The Secret Mistress

counting out the rhythm and being careful to set his feet somewhere—anywhere—except on top of his partner’s. The waltz really was rather a splendid dance. He smiled down at her.

“Another secret,” she said. “You are the most divine waltzing partner in the world. No one else will ever know, and I shall not tell.”

She smiled back into his eyes. He twirled her again, and it seemed to him that he could not miss a step or tread on her toes if he tried. He led a charmed existence.

She threw her head back and laughed.

And it sounded as if he had hurled a silent challenge at fate, which in his experience did not like to be tempted. He stopped dancing just out of the beam of a branch of candles on the mantel inside the drawing room.

“Come,” he said. “It is almost as bright as day out here. Look at the moonlight on the lake. Let us go closer and feast on the sight.”

She slipped her arm through his and they proceeded across the wide, sloping lawn, which was actually darker than he had anticipated. But the moonlit water was like a beacon ahead of them and there did not appear to be any clouds overhead that might obliterate it at any moment and plunge them into total darkness.

The air was still almost warm.

He slid his arm free of hers and took her hand in his own, lacing their fingers together. And he drew her closer to his side so her shoulder leaned against his upper arm.

Last night seemed a bit like a dream. It had been real, though. A dream could not possibly be so vivid. He still could not believe he had done something so … bold. Or that he still did not regret it or feel any guilt whatsoever.

The water was as smooth as glass. There was not a breath of wind. Beyond the lake were the trees and the hill and the tower folly at the top of it. Its silhouette was visible even now in the darkness. Moonlight shimmered in a broad band across the water. It was not a silent scene, though. All around them insects were going about the business of their lives and making noise about it, darkness and night notwithstanding, and somewhere among the trees an owl hooted occasionally just to let the rest of the world know that it was there.

The sounds merely accentuated the calm serenity of the scene.

“Angeline,” he said, his hand tightening slightly around hers, his eyes on the water, “will you marry me?”

“Yes, Edward,” she said.

Just like that. And just like that they were betrothed and bound together for life.

It was surely the most moving marriage proposal and acceptance ever made. He smiled at the water.

He turned his head and she turned hers and their mouths met. Just like that. Their bodies did not turn. They did not wrap their arms about each other. There was no burning passion.

Only …

Well, only that thing beyond words.

Peace.

Rightness.

Love.

It was no use. There really were no words. And it absolutely did not matter. There did not need to be words.

He spoke some anyway.

“I love you,” he said.

She smiled softly in the light of the moon.

“I know,” she said.

Which was by far the most eloquent speech he had ever heard from her lips.

Chapter 23

ANGELINE HAD CHOSEN pale yellow muslin for her wedding dress. Her initial choice had been a bright sunshine yellow, like her favorite old day dress, but she had ended up taking the advice of Cousin Rosalie and Miss Goddard, who had both accompanied her to the modiste’s and were in agreement with each other.

“The dress is to be worn on your wedding day,” Miss Goddard had explained. “And on your wedding day all the focus of attention must be upon you, not upon your clothes. And really, you know, Lady Angeline, you are worth focusing upon.”

“And you will be especially radiant on your wedding day,” Cousin Rosalie agreed. “A bright dress will be quite unnecessary.”

Miss Goddard had been at the modiste’s on her own account as well as to advise her friend, and she had chosen pale blue and a simple design. She was to marry Lord Windrow in Cambridge two weeks after Angeline’s own wedding. Cousin Leonard and the Countess of Heyward, now Lady Fenner, had married at his country estate two weeks ago. There was a flurry of weddings now at the end of the Season, as there always was, and there were more to come. Martha’s betrothal to Mr. Griddles had just been announced, and Maria was in imminent expectation of a declaration from Mr. Stebbins.

Angeline had resisted the urge to complete her wedding outfit with a flamboyant bonnet, though it had been a very strong urge. A wedding was a festive occasion, after all, and a festive bonnet ought to be … well, festive. However, all on her own, without even consulting the opinions of her cousin and her friend, she had decided upon a small-brimmed straw bonnet with a high crown, and had had it trimmed with white lace and white and yellow daisies and white ribbons. She had bought white gloves and white slippers.

And looking at herself now in the pier glass in her dressing room, she had to admit that she looked almost pretty. Except that the paleness of the garments accentuated the darkness of her hair and eyes and her dark-hued complexion. And there was nothing delicate about her features. But there was nothing she could do about any of that.

She wondered fleetingly what her mother would have thought about her today. Would she have thought the clothes tasteful? Would she have thought her daughter pretty? Would she have been happy?

“Mama.”

Angeline formed the name with her lips but did not speak aloud. She supposed there would always be a sort of wistful sadness in her whenever she remembered her mother and the fact that she had never measured up to her mother’s expectations. But she would use the memories in a positive way. When she had daughters, she would adore them from the moment of their birth, and she would shower them with love and approval no matter what they were like. They might be timid or bold, pretty or plain, it would not matter. They would be her daughters. And her sons would be her sons. Oh, she hoped there would be a dozen of each and that they would start coming soon. Well, perhaps not a dozen of each or even a dozen all told, but many of them anyway. She wanted to be surrounded by children. She wanted Edward and her to be surrounded by children.

“Oh, my lady.” Betty was sniveling. “You do look lovely.”

Angeline spun around and hugged her impulsively, turning Betty’s snivels to shrieks lest she crease Lady Angeline’s dress or drip on it. But before any such disaster could occur, the maid had to turn to open the door of the dressing room, upon which someone had knocked.

“Well, Angeline,” Tresham said, standing in the doorway and looking her over