Paul's for my third meeting of the day. I couldn't recall the last time I'd gone to that many, but it had certainly been a while.
It wasn't because I felt in danger of drinking. The thought of a drink had never been further from my mind. Nor did I feel beset by problems, or unable to reach a decision.
What I did feel, I realized, was a sense of depletion, of exhaustion.
The all-nighter at the Frontenac had taken its toll, but its effects had been pretty much offset by a couple of good meals and nine hours of uninterrupted sleep. But I was still very much at the effect of the case itself. I had worked hard on it, letting it absorb me entirely, and now it was finished.
Except, of course, that it wasn't. The killers had not even been identified, let alone apprehended. I had done what I recognized as excellent detective work and it had produced significant results, but the case itself had not been brought to anything like a conclusion. So the exhaustion I felt wasn't part of a glorious feeling of completion. Tired or not, I had promises to keep. And miles to go.
So I was at another meeting, a safe and restful place. I talked with Jim Faber during the break, and walked out with him at the end of the meeting. He didn't have time to get a cup of coffee but I walked him most of the way to his apartment and we wound up standing on a street corner and talking for a few minutes. Then I went home and once again I didn't call Kenan Khoury, but I did call his brother. His name had come up in my conversation with Jim, and neither of us could remember having seen him in the past week. So I dialed Peter's number but there was no answer. I called Elaine and we talked for a few minutes. She mentioned that Pam Cassidy had called to say she wouldn't be calling—
i.e., Drew had told her not to be in touch with me or Elaine for the time being, and she wanted to let Elaine know so she wouldn't worry.
I called Drew first thing the next morning and he said everything had gone well enough and he'd found Kelly hardnosed but not unreasonable. 'If you want to wish for something,' he suggested, 'wish that the guy turns out to be rich.'
'Kelly? You don't get rich in Homicide. There's no graft in it.'
'Not Kelly, for God's sake. Ray.'
'Who?'
'The killer,' he said. 'The one with the wire, for God's sake. Don't you listen to your own client?'
She wasn't my client, but he didn't know that. I asked him why on earth we would want Ray to turn out to be rich.
'So we can sue his ass off.'
'I was hoping to see it locked up for the rest of his life.'
'Yeah, I have the same hope,' he said, 'but we both know what can happen in criminal court. But one thing I damn well know is that if they so much as indict the son of a bitch I can get a civil judgment for every dime he's got. But that's only worth something if he's got a few bucks.'
'You never know,' I said. What I did know was that there weren't too many millionaires living in Sunset Park, but I didn't want to mention Sunset Park to Kaplan, and anyway I had no reason to assume that both of them, or all three of them if we were dealing with three, actually lived there. For all I knew, Ray had a suite at the Pierre.
'I know I'd like to find somebody to sue,' he said. 'Maybe the bastards used a company truck. I'd like to find some collateral defendant somewhere down the line so that I can at least get her a decent settlement. She deserves it after what she went through.'
'And that way your pro bono work would turn out to be cost-effective, wouldn't it?'
'So? There's nothing wrong with that, but I've got to tell you that my end of it isn't my chief concern.
Seriously.'
'Okay.'
'She's a damn good kid,' he said. 'Tough and gutsy, but there's a core of innocence about her, do you know what I mean?'
'I know.'
'And those bastards really put her through it. Did she show you what they did to her?'
'She told me.'
'She told me, too, but she also showed me. You think the knowledge prepares you, but believe me, the visual impact is staggering.'
'No kidding,' I said. 'Did she also show you what she's got left, so you could appreciate the extent of her loss?'
'You've got a dirty mind, you know that?'
'I know,' I said. 'At least that's what everybody tells me.'
I CALLED John Kelly's office and was told he was in court. When I gave my name the cop I was talking to said, 'Oh, he'll want to talk to you. Give me your number, I'll beep him for you.' A little while later Kelly got back to me and we arranged to meet at a place called The Docket around the corner from Borough Hall. The place was new to me, but it felt just like places I knew in downtown Manhattan, bar-restaurants with a clientele that ran to cops and lawyers and a decor that featured a lot of brass and leather and dark wood.
Kelly and I had never met, a point we both overlooked when we set up the meeting, but as it turned out I had no trouble recognizing him.
He looked just like his father.
'I been hearing that all my life,' he said.
