She took the bag of clothes upstairs, and in a few minutes the water began to run. I turned on the evening news with Jess Marlowe and Sandy Hill, Sandy talked about Navy spies in San Diego. Not particularly relevant to Perry Lang unless Duran was smuggling state secrets to the Russkies. But in L.A., anything is possible. The water ran for a long time.
When Ellen came back downstairs she was wearing some of the clothes I’d brought and the white New Balance. Her face looked clean and blank, less vulnerable than at any time since I’d met her. She said something that surprised me. She said, “God, I could use a cigarette.”
I couldn’t see her having ever smoked. “When Joe gets back, I’ll get you some.”
She nodded slightly then shook her head. “No.” She stood next to the TV and crossed her arms. I couldn’t tell if she was looking at me or past me. “I quit almost six years ago. I just stopped. Janet says she goes crazy after about a day, but when I wanted to stop, I just stopped.”
“Tough to do.”
She said, “What did the police say?”
I thought about lying, but couldn’t think of anything good enough to explain why the cops weren’t here or we weren’t there, so I said, “It’s a Special Operations case now.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means the case was taken away from Poitras to be handled by some hotshots downtown.”
“What are they doing?”
“I don’t know. They shut Poitras and me out. They said they might come out to talk to you.”
“When?”
“Later.”
She looked at me calmly. She said, “But what are they doing about… all of this?” She gestured around her.
“I spoke with Joe this morning. Did he tell you anything that happened when I went to the cops?”
She shook her head, so I told her. When I was done she asked if she could have a glass of water. When I came back with it she looked just as she’d looked when I left. As if the idea that somebody on the police force could cave in to political pressure was an everyday and undisturbing event.
She said, “Sergeant Poitras goes along with this?”
“He has to. But he doesn’t like it, and he’s fighting it. He and his lieutenant were downtown this afternoon, trying to find out who’s damming the works.”
She said, “Unh-huh,” and drank the water. When the glass was empty she said, “My older daughter, Cindy, she hates me. She screams that if I were a better wife, her father would be happier.” She said it as if she were telling me she preferred tan shoes to cordovan.
“She’s wrong.”
“I tried being the best wife I could.”
“I know.”
“I tried.”
“There’s some insurance,” I said. “Not a lot. But some.”
She didn’t ask how much.
I sipped some of the scotch I’d poured for her. I said, “Look, I’ll find the dope or where the dope went and who has it and we’ll work something out with Duran. Then we’ll bring Poitras in and put it in his lap, and this will end.”
“But that man, O’Bannon, he said you were supposed to stay away.”
I shrugged.
She nodded and turned away and looked at the books and the figurines and the photos and the dark steel knight’s heraldry that line my shelves. A girlfriend who was a pretty good carpenter built the shelves for me from unfinished redwood. A place for me to keep my junk, she said. The TV sat at about eye level, the stereo beneath it, my books and mementos and treasures on either side. The latex Frankenstein mask was on a Styrofoam head. My junk. Out from the canyon, we could hear the first faint yelps of the coyotes, gearing up for a sing.
I drank more of the scotch but found it sour. I took the glass into the kitchen, threw out the booze, and went back into the living room with a can of pineapple juice.
“Mr. Pike says you read these same books over and over,” Ellen said.
“That’s true.”
She touched different volumes. “I know some of these. I read the histories of King Arthur when I was in college. I worked as a teacher’s aide. I read them to the children when the teachers went on break.”
“I’ll bet you enjoyed that.”
“Yes.” Ellen turned to me from the books. “Was Mr. Pike really a policeman?”
I was impressed. “He must like you. I’ve never known him to tell that to anyone.”
“Then he was.”
“For a while. Pike will never lie to you. You don’t have to doubt anything he says.”
“He says he’s a professional soldier.”
“He has gun shop in Culver City. He owns the agency with me. But sometimes he goes to places like El Salvador or Botswana or the Sudan. So I guess that makes him a part-time professional soldier.”
“Was he in Vietnam with you?”
“Not with me. He was in the Marines. We didn’t meet until after we’d mustered out and were back here in L.A. Pike was riding in a black-and-white. I was working with George Feider. We met on the job. When Pike and the cops parted company, I made the offer.”
“He told me he wasn’t a successful policeman.”
“He wasn’t successful, but he was outstanding. Pike and some of the cops he worked with had what we might call a grave philosophical difference. Guy like Pike, philosophy is all. He rode a black-and-white for three years and for three years he was outstanding. Even splendid. He just wasn’t successful.”
“He likes you quite a bit.”
“That’s the Marine. Marines are all fairies at heart.”
“Did he get those tattoos in Vietnam?”
“Yeah.”
“What for?”
“Ask him.”
“I did. He said I wouldn’t understand.”
“Joe’s got a little credo he lives by. Never back up. That’s what the arrows on his shoulders are for. They point forward. They keep him from backing up.”
She stared at the end of the sofa. “I understand that.”
I finished the pineapple juice and crushed the can. “Don’t let Joe get to you. Life is very simple to him, but it isn’t always the way he’d like it to be. Part of his problem with the cops.”
She nodded but didn’t look any less empty.
“Think of a samurai,” I said. “A warrior who requires order. That’s Pike.”
“The arrows.”
“Yeah. The arrows allow him to impose order on chaos. A professional soldier needs that.”
She thought about it. “And that’s what you are?”
“Not me. I’m just a private cop. I am also the antithesis of order.”
“He said you were a better soldier than he. He said you won a lot of decorations in the war.”
“Ha ha, that Pike. You see what a card that guy is? A million laughs.”
“He said you’d deny it.”
“A scream, that guy.”
“He said that everything of any real value that he’s learned, he’s learned from you.”
“Flip it to channel 11, wouldja?” I said. “I think Wheel of Fortunes on.”
She stared at me for a very long time. She didn’t change the channel. “I can’t be the person I was anymore, can I?”
I gave her gentle eyes. “No.”
She nodded, but probably not to me. “All right,” she said. “I can understand that, too.”
