She did not answer immediately, and for the moment she was seeing the nightmare vision of her last buggy-ride; of her fear and her leap from the buggy; and of the long miles and the stumbling through the darkness in thin-soled shoes that bruised her feet on every rock. And then it came to her with a great swell of joy that this man beside her was not such a man.
'I love horses,' she said. 'I almost love them better than I do dancing, only I don't know anything about them. My father rode a great roan war-horse. He was a captain of cavalry, you know. I never saw him, but somehow I always can see him on that big horse, with a sash around his waist and his sword at his side. My brother George has the sword now, but Tom-he's the brother I live with says it is mine because it wasn't his father's. You see, they're only my half-brothers. I was the only child by my mother's second marriage. That was her real marriage-her love-marriage, I mean.'
Saxon ceased abruptly, embarrassed by her own garrulity; and yet the impulse was strong to tell this young man all about herself, and it seemed to her that these far memories were a large part of her.
'Go on an' tell me about it,' Billy urged. 'I like to hear about the old people of the old days. My people was along in there, too, an' somehow I think it was a better world to live in than now. Things was more sensible and natural. I don't exactly say what I mean. But it's like this: I don't understand life to-day. There's the labor unions an' employers' associations, an' strikes', an' hard times, an' huntin' for jobs, an' all the rest. Things wasn't like that in the old days. Everybody farmed, an' shot their meat, an' got enough to eat, an' took care of their old folks. But now it's all a mix-up that I can't understand. Mebbe I'm a fool, I don't know. But, anyway, go ahead an' tell us about your mother.'
'Well, you see, when she was only a young woman she and Captain Brown fell in love. He was a soldier then, before the war. And he was ordered East for the war when she was away nursing her sister Laura. And then came the news that he was killed at Shiloh. And she married a man who had loved her for years and years. He was a boy in the same wagon-train coming across the plains. She liked him, but she didn't love him. And afterward came the news that my father wasn't killed after all. So it made her very sad, but it did not spoil her life. She was a good mother end a good wife and all that, but she was always sad, and sweet, and gentle, and I think her voice was the most beautiful in the world.'
'She was game, all right,' Billy approved.
'And my father never married. He loved her all the time. I've got a lovely poem home that she wrote to him. It's just wonderful, and it sings like music. Well, long, long afterward her husband died, and then she and my father made their love marriage. They didn't get married until 1882, and she was pretty well along.'
More she told him, as they stood by the gate, and Saxon tried to think that the good-bye kiss was a trifle longer than just ordinary.
'How about nine o'clock?' he queried across the gate. 'Don't bother about lunch or anything. I'll fix all that up. You just be ready at nine.'
CHAPTER IX
Sunday morning Saxon was beforehand in getting ready, and on her return to the kitchen from her second journey to peep through the front windows, Sarah began her customary attack.
'It's a shame an' a disgrace the way some people can afford silk stockings,' she began. 'Look at me, a-toilin' and a-stewin' day an' night, and I never get silk stockings-nor shoes, three pairs of them all at one time. But there's a just God in heaven, and there'll be some mighty big surprises for some when the end comes and folks get passed out what's comin' to them.'
Tom, smoking his pipe and cuddling his youngest-born on his knees, dropped an eyelid surreptitiously on his cheek in token that Sarah was in a tantrum. Saxon devoted herself to tying a ribbon in the hair of one of the little girls. Sarah lumbered heavily about the kitchen, washing and putting away the breakfast dishes. She straightened her back from the sink with a groan and glared at Saxon with fresh hostility.
'You ain't sayin' anything, eh? An' why don't you? Because I guess you still got some natural shame in you a-runnin' with a prizefighter. Oh, I've heard about your goings-on with Bill Roberts. A nice specimen he is. But just you wait till Charley Long gets his hands on him, that's all.'
'Oh, I don't know,' Tom intervened. 'Bill Roberts is a pretty good boy from what I hear.'
Saxon smiled with superior knowledge, and Sarah, catching her, was infuriated.
'Why don't you marry Charley Long? He's crazy for you, and he ain't a drinkin' man.'
'I guess he gets outside his share of beer,' Saxon retorted.
'That's right,' her brother supplemented. 'An' I know for a fact that he keeps a keg in the house all the time as well.'
'Maybe you've been guzzling from it,' Sarah snapped.
'Maybe I have,' Tom said, wiping his mouth reminiscently with the back of his hand.
'Well, he can afford to keep a keg in the house if he wants to,' she returned to the attack, which now was directed at her husband as well. 'He pays his bills, and he certainly makes good money-better than most men, anyway.'
'An' he hasn't a wife an' children to watch out for,' Tom said.
'Nor everlastin' dues to unions that don't do him no good.'
'Oh, yes, he has,' Tom urged genially. 'Blamed little he'd work in that shop, or any other shop in Oakland, if he didn't keep in good standing with the Blacksmiths. You don't understand labor conditions, Sarah. The unions have got to stick, if the men aren't to starve to death.'
'Oh, of course not,' Sarah sniffed. 'I don't understand anything. I ain't got a mind. I'm a fool, an' you tell me so right before the children.' She turned savagely on her eldest, who startled and shrank away. 'Willie, your mother is a fool. Do you get that? Your father says she's a fool-says it right before her face and yourn. She's just a plain fool. Next he'll be sayin' she's crazy an' puttin' her away in the asylum. An' how will you like that, Willie? How will you like to see your mother in a straitjacket an' a padded cell, shut out from the light of the sun an' beaten like a nigger before the war, Willie, beaten an' clubbed like a regular black nigger? That's the kind of a father you've got, Willie. Think of it, Willie, in a padded cell, the mother that bore you, with the lunatics screechin' an' screamin' all around, an' the quick-lime eatin' into the dead bodies of them that's beaten to death by the cruel wardens-'
She continued tirelessly, painting with pessimistic strokes the growing black future her husband was meditating for her, while the boy, fearful of some vague, incomprehensible catastrophe, began to weep silently, with a pendulous, trembling underlip. Saxon, for the moment, lost control of herself.
'Oh, for heaven's sake, can't we be together five minutes without quarreling?' she blazed.
Sarah broke off from asylum conjurations and turned upon her sister-in-law.
'Who's quarreling? Can't I open my head without bein' jumped on by the two of you?'
Saxon shrugged her shoulders despairingly, and Sarah swung about on her husband.
'Seein' you love your sister so much better than your wife, why did you want to marry me, that's borne your children for you, an' slaved for you, an' toiled for you, an' worked her fingernails off for you, with no thanks, an 'insultin' me before the children, an' sayin' I'm crazy to their faces. An' what have you ever did for me? That's what I want to know-me, that's cooked for you, an' washed your stinkin' clothes, and fixed your socks, an' sat up nights with your brats when they was ailin'. Look at that!'
She thrust out a shapeless, swollen foot, encased in a monstrous, untended shoe, the dry, raw leather of which showed white on the edges of bulging cracks.
'Look at that! That's what I say. Look at that!' Her voice was persistently rising and at the same time growing throaty. 'The only shoes I got. Me. Your wife. Ain't you ashamed? Where are my three pairs? Look at that stockin'.'
Speech failed her, and she sat down suddenly on a chair at the table, glaring unutterable malevolence and misery. She arose with the abrupt stiffness of an automaton, poured herself a cup of cold coffee, and in the same jerky way sat down again. As if too hot for her lips, she filled her saucer with the greasy-looking, nondescript fluid, and continued her set glare, her breast rising and falling with staccato, mechanical movement.
'Now, Sarah, be c'am, be c'am,' Tom pleaded anxiously.
