that he had won, even though Tresham described him as one of the world’s worst whips. Angeline had almost had a fit of the vapors, even though she had been
“So am I,” he said. “He had no business behaving so recklessly. He had duties to his position. More important, he had a wife and a young daughter.”
“Perhaps,” she said, “he succumbed to a momentary temptation to return to the wildness of his youth. Perhaps he was not always so irresponsible.”
“He was,” he said curtly.
Angeline said nothing as they wound their way along a path in the direction of the pond.
“I loved him,” he said just as curtly.
And she realized something. He was a man in pain. Still. It was perhaps even more painful to mourn for someone who in many ways did not deserve your grief than it was to mourn for someone who did. No, there was no
“And so you feel,” she said, “that you must do better than he did.”
There was a rather lengthy silence this time as they stopped by the pond and gazed onto its dark surface, which was lit in part by one of the lamps in a nearby tree. The fountain bubbled softly in contrast with the sound of lively music coming from the ballroom.
“Not really,” he said. “I was always more serious-minded than Maurice. I always felt that I should do what I ought to do and that I should consider the effect my behavior would have on other people, particularly on those close to me, if I did not. I was always a dull fellow, and I compounded my dullness by criticizing the way Maurice neglected Wimsbury Abbey and the other estates. I criticized him for his wild, reckless behavior, especially after his marriage. But—”
“But—?” she prompted when he stopped.
“But everyone loved him despite it all,” he said. “Everyone adored him, in fact.”
“Even the Countess of Heyward?” she asked softly.
“Lorraine.” He spoke just as softly. “I believe she did at the start. She had a difficult confinement with Susan. He was there when it started. Then he went out. He returned three days later, in the same clothes, unshaven, red-eyed, still foxed. He had been celebrating with his friends, he told us.”
“Perhaps,” she suggested, “pain frightened him.”
“But Lorraine could not have run away if
“Yes,” she agreed.
One solution, of course, was to become as rakish as one’s husband. As her mother had done. If
“There is a seat just behind us,” she said. “Shall we sit for a while?”
He looked back and then led her toward it. It was set just below the branch from which the lamp swung in the slight breeze. Dim light flickered over their heads and then reflected in the water. There was the smell of water and greenery, Angeline noticed. It was more enticing than the heavier scent of all the flowers in the ballroom.
They sat in silence for a few moments and she sensed his growing discomfort.
“I do beg your pardon,” he said abruptly at last. “I ought not to have spoken of such personal matters.”
It was the darkness and relative seclusion, she guessed, that had loosened his tongue. She was glad it had happened, though. She felt that she had learned a great deal about him in just a few minutes, when perhaps he had spoken incautiously of private concerns. But she did not want them to become maudlin.
“What ought we to be talking about, then?” she asked him. “The weather? Our health?
He did not smile, but she sensed that his discomfort had left him and that he was more relaxed. Perhaps he was even smiling. She could not see his face clearly enough to know for sure. Perhaps he
“What answer am I to give to that?” he asked her. “I suspect you are exaggerating.”
“Not at all,” she said. “
“Your hat?” he said a little too quickly. “I did not notice it.”
“Liar.” She laughed. “Ferdinand told me it was quite atrocious, that it made him almost ashamed to be seen with me. But my brothers are always blunt to the point of rudeness. They used to play horrid tricks on me when we were children. Sometimes they allowed me to play with them, particularly if their game called for them to rescue a lady in distress or to win a lady’s favor with some deed of great derring-do. But sometimes they did not want me, and then they would tell me to meet them in a certain place at a certain time and sneak away a different way and at a different time. And then they would always ask me with a show of great innocence why I had not shown up and would take great pleasure in giving me the details of all I had missed.”
She smiled at him and reached out to cover his hand with her own.
Oh, goodness me. Action before thought—again.
She knew immediately that she had committed a dreadful wrong. For one thing, he stiffened instantly though he did not move his hand. For another, she felt immediately heated and breathless and flustered—and quite unable to snatch back her hand or, better yet, to tap his lightly and withdraw her own as though nothing untoward had happened at all.
Instead, she left her hand where it was and gazed at him with wide eyes.
Oh, goodness gracious me, she could
It was not the first time she had set her hand on the back of his. She had done it when he led out into the opening set of dances. She had done it again when they had left the supper room. But somehow this was altogether different.
He turned his hand beneath hers so that they were palm to palm. And then he closed his fingers about her hand.
She swallowed hard and loudly enough to drown out all other sounds for a half- mile radius.
“Have you been told,” he asked her, “that I am to be your primary suitor, Lady Angeline? Have you been instructed to allow me to court you?”
She almost froze with horror. He