Henry's secret weapon,' he admitted.
Jamie could hear the howls of laughter coming through the doors. She wondered what jest Alec had just told the king, then decided it was probably that foul story about the dead Englishwoman.
She'd nearly collapsed to her knees the minute the doors had closed behind her.
All the horrible comments she'd made to Edgar were screaming inside her head.
Heaven help her, she'd actually cried in front of the man.
And he'd given her his understanding. That sudden thought made her heart warm with gratitude. He really was a kind man.
'Jamie, what are you doing out here by yourself?' Gavin asked.
'Why do you ask such a question, Gavin? Am I to have an escort all the time?'
'You are,' the soldier admitted before he could stop himself.
'By Alec's order?'
He turned the topic rather than answering her. 'One of our cooks has burned her hand, Jamie. She'd like you to look at it.'
Jamie's attention was immediately swayed. 'Oh, the poor woman,' she said. 'Take me to her at once, Gavin, and I shall see what I can do.'
The next two hours were spent ministering to the sick woman. The woman's burn really wasn't too severe, but Jamie ended up having a nice visit with the cook's large family.
Gavin stayed by her side all the while. When they started back toward the main house, Jamie said, 'I'd like to put fresh flowers on Helena's grave, Gavin. Will you walk with me?'
'I will,' he agreed. He called out their errand to Marcus when they passed the stables and saw him readying his mount.
Jamie and Gavin maintained a tranquil silence as she picked wildflowers. When her arms were brimming with her collection, they started up the hill to Helena's grave. They passed the consecrated cemetery, squared off by old pine slats, and continued on.
'Gavin? Were you here when Helena died?'
'I was,' he replied.
'I was told she killed herself,' Jamie went on. 'Father Murdock said she jumped off one of the cliffs.'
Gavin nodded. He motioned to the rise to the left of Helena's grave. 'It happened over there.'
'Did anyone see her jump?'
Gavin nodded. 'Yes, Jamie.'
'Where were you? Did you see-'
'Jamie, must we speak of this?'
Jamie knelt down beside Helena's grave and brushed the old flowers away. 'I'm just trying to understand, Gavin,' she whispered. 'Would you think me daft if I admitted that I think Helena wants me to understand?'
'I probably would,' Gavin replied, trying to make his tone light. 'Someone has already put flowers on her grave,' he remarked in an attempt to change the subject.
'I did,' Jamie explained. 'The day before yesterday.'
She didn't speak again until she'd finished blanketing the grave with the colorful flowers.
Gavin waited until she turned back to him before questioning her. 'Jamie? Will you explain what you meant about Helena wanting you to understand?' He knelt on one knee and began to twirl one of the flowers between his fingers while he waited for her to answer. He noticed then that Jamie was patting the grave.
'It doesn't make sense,' Jamie suddenly blurted out. 'How can I make Mary Kathleen understand when the time comes for her to be told? I have to understand first.'
'What is there to understand? Helena was in despair. She-'
'But did you see this despair, Gavin?'
He shook his head. 'I didn't know the woman well enough to make such a judgment.
I admit I was… surprised when she…'
'Then you didn't see this terrible unhappiness. Father Murdock was just as surprised as you were. She seemed content to him. She was anxious to bring her baby here. If she was afraid of Alec, or if she hated him, she wouldn't have wanted to bring her daughter here.'
'Perhaps she didn't think she had a choice,' Gavin remarked.
Jamie stood up and started toward the ridge where Helena had jumped. 'She could have fallen. Yes, it could have been an accident. Why was she damned by everyone?'
She stopped when she neared the edge. A shiver passed down her arms. She rubbed them to take the sudden chill away. 'When I first met Alec, I was a little afraid of him. It took me less than a day to realize what a good man he was, and I knew, from the very beginning, that he'd take care of me, Gavin. Helena would have felt the same, I'm sure of it.'
Gavin nodded. 'You must remember, Jamie, that Helena didn't know Alec well. He was called away-'
'Did she die quickly?' Jamie whispered.
'No,' Gavin returned. 'She landed on that ledge down there,' he told her, pointing toward the jagged stone. 'When Alec arrived home, they'd already dragged her back up. You couldn't have saved her. No one could. Her back was broken.'
'She wasn't dead?'
'She died two days later,' Gavin answered. 'She never opened her eyes, and I don't think she was in pain, Jamie.'
'She lost her footing,' Jamie insisted, trying to believe that possibility.
'We should go back now, Jamie,' Gavin announced, trying to change the subject.
'Alec will be looking for you. Now that the king has left-'
'He's gone?' Jamie interrupted. 'When, Gavin? He only just arrived.'
'He was taking his leave while you were collecting your flowers, Jamie.'
'Well, spit,' Jamie muttered. 'I didn't get to say goodbye.'
'He'll come back soon,' Gavin promised her. 'Alec is like a son to him. He visits regularly.'
A sudden sound drew Gavin's attention. Just as he turned around, he was struck on the side of the head by a large rock. Gavin saw only blinding light before he staggered backward.
Jamie turned just as Gavin began to fall. A stone hit her forehead, gouging a deep cut. She cried out as she grabbed Gavin from behind. She was desperately trying to keep the soldier from falling over the ledge.
Something sharp hit her shoulder. Jamie screamed in pain. Gavin's weight was too much for her. She knew they were going to fall, but she remembered that the ridge sloped sharply to the left… or was it the right? 'Please, God, help us,' she whimpered as she tightened her hold around the warrior's waist. She used every ounce of strength to push the two of them toward the low overhang.
The eerie sound of laughter followed them over the ledge. Jamie tried to protect Gavin's head by pushing his face into the crook of her shoulder. Sharp pain radiated throughout her body from the stones they rolled over, and when they finally reached the ledge, Gavin's body took most of the impact.
The laughter was getting closer. Blood poured over Jamie's left eye, blocking her vision. She wiped the blood away with the back of her hand and then pulled Gavin back against the rock wall. She was desperately trying to hide them from their enemy. Gavin groaned when she was tucking him under the overhang. She slapped her hand over his mouth and then flattened herself on top of him.
Long minutes passed before she realized the hideous laughter had stopped. Her shoulder and upper arm were throbbing. Jamie reached up to try to rub the ache away. She whimpered when she felt the hilt of the dagger protruding from her arm, and let her hand drop back to her side. She realized that the sharp object had been her dagger-someone had thrown her own dagger at her!
She heard someone calling to her, but did not answer until she recognized the voice. 'Marcus! We're here, on the ledge,' Jamie shouted then, though her relief was so great it weakened her voice.
'My God, Jamie, what-' Marcus asked when he leaned over the edge of the cliff and saw Jamie's bloody face peering up at him. 'Give me your hand, lass.'
'Be careful, Marcus. Don't kneel so close to the edge. Someone tried to hurt Gavin and me. Look behind you to make certain it's safe.'
Marcus did as she ordered, and when he turned back to her, the look on his face began to frighten her.
