Mexico City Noir

despite many layers of mesh. His spirit traveled from the incorrupt body in Seville to watch over his dominion in New Spain.

The penitent and the confessor strolled out together. They walked from the portico to a tainted lawn, careful not to disturb the sickly, glue-addicted children huddled about.

“Check out their stomachs, hija. Those strange cavities are ulcers, and look at that one’s sunken skull. Very few of them are worth eating. Not even a cannibal would be tempted.”

“What about the man who came over here a few days ago?”

“The guy who ate his lover? He didn’t dress his victim very well, according to Prospero, my neighbor in the confessionals, a baldhead who walks around in torn sneakers. Would you like to catch the cannibal?”

“If Madre-Excuse me. I caught one-well, I didn’t, but I was there when they caught him, Madre-Excuse me again.”

“I’m not offended by the gender confusion. We are surgical angels.” The priest covered his head a bit more with his hood, allowing only the slightest glimpse of his waxen scalp. “This church is Mexican baroque, which is kind of poignant, don’t you think? Scary, isn’t it? Look how the sky has turned purplish. It’s because of the smog; in a little while it’ll turn blue. This city always manages to get drenched in liturgical colors. If you want to find lost kids, go down to the sewers and poke around in the drains with a wire… Let’s go down to the pantheon.”

He shook his brown habit, waving away the stains of urban shame. They were greeted by an immense pink marble funerary urn in the center of a modest garden which contained the petrified remains of a fierce military man, a conservative Indian shot next to Archduke Maximilian of the Mexican Empire. They walked among the graves in the San Fernando pantheon under the city’s lecherous gray sky.

“Did you use torture when you were a cop?”

“On men, but it wasn’t what you think.”

“Torture. Don’t be afraid of the word. You were no doubt turned on by their erections when you used the cattle prod on them. Electricity is miraculous-like the tolling of San Fernando’s testicle.”

“Are you still listening to my confession?”

“I confess once again that I was waiting for you. You remind me of an old lover. Let’s see… San Fernando whipped the flesh of his soldiers with barbs. Times are changing; you have to adapt to technology. Did you get aroused?”

“I was a bit soft. My peers harassed me and I had to show I had balls, so yes, yes, I got aroused. I’d caress them after they passed out.”

“Who did you sleep with?” asked the priest.

“With Commander Perez…” The girl practically fainted after saying this, her back to the cross, her face like a Mediterranean spring. The city’s dense air shrouded her white Gap pants and aquamarine Zara T-shirt-flea market bootlegs-in a gray aura. If she’d been naked, an infantile San Juan de Dios would have covered her breasts with his hair like sea foam, Renaissance style.

The hooded priest took her by the hand. “Look at the grave of Benito Juarez; he gave the order to shoot the soldier buried at the entrance. He was an Indian too. That’s Mexico City: Everything’s mixed. Fatality and hope are tangled in the same vine. This pantheon still smells of death. Supposedly, everything decomposes in the tropics. But some things are still here even if you don’t see them. Look at the tombstone that says Isadora Duncan-she’s here, but she’s also buried in Nice. That’s how Mexicans are: an admirer had this cenotaph made for her to put next to Juarez the Indian. This is miscegenation!” The priest’s flowing sleeve stretched as he gestured toward the cemetery. “Tell me about your erections.”

The conversation became a murmur reverberating in the crepuscular traffic. When they arrived back at the church, the priest closed the aged oak portico. They made their way down the middle aisle, past the pews now empty of their beatific penitents, whose scents still lingered. A ring of lights like sentries revealed a painting that covered one wall of the nave; hundreds of these sentries guarded a multitude of friars on their knees, gazing up with admiration at the seven martyrs of Ceuta and the seven from Morocco; they praised the Lord on a cross sprouting fir bulbs, and the nine hierarchies of the celestial court in the sky: archangels, thrones, powers, dominions, cherubs, seraphim, angels, principalities, virtues. The painting emanated shadows. A gloom grew on another wall, barely touched by four handfuls of fire coming from the cave of Bethlehem-four is a sacred Indian number. Above the cave, in the stormy sky, a cloud curled up the spiraling stream that represented the native water, water and fire-atl and tlachinolli-and an irascible San Fernando stood on the altar in a niche surrounded by chiaroscuro coils worked by Indian hands.

Night fell on the children scattered around the church and vestibule. A sad figure in a Burberry raincoat bought at the Galleria on New Bond Street in London turned his back on them. A police officer in Mexico earns enough to take a group vacation, and to finance a sex change for a favorite subordinate. This was Commander Perez. He looked languidly at the vestibule, raised his eyes to San Fernando, King of Castile, flanked by four angels. For him, a devout Christian, San Fernando was a phantom. The police officer’s spirit had taken a different path, one with lyrics to boleros and desire for a young body whose sex he had changed, who now accosted his soul. He breathed with a deep, loving sadness.

Inside, the penitent and the confessor continued through the thick darkness of the hall of tombs. A bell rang for the dead. The altar boy with the small brazier let it toll, sighing when an airplane passed above the church.

“You know what the brains are like in those kids out there?” said the priest. “Like marine sponges with a thousand eyes. They stink of toluene or whatever it is they put in that glue. It perforates their brains. They can be marinated and boiled, then the scent goes away. Do you know what they taste like? Are they the lost ones you’re trying to find? Incidentally, you haven’t even told me your name.”

“Nausicaa,” replied the girl.

“How sophisticated. Who gave you that name?”

“Commander Perez.”

“I would have named you Xochitl Fernanda. It’s much more Mexican. My name is Diego Tonatiuh. Before, I was called Temeraria, reckless. Blame it on my father, an anarchist from Aragon who took refuge in this mixed-up city; he was mestiza like me. They say I killed him with a dirty look for making me become a nun.”

At that moment, the altar boy with the small brazier peeked over the pulpit and asked, “Do you want to stay the night?” He looked like a little cherub frolicking after the gentle figure of the Archangel Michael, whose lance had been stolen to skewer the devil. Neither penitent nor confessor responded.

Finally the girl spoke: “I have to go to work, Father… And I never asked you: how long has it been since you changed your sex?”

“Before the deluge, before the plagues of Egypt, before the First Sun, before the Nahui Ocelotl that lasted 674 years, and before all those people were devoured by tigers. Then came four more suns, and then the last: San Fernando.”

The priest suddenly fell to the ground in ecstasy and Nausicaa thought the altar boy was speaking through him, the nasally voice of a cherub through the throat of an old monk: “Pange, lingua, gloriosi corporis mysterium, sanguinisque pretiosi… God is fanatical, hija,” he said, convulsing. “He makes me say things, see and hear what’s not real. The body is a mystery and blood is precious…”

The altar boy came down from the pulpit, helped the priest up from the tangle of his robe, and whispered something in his ear. When the priest saw Nausicaa’s astonished look, he told her to pay no mind, it was just an apparition in transit. He recovered his poise, his voice turning deep again.

“If I were to say it in Castilian, it would be something like a soul en route to… Heaven? Limbo? I can’t tell you for sure. Since we’re dealing with a street kid, I don’t even know if he’s been baptized. If I were to say it in Mexican, then it would be a teyolia disguised as an altar boy on his way to one of the four worlds of Mictlan, an inferno for elders from these parts, something akin to a spirit to us Christians. Where will it go? He’s too much of a lazy ass to be leaning on the teat tree in Chichihualco and sucking away for all of eternity. Will you let me see your tits? I don’t like to call them chichis; it’s a Mexicanism that doesn’t sound right to me-remember, I have Aragonese