Working Stiff

something that looked like a simple doorbell, recessed beside the interior frame of her apartment door. “It hits up police and robo-texts me and Pat a nine-one-one with your address. I added break-resistant windows last night, with key locks and interior panic releases in case you have to get out quick. Here’s the alarm keypad. You put in the code and you arm tamper sensors on the wall under each window and on the door outside. You want to leave motion detectors on; you just press this button after you arm it. I configured it to ignore anything dog-size.”

He was good. Bryn, looking around the apartment, couldn’t see any sign that anything had been done at all, except for the keypad next to the apartment door and the recessed button. Well, the windows might have looked a little less grimy. “Anything else?”

“Here’s the deactivation code and secret panic code.” He passed over a sheet of paper. “Memorize and destroy; you know the drill. There’s a video surveillance monitor in the bedroom that shows you the external door and the outside walls, so if you’re worried about somebody out there, just check the feed. Got it?”

“Got it.” She cast him a look. “Anybody else watching my monitors back at the mother ship?”

He laughed. “Yeah. Can’t avoid that. They’ll keep tabs and records. We all get used to it.”

Or, Bryn thought, we build ourselves fortresses of solitude in the backyard and arm up with AK-47s.

“You’re clear on how the system works?”

“Yes.”

“Time to get back at it, then.” He yawned wide enough to crack his jaw. Bryn winced at the noise; it sounded painful. “Don’t worry; I’ll stay awake. Couple of pots of coffee will fix me right up.”

“Sorry.”

“Part of the job. Sleepless nights just come with the territory.” He dropped the apartment keys back into her hand and brushed a fleck of dust from his suit lapel. “How do I look?”

“Impressive.” He did. In the suit, Fideli looked trustworthy, calm, kind, attentive—all the things you should be as a funeral director. “I guess I’ll take my own car…. Oh, damn.” Her car was probably parked in a lot near that damn bar where she’d been so humiliatingly introduced to the concept of protocols.

“I had it brought over,” he said. “Don’t want people thinking the boss got smashed and had to be driven home.”

“Do you have any idea of the alcohol and drug abuse statistics among mortuary workers? It’s not like anyone would blink at my getting drunk.”

“It scares me that you knew that and still took the job.”

“Why? What are the self-harm statistics in your line of work?”

He was silent, then shrugged. “Point taken.” He bowed, elegant and formal, and yet warm in ways Patrick McCallister didn’t seem he could ever be. “After you, boss.”

* * *

Fairview Mortuary was now hers, Bryn thought. She stood there in the elegant lobby and greeted people, signed for flowers, assigned runners to take floral arrangements to viewing rooms and out to grave sites; she checked the clothing choices of staff to make sure everything was appropriate, and despaired, because she was not ready for this. She’d studied, she’d graduated, she’d apprenticed successfully, but this … this was different.

It wasn’t even the grief. She quickly got used to the raw emotions, and the awful, gut-ripping stories of loss; funeral directors learned how to distance themselves from that, like police officers and therapists. By the third day of what she supposed constituted her normal life, she’d hired on two more funeral directors and three assistants. Two of those assistants had lasted about half a day before leaving and never coming back, which Lucy assured her was entirely normal. “We never stop running the ads,” Lucy told her, as she helped get the death certificates filed and paged people for pickups out to residences, hospitals, and the county morgue. “Can’t keep assistants. You’re lucky if one makes it a few months, seems like. It’s even hard to keep funeral directors; I guess because they like to move around to greener pastures. We went through three last year.”

Well, Bryn thought, I know what happened to one of them. She’d seen him, still moving weakly in his body bag, body rotted into rags. The memory came back to her in a post-traumatic rush of sight, sound, and smell, and she felt herself waver. That’s my future.

No. No, it wasn‘t. She just had to keep telling herself that.

It was lucky Riley Block was on the staff, because there was no one, no one, better than Riley at doing the delicate, artistic work of embalming. Bryn was astonished the first time she went down to do her own work at how meticulous and neat the prep room was kept; nothing was left out, except what Riley was currently using. Every surface gleamed. Unlike the creepy atmosphere the place had had when Freddy reigned, this felt oddly warm and comfortable, even though it had the usual chilly temperature. Riley had brought in some lovely art to put on the walls, and warm lighting in the corners, and there was a subtle scent of vanilla and jasmine in the air to cover the usual uneasy spoiled-meat tang.

Bryn said hello and went to the locker to grab a gown and mask, which she tied on with practiced ease, and gloved up before retrieving Mrs. Jacoby from refrigeration. This one was simple enough that there was no need to waste Riley’s time, and Bryn needed the practice. She was discovering, as the days went by, that even as much education as she had left huge gaps in her practical experience.

Riley, she discovered, wasn’t chatty when she was working, so Bryn kept her silence, too. There was something oddly Zen about the prep room; it was like a chapel, hushed and peaceful. As Bryn made her incisions and hooked the carotid out of Mrs. Jacoby’s pale, fleshy neck, she concentrated on the details. Don’t break the surface was the first rule; the dead did bleed, particularly from the carotid, and it was a mess that ruined the clear field of vision and made embalming that much tougher. If she screwed this one up, she’d have to go for the femoral.

She didn’t screw it up.

The mechanics of the embalming went smoothly enough, and Mrs. Jacoby had died peacefully in her sleep. It was only a matter of pumping out the blood and pumping in embalming fluid, applying the hydration cream to keep the tissues supple, and suturing the mouth.

“You know the worst thing about this business?” Riley suddenly said. She stepped back from her table, sighed, put her hands on her hips, and stretched as if her back ached, which it probably did; Bryn’s already had a twinge, even though she’d probably done a lot less standing and leaning. “You can get used to the bodies, the smell, the mess. I’ve picked up bodies that were melted into furniture, they’d been down so long. You can get used to the grief, too.”

Bryn nodded. She’d already experienced that; after the first few days, she’d realized that the tearful stories still moved her, but not in a deeply personal way. She’d put up a wall to muffle the vulnerability. That was manageable. She’d seen the bad (Melissa) and the sad (most of the rest), and so far, only one that was crazy, but it was all a manageable process now. A continuum.

“You get used to thinking of them as just skin, bones, flesh, to-do lists, but every once in a while you find something that makes you realize they used to be just like you. Just like us.” Riley stared down at the man she was working on. He was a tough one, a car crash victim in his thirties. Handsome, too, though Bryn had more reason than most to subscribe to the whole beauty-is-skin-deep theory. “He had plane tickets in his pocket. He was supposed to be headed to Hawaii today—can you believe that? First class. He probably paid extra so he could really enjoy himself, and somewhere, right about now, they’re calling his name at the ticket counter and moving on to a standby because he hasn’t shown up.”

Riley was right. That made it uncomfortably real. There were so many layers of reality to the world. Nothing stopped for death; nothing stopped for grief or horror or tragedy.

As if she’d read her thoughts, Riley said, “The worst part of it is that it never stops. Death keeps coming. We get older; we get tired; we get sad and lonely because nobody understands what we do or why we do it. Police and firemen, they’re heroes. Us, we’re pariahs. And every day, there are more bodies.” She said it without any particular emotional emphasis; it was an observation, delivered calmly, but it chilled Bryn deep down.

“Then why do you do it?” she asked.

Riley turned and met her eyes. She didn’t smile. “Because I’m good at it,” she said. “Because it needs doing. Why do you?”

Originally, it had been because the money was good and the job was stable, but Bryn understood what Riley