his way over to her, where he struck up a conversation. He must have been an old hand at getting jumped. The traffic was loud enough to prevent my overhearing their remarks, but as I stood there squinting, a very excited young woman came rushing down the sidewalk with one arm crooked under a clipboard. She wore a Right to Die armband just above her left elbow, its insignia a skeleton with one raised boney fist.

A great day, she effused, stopping next to me to make a mark on her papers. We’ve nearly made the quota.

I excused myself to her and inquired, What quota?

Why, we’ve nearly gotten it, she said, and held the clipboard under my nose. I could see that its papers were covered with figures and calculations, but they were meaningless to me. One number, written in digits larger than the rest, was circled heavily in red pencil.

Gotten what? I asked. What’s this seven five nine?

That’s how many we need, she bubbled. Seven hundred fifty-nine. And we’re only a very few short.

Oh, said I. Is this a petition?

You mean you really don’t know? It’s…well. Now that you mention it, it is a sort of petition…Her voice, already closely contested by the noises of wind and traffic, was suddenly lost in a great roar that went up from the crowd milling about the rail further up the sidewalk, at the center of the span. These and some of the people already suspended began to chant the numbers seven five nine, seven five nine, seven five nine.

My goodness, I heard the girl say. She pushed past me and pointed. He must be the one. We’ve done it!

Following her gaze with my own, I saw a man standing alone on the railing. He bowed deeply to the crowd beneath him, who cheered him loudly. After several fancy adieus on his part, consisting of additional bows, florid salutations performed with the hands, the blowing of kisses, and even a curtsy, I’d begun to understand, and shoved the girl with the clipboard away from the guardrail. The young man with Baby had his arm tentatively about her shoulders, and smiled as if beatified. Baby’s eyes, round and tense, caught mine. As another, louder cheer went up, her eyes smiled and she laughed outright at the consternation undoubtedly blatant on my own features. A third time the crowd cheered, and the man on the rail jumped. He fell as Baby had before him, and though his oscillations were more pronounced-he went down perhaps eight or ten yards, rebounded upwards two or three yards, went down again a couple of feet-his additional weight did not destroy the forcefield. The people suspended in its grip bobbed gently, like gulls on a swell. I made my decision. Glancing up the length of the bridge as I vaulted the railing, I saw that many of the bystanders, perhaps out of premeditation, perhaps spontaneously, had come to the same conclusion as myself. As we cleared the last bit of structure, I could see that the void was full of falling bodies, enough so that as Baby and I embraced, as I looked into her eyes-those lovely, mischievous eyes that did not retreat from the gaze of my own, oh, so foreverly-my fall was hardly interrupted. Our combined mass buckled the entire field on that side of the bridge and Baby and I, and nearly eight hundred others, minus the thirteen of us, survivors predicted by the harsh statistics of experience, fell toward our deaths.

And a victory, of sorts.

FIXED BY JON LONGHI

The Haight-Ashbury

Iused to buy drugs from Satan, a dealer who called himself Hal Satan. He was also a poet and performance artist, and Hal Satan was his stage name. He liked his stage name so much he decided to use it all the time. Besides, he eventually did so many drugs that the lines between reality and the creations of his own imagination blurred to the point where he couldn’t tell the difference between them anyway.

“I’ve been going to some twelve-step meetings lately,” Satan said. “With all the drugs and stuff, I’ve been feeling kinda broken and I just wanna get myself, you know…fixed. A lot of these people at these meetings may not be drinking or doing coke anymore, but they still have addictions of one kind or another. A lot of guys at these meetings are addicted to porn.

“Like this one guy who couldn’t stay out of peep shows. His every extra cent went to magazines. One week, he was like, ‘Well, I managed to get off the porn. I haven’t been to a peep show or bought a magazine in two weeks. But now I find I can’t keep myself from caulking parking meters.’

“‘What do you mean, caulking parking meters?’ I asked.

“‘I mean just what I said,’ he replied. He was taking a caulking gun and injecting it into parking meters. And I thought, Jesus, how much more Freudian can you get than to take a phallic ‘gun’ and inject white goo into a little slot?”

“You can see it on a lot of levels,” I said. “It’s like, in an attempt to stay out of peep shows, he had to go around sealing up all the coin slots.”

“Just the whole thing,” Satan said. “Well, a couple weeks later he’s at the meeting again, and he says, ‘Well, I managed to stop caulking parking meters but now I’m back on the porn again.’”

Although it was commendable that he was trying to clean up his act, the twelve-step meetings never seemed to help Satan. No matter how many he went to, he still managed to stay completely strung out. In fact, he frequently found himself doing drugs before he went to one, just to get through it. Eventually, he just stopped going to them altogether.

“I realized that twelve-step meetings had become just another addiction for me,” Satan explained. “And since I’m trying to clean up my act and get rid of my addictions, I had to start somewhere.”

Hal Satan was the only dealer I ever had who would deliver. A half hour, well, actually, forty-five minutes, sometimes an hour, after you called him, he’d bring by a quarter of generic green bud on his scooter. Just like Domino’s Pizza.

Satan started out just dealing weed but he quickly diversified into all sorts of hard drugs. He wanted to be all things to all people. “Shouldn’t Satan provide all vices?” he reasoned. But keeping up with such a complex line of distributed substances made his already crazy and chaotic life utterly schizophrenic. The biggest problem was that he couldn’t stop sampling what he sold. “What’s the fun of being Satan if you can’t also enjoy the vices you hand out?” he once told me. The problem, though, with that line of reasoning is that Satan very rapidly became a total junkie. In fact, every time I scored drugs from him at his armpit of an apartment, I couldn’t help feeling that he was a perfect illustration of what it must be like to be strung out in Hell.

Satan’s apartment was right down from the corner of Haight and Ashbury. The address, appropriately enough, was 666 Ashbury, and this had been a contributing factor to him adopting the name Satan.

“Who else but Satan could live at 666?” he explained. It was hard to argue with that.

The apartment was a garbage dump where a few humans coexisted with the vermin. The kitchen sink was long lost in a fossilized stack of dirty pots. A huge heap of beer bottles, greasy pizza boxes, and other trash took over an entire corner of the living room.

“We clean the place once every three years, whether it needs it or not,” one of the roommates once joked. In the bathroom, the toilet seat had stuck to the bowl due to a gluey growth of mold and it could no longer be put up. Sometimes when you got a bag from Satan you had to flick roaches and other little bugs out of your buds.

Nobody had washed the dishes at 666 in a long time. Very few of them were even still in the kitchen. Instead, they were on various surfaces around the living and bedrooms. Most of them looked like petri plates covered with medical experiments of mold and rotten food. The few plates that were still clean were used to consume drugs. The plates used to snort coke and speed off of, for example, were always licked spotlessly clean. Every piece of furniture in that apartment was so cratered with cigarette and burn holes that it looked like a map of the moon. The carpet was a grayish-black desert of ash. When you walked across it, little clouds of dust and ash rose up