anxious. He remembered his mother dying there next to him without even a sound to warn him. Maybe May was dying somehow, he thought. And so he climbed out of the bed and crawled to the door.
He pushed the door open and saw that Elton had May on the kitchen table again. But this time they were kissing. Elton had his hand up under May’s dress again. But she was holding his head and smiling when he wasn’t kissing her.
“The boy,” May said wistfully.
“What about him?” Elton said in a husky voice.
“He’s right back there, Elton.”
“He got to learn sometime. Anyway, he probably just a little faggot.”
“No, baby. Let’s go to our room.”
Elton picked May up off the table and stumbled out of the room, straining under the weight.
Later on Thomas heard her hollering from their bedroom.
He worried that maybe they were fighting again and that the police would come and that he’d be put in a cell with some man taking out his thing.
But the screaming stopped and the police never came.
Later still May came and got him, and they all ate a late-night dinner of chicken and dumplings in the clean- smelling house.
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Years after Thomas was gone from May and Elton’s home, Eric skipped the eleventh grade. He had done the core course work over the summer, spending the evenings with Christie. She got an apartment near the beach in Santa Monica, where he spent most afternoons doing his homework, surfing, and making love to her.
At first Drew called every day. He’d leave long, tearful mes-sages asking Christie to come back East. She told him again and again that she couldn’t, that she needed time to think about things.
One day, while Eric waxed his surfboard on the couch across from her, Christie answered the phone, frowned, and said, “Oh, hi, Drew.”
He had called to tell her that he’d made the decision to come home midyear and go to UCLA.
“But you wanted to graduate from Yale,” she said.
“I want you.”
“I’ve met another man,” she said in a clear, emotionless voice. “And I love him.”
Eric could hear Drew crying.
“You can come back, but I’m with him now.”
She listened to him cry and tried to make him feel better.
But there was no caring in her voice, no love left over for him.
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When she hung up the phone, she said to Eric, “Come fuck me.”
Eric’s embarrassment for Drew, combined with his admira-tion for Christie’s brazen request, caused him to become very excited. They went at it so powerfully that Eric broke the condom when he came.
“It’s okay,” she told him. “I just finished my period yesterday.”
And so they made love again, and again, without protection.
Eric called Ahn and told her that he was spending the night in Santa Monica.
“Be careful,” Ahn told him.
Christie cried and then they made love. She laughed and they made love.
“I dropped him,” she said, surprised at her own resolve.
“You didn’t love him,” Eric explained.
“I do love him. I want to marry him. I want to go to school in the East and be with him every weekend.”
“Then why don’t you?” Eric asked.
“I tried, but I can’t go.”
“Why not?”
They were sitting side by side in Christie’s single bed. She’d been fired from her father’s company when he found out that she was spending all her time with a fifteen-year-old boy.
Now she worked for a design agency that had offices in the Third Street Mall. Her father took back the company car and disowned her.
The rent was due, and she was a hundred dollars short. Eric could help her this month, but he wondered how long she could live like that.
“I can’t even be away from you for more than two days, Eric,” she said. “When you stay home on the weekends, sometimes I cry until you’re back again.”
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