'Could be. Some of the TVs do. Most of 'em don't, from what I know. Maybe I could ask around.'
'Maybe you could.'
'I haven't seen Duffy in months. I think I heard he was dead. But I'll ask around. Hard to figure, though, that a girl like Kim had anything in common with a little Jewish queen from the Island.'
A Jewish queen and a Dairy Queen, I thought, and thought of Donna.
'Maybe they were sisters,' I suggested.
'Sisters?'
'Under the skin.'
I wanted breakfast, but when I hit the street I bought a paper before I did anything else, and I could see right away that it wasn't going to make a good accompaniment for my bacon and eggs. Hotel Ripper Claims Second Victim, the top teaser headline announced. And then, in big block caps, sex-change hooker butchered in queens.
I folded it, tucked it under my arm. I don't know what I thought I was going to do first, read the paper or eat, but my feet decided for me and picked neither of those choices. I walked two blocks before I realized I was heading for the Y on West Sixty-third, and that I was going to get there just in time for the twelve-thirty meeting.
What the hell, I thought. Their coffee was as good as anybody else's.
I got out of there an hour later and had breakfast in a Greek joint around the corner on Broadway. I read the paper while I ate. It didn't seem to bother me now.
There wasn't much in the story I didn't already know. The victim was described as having lived in the East Village; I'd somehow assumed she lived across the river in Queens. Garfein had mentioned Floral Park, just across the line in Nassau County, and evidently that was where she'd grown up. Her parents, according to the Post, had both died several years earlier in an air crash. Mark/Sara/Cookie's sole surviving relative was a brother, Adrian Blaustein, a wholesale jeweler residing in Forest Hills with offices on West Forty-seventh Street. He was out of the country and had not yet been notified of his brother's death.
His brother's death? Or his sister's? How did a relative relate to someone who'd changed sex? How did a respectable businessman regard a brother-turned-sister who turned quick tricks in strangers' parked cars?
What would Cookie Blue's death mean to Adrian Blaustein?
What did it mean to me?
Any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind. Any man's death, any woman's death, any death in between.
But did it diminish me? And was I truly involved?
I could still feel the trigger of the .32 trembling beneath my finger.
I ordered another cup of coffee and turned to a story about a young soldier home on furlough, playing pickup basketball at a sandlot game in the Bronx. A gun had apparently fallen out of some bystander's pocket, discharging on impact, and the bullet had struck this young serviceman and killed him instantly. I read the story through a second time and sat there shaking my head at it.
One more way to die. Jesus, there really were eight million of them, weren't there?
At twenty to nine that evening I slipped into the basement of a church on Prince Street in SoHo. I got myself a cup of coffee, and while I looked for a seat I scanned the room for Jan. She was near the front on the right-hand side. I sat further back near the coffee.
The speaker was a woman in her thirties who drank for ten years and spent the last three of them on the Bowery, panhandling and wiping windshields to get money for wine. 'Even on the Bowery,' she said,
'there are some people who know how to take care of themselves.
Some of the men down there always carry a razor and a bar of soap. I gravitated straight to the other kind, the ones who don't shave and don't wash and don't change their clothes. A little voice in my head said, 'Rita, you're right where you belong.' '
During the break I ran into Jan on her way to the coffee urn. She seemed pleased to see me. 'I was in the neighborhood,' I explained,
'and it got to be meeting time. It occurred to me I might see you here.'
'Oh, this is one of my regular meetings,' she said. 'We'll go for coffee after, okay?'
'Sure.'
A dozen of us wound up around a couple of tables in a coffee shop on West Broadway. I didn't take a very active part in the conversation, or pay too much attention to it. Eventually the waiter distributed separate checks. Jan paid hers and I paid mine and the two of us headed downtown toward her place.
I said, 'I didn't just happen to be in the neighborhood.'
'There's a big surprise.'
'I wanted to talk to you. I don't know if you read today's paper—'
'About the killing in Queens? Yes, I did.'
'I was out there. I'm all wound up and I feel the need to talk about it.'
We went up to her loft and she made a pot of coffee. I sat with a cup of coffee in front of me and by the time I stopped talking and took a sip it was cold. I brought her up to date, told her about Kim's fur jacket, about the drunken kids and the broken wine bottle, about the trip to Queens and what we'd found there. And I told her, too, how I'd spent this afternoon, riding the subway across the river and walking around Long Island City, returning to knock on doors in Cookie Blue's East Village tenement, then crossed the island to work the gay bars on Christopher
