'How can all of you love each other like that? I mean, Kelly, don't you get jealous when Dan is with Jan or one of the others?' Evelyn asked.
Kelly just smiled and replied 'We can love each other that way because there isn't any limit to the amount of love you can have for people. I don't get jealous about Dan being with Jan or any of the others because he doesn't get jealous when I'm with one of them. He makes me so happy and satisfied and content when we're together; I get all the love from him I could ever want, so why should I be upset if he still has enough inside him to love other people, too?'
I told them 'What Kelly just said about the love she gets from me? That's the same way I feel about the love I get from her: it's more than enough to keep me happy and knowing that she loves me. Because I know she loves me that much, and why, there's no reason for me to be upset or jealous if she wants to be with Jan or anyone else. If you're already getting more than enough of something from someone, what possible reason could you have to be jealous if they still have some to give to another person?'
Finishing up, Jan told asked them 'All of you know that your parents love you, right? Do you think that they love you any less just because they love each other, too? Its like that with us – only more so.'
Put that way, I could see that the five of them could begin to see how we used the word 'love'. I could also see that it still didn't have quite the same meaning for them, and that they didn't really understand how we could do it. But that was okay – that's why they were there, so they could learn and understand.
After a bit, Kelly got a mischievous grin on her face and asked them 'Now that you've seen the how and what of sex, do any of you want to try practicing it?'
All of them looked willing, but unsure. Sheri was the one to ask 'Um, who do we start with?'
Jan smiled and answered 'With whoever you want to. I think it would be better if each of us' – she gestured to include Kelly and me – 'were with just one of you at a time, but other than that, who and what is up to you.'
Hearing that, Sheri immediately stated 'I want to be with Dan', and promptly got up to come over to where I was sitting. Taking a position next to me, she unashamedly pulled my arm around her to stake her claim. A moment later, Claire got up and went to Jan; she was followed by Evelyn going to Kelly. Slightly embarrassed, Claire asked 'Um, do we just stay here? I'm still kind of nervous, and I don't know if I could do anything with other people watching.'
Jan gave her a hug and said 'That isn't a problem. There are four bedrooms here, so each couple can use one of them; just close the door if you don't want anybody coming in – around here, we always knock and wait for an answer. When you're done, just come on back in here.'
That said, Kelly told me 'Dan, why don't you go ahead and use our room. I'll use Marilyn's, and Kelly can use Daniels, if that's okay?' – the last directed toward Jan, who smiled her agreement. Kelly then told Bonita and Crissy 'It's up to you if you want to start with each other, of course. If you do, you're welcome to use Janet's room – she's our daughter, and away at camp. If you don't, you're certainly welcome to stay here and watch tv or listen to music or whatever, or look around the house.' The two of them voiced their understanding, and Kelly and Evelyn got up and headed for the hall while they held hands. I got up next, with Sheri following my example; Jan and Claire moved to follow us.
Once in the bedroom, I closed the door behind us – to Sheri's visible relief – and took her into my arms to tell her 'Sheri, I'm honored that you would want to be with me, first. It tells me how much you care for me, and how much you trust me. And I want you to know that you're doing the right thing by trusting me like this. I know you've already been told before, but I'm going to say it again: I am not going to do anything with you that you don't let me know is okay. Just so you know, I'm probably going to get hard while we're together; I do not want you to think that there is anything you have to do, or should do, if or when that happens. The two of us are here together now so that you can learn the physical part about sex and making love. How much of that you want to learn, and how you learn it, is up to you – I am not going to try and push you in any particular direction or get you to do any one thing or another.'
'I understand, Dan', she replied.
I hugged her briefly, then went on 'What you're doing here is exploring. It's someplace that I've been before, so I know what can be done and where we can go. I'll let you know those things, but where and what we do is up to you – I'm only here to help you find out the things that you want to know – no more, and no less. Okay?'
She wrapped her arms around me for a bit before releasing me and stepping back. Surprised at the latter, and curious as to why, I listened carefully as she looked into my eyes and told me 'I've been thinking about this for a long time, and there's something that I've wanted to do, but I've been too afraid to do it. But I know that I can trust you, so I wanted to be with you first so that you could do something for me.'
Hearing that, I had a pretty darn good idea of what it was she wanted, but I still had to ask 'What's that?'
She took a deep – if shaky – breath and answered 'I want you to be the one I give my virginity to.' I could plainly see on her face the mix of emotions and thoughts running through her: fear of being rejected, certainty about what she wanted, nervousness at actually having it happen, and all the rest.
'Why me, and why now?' I asked.
'Now because until tonight, I've been afraid of actually doing it with somebody. I've been afraid that I wouldn't be able to get excited enough; and I've been afraid that because I didn't know anything whoever I chose wouldn't be patient while I learned; and afraid that it would hurt too much; and afraid that whoever it was, they would think that I'm a bad person for wanting to do it. I want it to be you because you've shown me that I don't have to be afraid like I was. When I was on your lap, I got SO excited when you were touching me, and the way that you and Kelly and the others have talked to us, I know that I don't have to be afraid that you're going to think I'm a bad person. Kelly and Jan and the others have all told us that when you made love with them the first time, you were so patient and understanding with them, and that you were so gentle about it. All of them said that they had orgasms while they were making love with you the first time; I've heard some of the girls at school talking about their first times, and they all said that it hurt, and they really didn't enjoy it. So if you can help the others have orgasms their first time, then I know that you'll be just as good with me. I know that it still might hurt, but I also know that I can trust you to make it hurt as little as possible. Dan, I've really wanted this for a long time, but I've been afraid – until now. With you, I know that I don't have to worry.'
'You know that once you're not a virgin any more, you can't go back? That it's a forever thing?'
Mildly exasperated, she answered 'Of course I know that! That's why I waited: so that when I did give myself to someone, it would be the right person, and that everything else would be as good as it could be. I want it to be now and here and with you because this is the right time and place and way for it, and because I think you're the best person I could ever find to do it for me.'
She seemed to have given the matter the careful thought and consideration it deserved, and there wasn't any doubt in my mind that she was serious about what she wanted. That she was as confident as she was about it being me and then told me that it was right for her, then and there and with me.
I stepped forward and took her into my arms again and felt her wrap her arms around my waist as I told her 'Sheri, it sounds to me like you've made all the choices and decisions that are right for you. If you want me to be your first, then I'll do the best I can to make it as good for you as possible.'
I could feel the tension drain out of her body as she told me 'Thank you, Dan. I already know I'll be happy with you.'
We stayed like that for a couple of minutes, until she released me to step back again. With a smile, and only a trace of nervousness, she told me 'Now, I want to learn about this making love business!'
Taking her hand, I lifted it up and kissed it before leading her over to the bed. There, she didn't hesitate to lay down on it and watch as I moved to join her. Lying next to her, I rested my hand on her belly and softly caressed it as I told her 'I am not knowingly going to do anything to hurt you or make you uncomfortable or that you don't like. If I do start to do anything like that, I expect you to let me know so that I can stop. Okay?'
She smiled at me and said 'I know you won't do anything to hurt me, Dan. But if you do, yes, I'll tell you.'
I smiled back and replied 'What I am going to do is try and make you feel as good as possible. If you can tell me when you like something I do, it will help me to learn about YOU. I'll probably figure it out, anyway; but if you can let me know, its just easier and better for both of us.'
She nodded her understanding, and I slowly moved my hand up to cup one of her breasts – feeling it's nipple hardening into my palm, while watching it's mate respond in kind. Sheri's eyes closed, and from the slight change in her breathing, I knew that she was enjoying the feel of my hand on her body.
