I opened the book. The first few pages had my name, birthday, and medical allergies listed. Some other things too, like the number for the police, for the hospital, my address, and Nola’s. Filling most of the pages after that were the notes I had taken before my birthday.
From the date of my birthday forward were only a few sparse notes outlining Mama’s call to me, the Hounding job I’d done on Boy, the trip I’d made to see my dad. My hands shook at that, and my throat felt tight, but I kept reading. I had notes that covered the blood magic Truth spell my dad had lied about, my suspicions about Zayvion, my desire to go to the police and testify against my father.
And that was it.
Nothing more.
All the rest of the pages were blank.
I thumbed through them, all of them, looking for any other note, any other word.
Blank. Blank. Blank. Dozens and dozens of stupid, white, empty pages. Why hadn’t I written more? What was wrong with me? I always kept good notes. Always. Why wasn’t there something in there about the magic marks? About healing? Why wasn’t there something in there about how I really felt about Zayvion?
I threw the book across the room, and immediately felt stupid for doing so. I rubbed at the headache behind my temples.
So I’d screwed up and hadn’t taken notes.
And I could start now. Write that I am angry I didn’t keep better notes. Sounded like a dumb idea, but then I decided that I should do it. Every detail I wrote down was one more bit of my life I got to keep.
I got up, retrieved the book, and found a pen on the coffee table. I sat back on the couch and opened the book to a clean page. Maybe I should start with waking up here.
So I did.
After about a half hour, I heard the crunch of tires on gravel. Nola was home.
She unlocked the door, letting in the clean, cold smell of rain and dirt. She strolled in carrying a bright blue bag with a bow on it.
“Happy belated birthday.” She dropped the bag on my lap.
Before I could say anything, before I could worry about how to thank her for doing such a wonderful, thoughtful, kind thing when I was feeling so sour and petty, she said, “You’re welcome. Open it.”
I sat up straighter and grinned. “Thank you.” I pulled tissue paper out of the bag and peeked in it. Whorls of colors, of thread—no, yarn—filled the bag.
“Yarn?” I lifted out a skein each of pastel orange, rose, blue, purple, and green, colors that mimicked the marks of magic on my hand. Two long wooden needles, and several other short wooden needles with a point on each end, including a couple tied together by a plastic cord, remained in the bag.
“Yarn and knitting needles,” Nola said happily.
I pulled out the long needles, and tried to intuit if I had ever held anything like them before. They didn’t feel familiar. “Do I? Have I ever?”
“No. Not at all. I’ve chosen a new hobby for you to learn. We can knit together. You’ll like it.”
I raised one eyebrow. “I think I should be the judge of that.”
She chuckled. “I knew you’d say that. I’ll teach you the basics, then I thought maybe we could try to make you some nice gloves.”
“Why do I need gloves? Are you putting me to work around here?”
“No.” She gave me a serious, almost sad look. “You can’t stay out here forever, Allie. You need to go back to the city. Back to your life there. And if you find out you don’t like it, you know you can come back until you decide what you want to do next.”
“You’re kicking me out?” I meant it to sound funny, but it came out sort of small and sad.
“You’d get bored soon anyway, and curious about what you left behind. I know you. You don’t like to leave things unsettled, and a lot of things are unsettled. Your dad’s business, your relationship with your stepmom, your Hounding business.” She paused. “And you need to settle things with Zayvion. He stayed here by your bed for two weeks. I think there are things unsaid between you.”
“Really? Is that why he calls? Why he stops in to see me now that I’m conscious?” He had done neither of those things, and apparently it annoyed me even though Nola didn’t have a phone so, technically, he couldn’t call.
Nola pressed her lips together, then stood. She pulled something out from behind a vase of flowers on the mantel. It was an envelope. She handed it to me.
My name, in writing I did not recognize, was on the front.
“He left you this.”
“Have you read it?”
She shook her head.
I stared at it for what felt like a long time. “I think I want to know what he has to say to me face-to- face.”
“Are you sure?”
I was sure. Very sure. “If he has something to say to me, I want to watch him say it. I need that. I deserve that.”
Nola patted my knee. “I agree. But you don’t have to go anywhere today. Maybe when the gloves are done you’ll be ready to wear them to your favorite coffee shop. Then, after you settle back into life in the big city, you can get in touch with him.”
Talking about Zayvion stirred feelings in me I was not comfortable addressing. I was so ready for a change of subject. “Did you take a class to become wise and all-knowing, or were you just born bossy?”
“Both. Now are you going to stop complaining and try something new”—she pointed to the skeins of yarn —“or are you coming out to help me clean the chicken coops?”
“When you put it that way, how can I turn down knitting?”
“I’ll get my needles,” she said. “We can do a little before lunch.”
She jogged up the stairs to her bedroom and the kitten padded into the room. It eyed the skeins of yarn and mewed. I pulled out the end of a string and dangled it over the edge of the couch. The kitten belonged to Cody. Nola said she’d found her out in the field the day after Zay and I had left.
“How did it go with the attorneys?” I said, loud enough for my voice to carry.
“Good,” she yelled down. “We’re closer to convincing the authorities that Cody would be well served out here.” She headed back down the stairs, a tapestry tote in one hand. “The sheriff has decided to get involved. He says it’s because he’s concerned for all of the citizens under his jurisdiction. I think he sees a golden opportunity for some media exposure.”
The kitten bounded all of six inches and attacked the thread dangling in my hand.
Nola made a sour face and plunked down on the couch next to me. “I don’t like the sheriff’s interest, but his involvement was like pouring grease on gears. It looks like I might even have Cody out here as soon as this summer, if all goes well.”
“And if it doesn’t?” I asked, tugging back on the string and fishing the kitten up onto her hind feet.
“You know me. I am not the kind of woman who gives up on the people she cares for.”
Oh. She meant me, too. “Thanks,” I said.
She pulled out two long, wooden needles and a ball of light blue yarn. “Ready?”
I tossed the skein of yarn under the coffee table for the kitten to chase, then picked one of my yarns, the mint green-colored one, and nodded. “Let’s do this.”
“Good. First, make a slip knot.”
Nola had an annoying habit of being right.
About two weeks later, when she and I had both finished a set of gloves and knitted matching scarves, I knew it was time for me to go. The rains of September were now November sleet, and the ground stayed frozen all day.
It was time for this bird to fly south. Well, north and west, really, to Portland, before the snows made it hard to get over the pass.
