Both of us knowing with what pious delight a religious extremist would delve amongst ill-informed rumour.
‘He never spoke your name,’ Jack Simm said.
It felt very cold now, the woods all acrackle with the movement of some night creature. I opened my hands to the freezing air.
‘All right. What are they saying?’
‘They’re just ignorant folk, Dr John.’ Jack Simm took a step back, blew out a steam of breath. ‘Spells?’
‘And divination?’
‘Yea, yea. And conjuring of spirits from out the darkness – the nights, naturally, being a whole lot darker around your ma’s house when you’re there. ’Tis said that no man who fears for his immortal soul oughta go past your place beyond sunset, nor walk in Mortlake churchyard lest graves be open. Tell me when you’ve heard enough.’
God. Slowly shaking my head. You come home at Christmas, applause from the lecture halls of Europe still resounding in your ears, to find you’ve become a figure of fear and opprobrium in your own neighbourhood.
‘You know what didn’t help?’ Jack said. ‘The owl.’
‘It’s a toy.’
‘Go to! Twice the size of a real owl and its eyes all lit up? And it’s making… wooh… wooh…?’ Jack flapping his arms as the owl would with his wings.
‘The village children liked him.’
‘Yeah, whilst their parents thought demons lived in him.’
‘All that’s in him-’ I sighed ‘- is a cunning system of small pulleys and hidden hinges, and the eyes are an arrangement of shards of mirror-glass and-’
‘ That don’t bleedin’ matter! It’s what they see, innit? Sometimes you don’t help yourself is all I’m saying. Rumour and gossip, Dr John, rumour and gossip.’
The real demons. Jack Simm had given up his shop in the city because of fears of persecution during Mary’s reign by Bishop Bonner who was now – God help us all – my friend.
‘Oh, and Meadows… he says he’s heard as how you’re building a temple to worship the moon?’
‘Observatory.’
‘Temple.’
‘To watch the paths of the stars.’ I sighed. ‘Or at least… one day. When I raise the money.’
Both of us standing there, dismayed. Much shaking of heads. Star temple, worship of the moon. Jesu. At length, Jack Simm clapped me reassuringly upon the shoulder.
‘Nah, listen, she’ll be back.’
‘Catherine?’
‘The goodwife finks of the money. Meadows buggered that up, he’d get some real stick. What you reckon: wrath of God or a vengeful wife?’
I nodded. A close call, even for a Bible man.
‘Anyhow, what I told him… I said you was working on secret navigation devices for the navy. Reminding him how highly you was rated by the-’
‘Jack…’
‘What?’
An icicle cracked above the doorway.
‘She comes here tomorrow.’
‘Who?’
I said nothing. Jack let go a thin whistle. Might’ve been admiration but pity seemed more likely.
‘Again? It was me, I tell you, I’d be spending the rest of the night shivering in me privy. But I suppose when you’ve known her since she was young…’
‘Young still, Jack.’
‘Nah, they grows up fast under a crown. All fresh and dewy on the outside; underneath, skin like a lizard. What’s the occasion?’
It was over a month now since the incident of the effigy and not a word, so it seemed unlikely to be that.
‘I don’t truly know,’ I said. ‘She has an interest in my work…’
‘The navigation, this would be?’ He may have winked. ‘Well, best be going in. Can’t seem to feel me toes no more. Good luck to you, Dr John.’
For some reason, Jack Simm found me amusing.
Walking away, my left boot slid across a frozen wheel-rut, and I stumbled. An old man had broken his leg not far from here just a fortnight ago and was not found until morning. Dead by then of the cold.
No use hurrying, anyway; there’d be time for no more work this night. I’d need to help my mother prepare our house for the visit of the Queen… even though I knew the Queen would not enter it.
Hobbled into Mortlake High Street, past the school run by nuns for poor children – well intentioned, but a poor child with a little education would often simply be sold by its parents at the first opportunity. Candles still aglow far back in the school chapel, but the nearby Church of St Mary was black. A big modern church only slightly more interesting amid night shadow than it was by daylight. I should have liked to see a proper steeple – some symbol of a soaring spiritual ambition.
Not that anyone in recent years has dared soar. Not since I was a child. Nowadays, only a fool kneels before God without first glancing over his shoulder, or prays too long with eyes closed. All is confusion. Vision and spirit are fled. How quickly can rational thought progress now in England, with zealots like Abel Meadows on the march, warning of a fast-approaching apocalypse? For which, of course, there’s no scientific evidence whatsoever.
Candlemas tomorrow. Feast of the Purification of the Blessed Virgin Mary, when the candles were blessed. And no-one knows what to do about it any more. In some churches the blessing of candles is a secret ritual.
Pausing now, by the coffin gate. In the icy night, the stars – the energy of stars – felt real and close. Bright orbs, each one familiar, dancing in a formal complexity as satisfying to me as a well-wrought knot garden in the heavens. My garden.
A familiar wild excitement arose in me, like to a moon-drawn tide. Closing my eyes, holding out my hands into the palpitating air, open to the nudging, flittering interplay of invisible vibrations, sensing sacred splinters of ice-white light in flow through my body – rendered, in my imagination, transparent in the cold blue night.
Thus, failing to see my mother until she was upon me.
‘Head in the stars, as ever, when it’s not in a book. Well? Did you find her?’
Jane, the widow Dee. A tallish woman, still straight, although nearing sixty years. She held up her lantern to my face as if to be full sure that it actually was me.
‘No.’ I relieved her of the lamp as we walked. Not the time to tell her about the madness of Abel Meadows. ‘But I did find out that she has troubles at home. Illness in the family.’
‘Plague?’
My mother taking a rapid step back. The rushing of breath into her throat.
‘ No, Mother… no suggestion of that. She went to get help for her grandmother – to the bone-twister. Probably didn’t get back home before it was too dark to return here safely.’
‘Well then, she ought to have sent word.’
How? I was about to ask her, but the night was too advanced for argument.
‘Yes,’ I conceded. ‘It’s not like her not to send word.’
‘Now I shall have no sleep.’ My mother expelled a martyr’s sigh. ‘We should have two servants. Always used to.’
I said nothing. There was nothing to be said. I was a scholar, and the monetary rewards for learning were yet meagre.
‘Someone older.’ My mother was winding her winter cloak tight around her. ‘With such a young woman on the throne, lesser young women seem to think they have some new freedom to behave as they like.’
I had to smile. By young woman she meant flighty, irresponsible. A queen who was laughing openly in the teeming streets on her coronation day and waving in glee to the crowd. Acknowledging the common horde – what was our society coming to?
