There aren’t many jobs going. I work in farms and in the diamond mines for a few weeks at a time. When I’ve saved a bit of money, I travel the country in search of Clovis Nagel. It’s not an easy task. I’ve found traces of him in the villages of the Orange River basin. One time I visited a mine site that he’d just left. I missed him by only a few minutes.
I also followed a tip-off that led me north, to the Waterberg Plateau. There I met a strange, proud tribe, the Herero. I spent some months with them, and they taught me how to hunt and gather in the desert. I fell sick with a fever, and for a long time I was very weak, but they took care of me. I’ve learned a lot from these people besides physical skills. They are exceptional. They live in the shadow of death, every day a constant struggle to find water and adapt their lives to the pressures from the white men.
I’m out of paper; this is the last piece of a batch I bought from a peddler on the road to Swakopmund. Tomorrow I’m heading back there in search of new leads. I’ll go on foot, as I’ve run out of money, so my search will have to be a brief one. The hardest thing about being here, apart from the lack of news about you, is the time it takes me to earn my living. I’ve often been at the point of giving it all up. However, I don’t mean to give up. Sooner or later I’ll find him.
I think about you, about what has happened over these past ten years. I hope you are well and happy. If you decide to write to me, write to the Windhoek post office. The address is on the envelope.
Once again, forgive me.
I love you,
Paul
THE FELLOW CRAFT
1934
In which the initiate learns that the path cannot be taken alone
The secret handshake of the Fellow Craft degree involves pressing hard on the knuckle of the middle finger, and ends when the brother Mason returns an identical greeting. The secret name of this handshake is JACHIN, from the column representing the sun in Solomon’s Temple. Again there is a trick to the spelling-out, which must be given thus: A-J-C-H-I-N.
44
Jurgen was admiring himself in the mirror.
He tugged lightly at his lapels, decorated with a skull and the insignia of the SS. He never tired of looking at himself in his new uniform. Walter Heck’s design and the excellent workmanship of clothier Hugo Boss, highly celebrated in the society press, inspired reverence in everyone who saw it. When Jurgen walked down the street, children would stand to attention and raise their arm in salute. The previous week a couple of old ladies had stopped him and told him how lovely it was to see strong, healthy young men getting Germany back on track. They asked if he’d lost his eye fighting the Communists. Pleased by this, Jurgen had helped them carry their shopping bags to a nearby doorway.
At that moment there was a knock at the door.
“Come in.”
“You look good,” said his mother, coming into the large bedroom.
“I know.”
“Are you eating with us today?”
“I don’t think so, Mama. I’ve been called to a meeting at the Security Service.”
“No doubt they want to recommend you for a promotion. You’ve been an Untersturmfuhrer for too long now.”
Jurgen nodded cheerfully and picked up his cap.
“The car’s waiting for you at the door. I’ll tell the cook to prepare something for you in case you’re back early.”
“Thanks, Mama,” said Jurgen, kissing Brunhilda on the forehead. He went out into the corridor, his black boots echoing loudly on the marble steps. A maid was waiting with his overcoat in the entrance hall.
Ever since Otto and his cards had disappeared from their lives eleven years earlier, their economic situation had gradually been improving. An army of servants was once again attending to the day-to-day running of the mansion, though Jurgen was now head of the household.
“Will you be coming back for dinner, sir?”
Jurgen inhaled sharply when he heard her use that mode of address. It always happened whenever he was nervous and unsettled, as he was that morning. The most trivial of details disturbed his icy exterior and exposed the storm of conflicts that raged inside him.
“The baroness will give you instructions.”
Soon they’ll start addressing me by my proper title, he thought as he stepped out onto the street. His hands were shaking slightly. Fortunately he had folded his overcoat over his arm, so the driver did not notice when he opened the door for him.
In the past, Jurgen had been able to channel his impulses through violence; but since the Nazi Party’s election victories the previous year, the undesirable factions had become more cautious. Every day Jurgen found it harder to control himself. On the journey he tried to breathe slowly. He didn’t want to arrive agitated and nervous.
Especially if I’m going to be promoted, as Mama says.
“Frankly, my dear Schroeder, you give me grave doubts.”
“Doubts, sir?”
“Doubts concerning your loyalty.”
Jurgen noticed his hand had started to shake again and he had to squeeze his knuckles hard to get it under control.
The meeting room was completely empty apart from Reinhard Heydrich and himself. The head of the Reich Main Security Office, the intelligence organ of the Nazi Party, was a tall man with a clear brow, just a couple of months older than Jurgen. In spite of his youth, he’d become one of the most powerful men in Germany. His organization was tasked with discovering threats-real or imaginary-to the party. Jurgen had heard that on the day they interviewed him for the job,
Heinrich Himmler had asked Heydrich how he would organize a Nazi intelligence agency, and Heydrich had replied with a rehash of all the spy novels he’d ever read. The Reich Main Security Office was already feared throughout Germany, though whether this owed more to cheap fiction or innate talent was unclear.
“Why do you say that, sir?”
Heydrich put his hand on a folder in front of him, which bore Jurgen’s name.
“You started out in the SA during the early days of the movement. That’s fine, it’s interesting. Surprising, though, that someone of your… lineage should ask specifically for a place in an SA battalion. And then there are the recurring episodes of violence reported by your superiors. I’ve consulted a psychologist about you. .. and he suggests that you might have a serious personality disorder. Still, that’s not a crime in itself, though it might”-he emphasized the “might” with a half smile and the lifting of his eyebrows-“be a handicap. But now we come to the thing that most concerns me. You were called-like the rest of your Stosstrupp-to attend the special event at the Burgerbraukeller on the eighth of November, 1923. However, you never turned up.”
Heydrich paused, allowing his last words to float in the air. Jurgen began to sweat. After the election victories, the Nazis had begun, slowly and systematically, to take vengeance on anyone who’d obstructed the 1923 uprising, thus delaying Hitler’s rise to power by a year. For years Jurgen had lived in fear that someone would point the finger at him, and it was finally happening.
