wondering…'
'No, we aren't going to wait. You'll do fine.'
'But I…'
Responding to the worry he heard in her voice, he reassured her again before she could get even more worked up. 'It will be over and done with before you know it.'
She knew he thought she was talking about the ceremony, and she didn't correct him now. She had been concerned about making a muck of her vows, but she knew she'd get them said one way or another. It was the future that still made her apprehensive. It was all so irrevocable. Connor was an unknown. So was MacNare, she reminded herself. Wouldn't she have been apprehensive with him as well?
She stared straight ahead and stood where she was for a full minute without saying another word while she once again considered all the ramifications of what she was about to do.
In the end, she decided she would have to put her destiny in God's hands.
'There's no going back now, Connor MacAlister.'
He nodded, for he'd heard the conviction in her voice and knew her mind was finally made up. 'Nay, lass, there isn't.'
She walked ahead of him now, her head high, her determination strong. 'This had better be simple.'
It would be simple, for he believed she had finally come to her senses and was going to be reasonable.
He should have known better.
Chapter 4
Nothing was ever simple with the woman. They were eventually married, but honest to God, it took forever to get from the beginning of the ceremony to the end. His bride was entirely responsible, of course. She became so obviously distraught during the priest's long-winded dissertation on the merits of the holy sacrament of matrimony, she simply couldn't stand still. Connor forced himself to be patient and didn't get the least bit angry, or even disgruntled.
He did get dizzy, though. So did all the others. Two of his men had to close their eyes so they could maintain their balance. Sinclair was in much the same condition, and all because he made the mistake of trying to keep up with the bride.
It all started out simply enough. When the priest instructed the couple to stand side by side and face him, Brenna hurried to obey. She seemed eager to cooperate, and Connor naturally assumed she was in as much of a hurry as he was to get it done.
He really should have known better.
'Laird, if your followers would form a half-circle behind you, they may all be witnesses to this joyful event.'
'There, now,' he said once the men were where he thought they should be. 'Lady Brenna, are you ready to begin?'
'Yes, Father.'
The priest smiled. 'You look radiant, lass,' he whispered. He simply couldn't stop himself from blurting out a bit of praise, but he was quick to catch the men's frowns of disapproval, remembering then that Highlanders were known to be prickly about their women being given any attention by other men, and he realized too late that the peculiarity must also extend to men of the cloth.
He hurried to repair the damage he might have done. 'Your bride realizes her good fortune, Laird, and that is why she looks radiant. I meant only to remark upon that fact.'
Connor couldn't imagine why the priest had suddenly become so agitated. He nodded just to placate him so he would proceed with his duty of blessing the union.
Sinclair cleared his throat, made the sign of the cross, and then began his sermon on the responsibilities each would accept once they were truly husband and wife.
Brenna started out looking serene and somewhat relaxed with her hands down at her sides. Connor quickly tired of listening to the priest. She hung on to the man's every word. When she started shifting from foot to foot, Connor thought she was as bored as he was. Then she started wringing her hands together, a telltale indication that trouble was coming.
'Lady Brenna, please turn to your laird while you proclaim your vows.'
She didn't hesitate in complying with the instruction, but Connor saw the panic in her eyes the second she looked up at him. The color had left her face, and he hoped to God she wouldn't faint before the priest finished.
He waited for her to speak, but after a long minute of silence, he decided he would. He made quick work of the duty with a brisk promise to protect and honor her.
Several of his men grunted their approval.
It didn't take him any time at all. It took her the rest of the evening.
'It's your turn now, lass,' the priest coaxed when she remained silent. 'You must proclaim your vows. Your hesitation makes me think you might be changing your mind. Could that be true?'
She frantically shook her head. 'I mean to marry him, Father. I am searching for just the right words,' she explained. 'It's important that I get it right.'
Those were the last coherent words she spoke for a long, long while. She started pacing while she worried over each and every word she would say. She circled the priest several times, then widened her circle to include all of them. No one was left guessing what she was thinking about, because she spoke each confusing thought out loud as she paced. Connor knew she wasn't aware of what she was doing, and as soon as he gave up watching her, he stopped being dizzy.
Around and around she went, until Sinclair was visibly reeling from turning so she would have his full attention. She explained she, too, meant to protect and honor Connor, just as he had promised her, but unlike the man she was marrying, she felt the need to expound at length upon those two vows with one qualification after another; yet she never quite finished any one thought.
It was apparent she wasn't going to stop until she had it all worked out, and Connor didn't even try to intervene. He relaxed his stance, folded his arms across his chest, and closed his eyes.
The priest thought the laird looked bored, but every once in a while a quick smile would appear on his face, and Sinclair knew Connor had found something amusing in what his bride was saying.
She finally stopped. Connor opened his eyes then, and honest to heaven, he almost laughed out loud. His gentle bride was now standing next to the priest looking quite pleased with herself.
Sinclair seized the opportunity. He latched on to her arm to keep from falling over, but even after the dizziness left him, he didn't let go of her. He meant to keep her from taking another evening stroll.
'Are you finished, lass?' he asked.
'Yes, Father.'
Sinclair cast the laird a bewildered look. 'Did she get her vows said, then?'
'Would you like me to repeat them, Father?' she asked.
Everyone but Connor shouted no at the same time. She was so startled by their enthusiastic reply, her eyes widened and she took a quick step back.
The priest was the only one who felt the need to apologize. 'Do forgive me for raising my voice to you, dear lady. I can't imagine what came over me. I'm certain your laird will answer my question.'
Connor wouldn't give her time to protest. He held her gaze steady while he summarized her promises.
'She will honor me, protect me, obey me only when she believes I'm being reasonable-but I shouldn't hold out hope that that day will ever come-try to love me before she's an old woman, and I'd better get it straight in my mind that she will respect me until or unless I do something to prove I'm not worthy, and God save me then. Have I left anything out, Brenna?'
'Nay, Connor,' she answered. 'You made better sense out of my vows than I did.'
