the palm of his cast; both the cook and his son knew that the logger was testing his tolerance of the pain.
“Well, I can show you, Ketchum,” Dominic said gently. “You have to walk out on the dam, or across the logs- remember?”
The cook had carried one of the folding cots into the kitchen. He nodded to his son, who helped him set up the cot-where it wouldn’t be in the way of the ovens, or the inside-opening screen door. “I want to sleep in the kitchen, too,” Danny told his dad.
“If you make a little distance between yourself and the conversation, you might actually go back to sleep,” Dominic said to his son.
“I want to hear the conversation,” Danny said.
“The conversation is almost over,” the cook whispered in the boy’s ear, kissing him.
“Don’t count on it, Cookie,” Ketchum said, with his eyes still closed.
“I’ve got the baking to do, Ketchum-and I might as well start the potatoes.”
“I’ve heard you talk and cook at the same time,” Ketchum told him; he hadn’t opened his eyes.
The cook gave his son a stern look, pointing to the stairs. “It’s cold upstairs,” Danny complained; the boy paused on the bottom step, where the skillet was.
“On your way, please put the skillet back where it belongs, Daniel.”
The boy went grudgingly upstairs, pausing on every step; he listened to his father work with the mixing bowls. Young Dan didn’t need to see in order to know what his dad was doing-the cook always made the banana bread first. As Danny hung the eight-inch cast-iron skillet on the hook in his father’s bedroom, he counted sixteen eggs cracked into the stainless-steel bowl; then came the mashed bananas and the chopped walnuts. (Sometimes, his dad topped the bread with warm apples.) The cook made the scones next, adding the eggs and the butter to the dry ingredients-the fruit, if he had any, he added last. From the upstairs hall, Danny could hear his father greasing the muffin tins, which he then sprinkled with flour-before he put the corn-muffin mixture into the tins. There was oatmeal in the banana bread-and sweet bran flour, which the boy could soon smell from his bedroom.
It was warmer under the covers, from where Danny heard the oven doors open and the baking pans and muffin tins slide in; then he heard the oven doors close. The unusual sound, which made the boy open his eyes and sit up in bed, was his father struggling to lift Ketchum-holding the big man under both arms while he dragged him to the folding cot. Danny hadn’t known that his dad was strong enough to lift Ketchum; the twelve-year-old crept quietly down the stairs and watched his father settle Ketchum on the cot, where the cook covered the logger with one of the unzipped sleeping bags, as if the opened bag were a blanket.
Dominic Baciagalupo was putting the potatoes on the griddle when Ketchum spoke to him. “There was no way I could let you see her, Cookie-it wouldn’t have been right.”
“I understand,” the cook said.
On the stairs, Danny closed his eyes again, seeing the story, which he knew by heart-Ketchum, taking small steps on the logs, drunk, while he reached into the pool created by the spillway. “Don’t come out here, Cookie!” Ketchum had called ashore. “Don’t you try walking on the logs-or on the dam, either!”
Dominic had watched Ketchum carry his dead wife along the edge of the containment boom. “Get away from me, Cookie!” Ketchum had called, as he came across the logs. “You can’t see her anymore-she’s not the same as she was!”
The cook, who was also drunk, had taken the blanket from the back of Ketchum’s truck. But Ketchum would not come ashore with the body; even drunk, he had kept walking on the logs with small, rapid steps. “Spread the blanket in the back of the truck, Cookie-then walk away!” When Ketchum came ashore, Dominic was standing at a triangular point-equidistant from the riverbank and Ketchum’s truck. “Just stand your ground, Cookie-till I cover her,” Ketchum had said.
Danny wondered if that was the source of his father’s frequent admonition: “Stand your ground, Daniel-just don’t get killed.” Maybe it had come from Ketchum, who had gently placed the cook’s dead wife in the back of his truck, covering her with the blanket. Dominic had kept his distance.
“Didn’t you want to see her?” Danny had asked his dad, too many times.
“I trust Ketchum,” his father had answered. “If anything ever happens to me, Daniel, you trust him, too.”
Danny realized that he must have crept back upstairs to his bedroom, and fallen asleep, when he smelled the lamb hash in addition to all the baking; he’d not been aware of his dad opening the difficult outer door to the cookhouse kitchen and getting the ground lamb from the cooler. The boy lay in his bed with his eyes still closed, savoring all the smells. He wanted to ask Ketchum if his mom had been faceup in the water when he’d first spotted her, or if he’d found her in the spillway facedown.
Danny got dressed and went downstairs to the kitchen; only then did he realize that his father had found the time to come upstairs and get dressed, probably after Ketchum had passed out on the cot. Dan watched his dad working at the stove; when the cook was concentrating on three or four tasks that were all in close proximity to one another, his limp was almost undetectable. At such moments, Danny could imagine his father at the age of twelve-before the ankle accident. At twelve, Danny Baciagalupo was a lonely kid; he had no friends. He often wished that he could have known his dad when they were both twelve-year-olds.
WHEN YOU’RE TWELVE, four years seems like a long time. Annunziata Saetta knew that it wouldn’t take her little Dom’s ankle four years to heal; Nunzi’s beloved Kiss of the Wolf was off the crutches in four
The boy’s cooking skills were more slowly acquired, and-after the accident-Annunziata made her own child- labor laws. She would not permit young Dominic to go off to work at a breakfast place in Berlin until the boy really knew his way around a kitchen, and he had to wait until he’d turned sixteen; in those four years, Dom became an extremely well-read sixteen-year-old, and an accomplished cook, who was less experienced at shaving than he was at walking with a limp.
It was 1940 when Dominic Baciagalupo met Danny’s mom. She was a twenty-three-year-old teaching in the same elementary school as Annunziata Saetta; in fact, the cook’s mother introduced her sixteen-year-old son to the new teacher.
Nunzi had no choice in the matter. Her cousin Maria, another Saetta, had married a Calogero-a common Sicilian surname. “After some Greek saint who died there-the name has something to do with children in general, I think, or maybe orphans in particular,” Nunzi had explained to Dominic. She pronounced the name cah-LOH-ger-roh. It was used as a first name, too, his mother explained-“frequently for bastards.”
At sixteen, Dominic was sensitive to the subject of illegitimacy-not that Annunziata wasn’t. Her cousin had sent her pregnant daughter away to the wilds of New Hampshire, bemoaning the fact that the daughter was the first woman in the Calogero family to have graduated from college. “It was only a teachers’ college, and a lot of good it did her-she still got knocked up!” the poor girl’s mother told Nunzi, who repeated this insensitivity to Dom. The boy understood without further detail that the pregnant twenty-three-year-old was being sent to them because Annunziata and
As was often the way “back then”-not only in the North End, and by no means limited to Italian
While Annunziata should be commended for her spirit of forgiveness-especially in 1940, when unwed mothers could generally be counted among America ’s most unforgiven souls-it was both reckless and unnecessary to tell her sixteen-year-old son that he was going to
“Why is she my
“Maybe that’s not what she is-maybe she’s called your cousin