know anything about me? Bartender, another scotch, please.”
“I don’t know if I want to work with you,” I said. I turned to the bartender. “Could I have a glass of water, please? And a cup of coffee?”
“Coming right up.” When the bartender smiled at me his braces sparkled.
Bentley, despite the fact that I told him I wasn’t interested, relayed a story about his work as a traveling Bible salesman in West Virginia. It was a cheap, shoddy, bawdy story, and certainly a fabrication. When he was finished he turned to me.
“So do you believe it?” he asked.
“Not really,” I said.
“Does literal truth matter?”
“If you just told me a lie about yourself, then I don’t know any more about you than I did before.”
He smiled a subtle smile and lowered his eyes.
“Maybe you know more,” he said. He looked up. “Jane,” he said, “do me a favor, will you?”
“Okay.” There was doubt in my voice.
“Try not to be so literal.”
I still don’t know if Bentley was ever a Bible salesman, or if he ever slept with a woman who told him stories in a room festooned with paper roses, but I came to believe that he was right. Literal truth doesn’t always matter. What he told me became a part of his history because, somewhere inside, he was able to make me believe it on a level that didn’t have anything to do with intellect. I didn’t want to believe it, but he painted it so vividly that it was now a part of him, and whether that West Virginia woman could walk right up to us and lay a sloppy kiss on Bentley’s cheek didn’t matter a bit. It was Bentley who convinced me that how we remember things is more important than how they actually happened.
“Memory is long,” he said, “and the present is only a moment and the future does not exist. So it’s what we carry with us into the present that’s important.”
Bentley had been resting one of his arms on a green paper place mat. When he picked up his drink, he noticed that the ink from the place mat had stained his white cuffs. His shirt had been the only noncrumpled thing about him, but now his cuffs were stained green.
“Goddammit,” he said.
I turned the place mat over so that only the white side showed. He looked at me and nodded.
“You’re a very practical girl, I see,” he said. I cringed. I had been praised for my common sense too often for me to enjoy it as a compliment. Besides, I don’t think Bentley meant it as a compliment, and being a compliment was all that redeemed it.
“Whatever stories we choose,” I explained, “will be published in the
“Terrible name. The
“Euphemia was my great-grandmother’s name and it’s nonnegotiable.”
Poor Euphemia. I could do this much for her. Even if she had created her trust in an effort to vanquish Isabella, Euphemia still deserved some glory. So what if her efforts had not been terribly successful, nor her motives exactly pure.
“It’s quite an undertaking,” Bentley said when I explained the whole project to him.
“But will you help me?” I asked.
“I’d still like to know what I get out of it,” Bentley said.
Most of the people I had grown up with had plenty of time to volunteer for things. They’d think it inelegant to ask for compensation. I sipped my martini and wondered why I was trying to finish something I found so odious.
Bentley looked up when the door opened and a shadow stood in the door.
“Hey, Finn,” Bentley called out, “I have a bone to pick with you.”
“Ah, fuck off,” the man said.
Bentley turned to me. “Protect your virgin ears.”
“My ears are not virgins,” I said.
“Finn, your goddamned place mats stained my new Brooks Brothers shirt.”
“What do you want me to do about it?” Finn asked. He walked behind the bar, took a box of place mats, and deposited them in the trash. “Satisfied?”
“You could pay my cleaning bill,” Bentley said.
“Fuck off,” Finn said.
“There’s a lady present,” Bentley said.
“Fuck off.”
Bentley turned to me.
“So, Miss Fortune, what do I get?”
I maneuvered myself off the barstool. I had chosen the wrong man, not that I had so many choices. Still, I could find someone else. Boston was full of colleges and universities, full of writers of Bentley’s limited success.
“I suppose I could come up with an honorarium,” I said. I stood straight as a lamppost and held my Kelly bag in a knotted fist.
“I’ve upset you,” he said.
“I just have places to be.”
“I take it you don’t spend most of your afternoons drinking in bars.”
“I do not,” I said. I was so prim. Looking back, I am surprised he could tolerate me.
“Sit back down. I never said I wouldn’t do it.”
“I’m not sure I want you to do it,” I said, but I hoisted myself back onto the barstool.
“That’s it, Jane. Get in touch with your inner fire. If you could do that, you might be writing yourself.”
“Not everyone has to be some kind of artist. I am a sensible person who knows what I am trying to do here. I didn’t come here to be psychoanalyzed or second-guessed.” I felt a film of sweat on my forehead.
“But shouldn’t we all take the risk to find out if we have what it takes to be a real artist?”
“No,” I said, and took a large sip from my glass.
“If, like me, you eventually find out that you’re not the artist you thought you were, you can play disappointed genius like I do. I’ve made that into its own art form.” He finished the rest of his scotch.
“You can make feeling sorry for yourself into an art form if you want to, but I think you’re a coward.”
It was unlike me to be so confrontational, especially with a relative stranger, and someone so much older than I was.
He looked down at the bar, examined his stained shirt cuffs, then looked up at me.
“I always wanted to be George Plimpton,” he said.
I paid for the drinks. We slipped from our stools and walked out of the dark bar and into the dimming light of a late April afternoon. Bentley shook hands with me, and with that handshake, Evan Bentley and I became the team that would discover some of the best writers of the next decade.
Before I turned toward the trolley, he asked, “Did I tell you how pretty you are, Jane?”
“You mentioned it.”
“Well, you are,” he said. “You are very pretty, Miss Fortune.”
Finn’s hadn’t changed much in fifteen years. Its busiest nights were when the Red Sox played. This was not one of those nights and the place was empty.
Bentley and I arrived at the same time. We walked in and sat at a table.
“Hey, Finn,” Bentley called.
“Fuck you,” Finn said.
We ordered two steaks. The only thing missing from Finn’s was Mary. Fifteen years ago, she was seventy- two, so she had retired or died—or both. It took two waitresses to fill Mary’s shoes.
I passed “Boston Tech” over to Bentley. He and I had gotten into the habit of meeting whenever we had something important to discuss, even though most of our business could be done by mail, e-mail, or over the phone. We called each other the Luddites, because any time we could do something the old-fashioned way, we did. Bentley
