Friends and Lovers

Nadia sat there looking at me for several seconds before quietly announcing 'Damn. You're right – I did decide it was okay for us to do all of that once I realized that you were as nice and patient as you are, and that I liked it, and you. And I see what you mean about liking or caring about someone being another way of saying you love them. You're right that I do love you, too -' not to get married or anything, but still liking you and caring about you.'

A moment later, she asked 'You think you're someone that I'd like? Isn't that being kind of – full of yourself?'

Janet started to speak, but when I waved my hand at her, she quieted down so I could tell Nadia 'I think I'm someone you might like, yes. That's because I know what kind of person I try to be: honest, and patient, and nice, and gentle, and other stuff like that. But I'm not full of myself because I know I'm not like that all the time, or as much as I'd like to be. Like Sis said, you have to be absolutely honest about what kind of person you are -' I know what's good and bad about me, and how much; and I'm always trying to make myself better. So I know that there's enough good stuff in me that other people will probably like me once they get to know me, but I also know that there's also enough in me that isn't good that I can't start thinking I'm something I'm not.'

When I was done, Janet quickly spoke up to add 'I think the same way, Nadia, and try to do the same things. Have I ever given you or anyone else any reason to think that I'm full of myself?'

'No, never; Danny, either. I was just surprised when he said that, and wanted to know why he did, is all', she answered, apologetically.

A few moments later, Nadia told us 'I think I've learned enough for one night. If you don't mind, I think it's probably time to get some sleep.'

'Of course', I told her before moving so that I could get off of Sis' bed. Both of them got up, too, and Nadia moved to stand in front of me so she could tell me 'I wanted to thank you again for tonight, Danny. What you said after you looked at me, it really did make me feel a lot better; and the stuff we did after you let me look at you was really nice.'

I put my arms around her, and she moved close enough for us to give each other a kiss before I told her 'I'm glad I could help, and that you're happy with what happened.'

After Nadia moved away from me, Sis and I kissed and wished each other a good night -' followed by my giving her a pat on the butt. After I left her room, I made a quick trip to the bathroom before going to bed myself.

Several weeks later, Sis and I had enjoyed a nice session of '69' after we got home from school, and were snuggling in my bed afterwards when she told me 'After you were with Nadia that night, she's been a lot more relaxed about how she looks, and even started flirting with guys. She's been asking me a plenty of questions about sex -' what it was like for me the first time, what positions I like, what feels good for me, and stuff like that. At first, I just figured she was curious; but when she kept asking me things – well, it wasn't hard to figure out that it was more than that. When I stayed over at her place last weekend, she told me that after her birthday last month, she went to the family planning place and they started her on birth control -' an IUD, like what Mom helped me get. I asked her how she could do that if she's never had sex before, and she said that her hymen broke when she was a little girl; that's a lot of why her folks are so strict about her going out, from what she said. I asked her why she did that, and she said she's thinking about starting to have sex.'

When Sis was silent, I kind of interrupted her to ask 'Let me guess -Nadia wants me to be the first guy she has sex with.'

She turned and looked at me in surprise before responding 'Yeah, she does. How did you know?'

My answer was to tell her 'Sis, sometimes you're about as subtle as a circus pony. I knew you were leading up to something, and as soon as you told me that Nadia was on birth control, I pretty much knew what was going on.'

Blushing slightly that she'd been found out, Janet told me 'After the way you were with her that night, she's sure that she'd be okay with you; and she*knows* that you wouldn't tell anyone, so her folks won't find out. She SAYS she's only thinking about it, and wanted me to find out if you'd be willing to go that far with her. If she decides she's ready, she'd be the one to actually ask you; but the way she's been acting, I don't think there's much 'if' to it. Would you be willing to go that far with her?'

I thought about it for a bit before telling Sis 'After I told her that I loved her, I'm kinda worried that she thinks I mean it more than I do -you know what I'm talking about. As long as she understands that I'm not looking for a girlfriend or anything, then sure, I'll do it 'cause she's your friend and I do love her enough to try and make her first time good.'

Wriggling herself a little closer to me, Janet said 'She understands what you meant when you told her you loved her; I'm actually kinda surprised at how well she*does* understand. And she isn't looking at you as a boyfriend or anything, either -' the way she explained it to me, after the first time, she just wants somebody that she can be with and make each other feel good, sometimes.'

'As long as that's the case, then yeah, I'd be willing to go that far with her. I expect we'll need a time when Mom and Dad will be gone again, though. I don't think they'd say anything about it, but having them home would probably make her nervous.'

I heard the humor in Sis' voice when she asked 'Ya think?'

A little while later, the two of us went in to rinse off in the shower before Mom and Dad got home -' not that it mattered whether they knew we'd been together, but simply because we liked to be fresh and clean when the family sat down to dinner.

A little over a week later, Dad let me and Sis know that he and Mom were going to look at maybe doing some kind of upgrade to a factory belonging to one of his customers, and that they'd be gone for two nights -' leaving Thursday morning, and coming back Saturday afternoon. Just like I figured she would, Sis got permission for Nadia to spend Friday night with us. I don't think that it escaped Mom and Dad's attention that Sis was again asking if one of her friends could spend the night when they weren't going to be home, but they were willing to give us our privacy -' right up to the point that we made a mistake that got them involved.

The Thursday before Nadia was to come over, Sis and I spent the evening cuddling (and molesting each other) on the couch while watching TV, and spent the night together in Janet's room. The next day, Nadia came over a little before supper, and the three of us sent out for a pizza. After we'd demolished it (I ate almost half, Sis and Nadia easily dealt with the rest), the three of us watched a video that Nadia had brought over. She and Sis sat on either side of me while we watched it, and neither one of them was bashful about pulling my hand down to their breasts.

When the movie was over, Nadia extracted my hand from the light sweater she was wearing (with no bra on underneath it). Holding it between both of hers, she told me 'Danny, I – I've never had sex before; but after I really, really thought about it, I've decided that I'm ready to stop being a virgin, even though I actually lost my cherry when I was a little girl. As good as you made me feel before – you know, when you looked at me and everything – and hearing how good you made Janet's first time – I wanted to ask you if you would be the first guy that I'm with like that. Even though I don't have a cherry now, could I give you my virginity?'

Looking into her eyes, and seeing how nervous she was, I told her 'If you're really that sure that's what you want to do, then I'll accept the gift you're offering me, and do my best to be worthy of it. Did you want it to happen tonight?'

'If it's okay with you', she answered, uncertainly.

'It's more than just 'okay' with me, Nadia, if that's what you want.', I assured her.

'Can we go now? Before I chicken out?'

'Now is fine', I agreed.

Several seconds passed before she realized that I wasn't going to drag her kicking and screaming into one of the bedrooms. Understanding that I was literally leaving the first move up to her, she gave me a small smile of relief before standing up. I got up, too, and as we started back to where my and Janet's bedrooms were, Sis told us 'I'll see you guys in the morning' -' smiling at Nadia in reassurance.

When we were in my bedroom, I closed the door before turning and standing in front of Nadia. Cupping her face in my hands, I looked into her eyes as I told her 'You just said that you wanted this to happen before you chicken out. I want you to know that it doesn't matter to me if you chicken out – or change your mind, or get too scared, or anything else. I'm not going to do anything that you don't want to happen, and let happen. If you don't want this, for*any* reason, then it stops when you say so -' and I'm not going to be mad or