to make her calm. When I looked at her, I couldn’t see anything in her eyes-not what she was feeling or what she knew-as if in putting on lipstick she had pulled down the shades.
She held up a little Russian doll made of painted wood. “Here,” she said.
“What is it?”
Lilly pulled the wooden doll apart and took out a key. “Marianna’s storage room. You said you’d go look for the stuff she said she left me.”
“Did I?”
“I think you did, Artie,” she said. “Where’s Virgil?” She put the doll on a table. “Marianna loved these things. They give me the creeps,” Lily added. “Where is he? Virgil, I mean.”
“He said he had to go, said he’d be back soon,” I said. “You have the doctor’s number?”
She nodded. “I called Dr. Bernard. It’s fine.”
“She’s coming?”
“Soon, Artie, OK? Said she’d be here soon as she could get by. Relax.”
I picked up a framed photograph. The picture had been copied from a newspaper clipping and it was faded now. It showed a little girl handing a bunch of flowers to Stalin. I could barely make out the girl’s face.
“Who’s this?” I said, and Lily crossed the room and looked at the picture in my hand.
“It’s Marianna. She was a gymnast when she was a little girl, a little star.”
“Jesus. She met Stalin?”
In another photograph, this one in a leather frame, was a young woman I could just make out as Simonova; it was only her profile. Behind her was the Statue of Liberty. She held a kid’s hand, a little boy of about three, his back to the camera as he stared in the direction of the statue. He wore a tiny dark suit; he looked small and somehow lonely.
“Did she have a child?”
Lily picked up the photograph. “Marianna wouldn’t say. I got the sense this was her little boy, and I got the feeling he had died. She wouldn’t talk about it.”
“Do you want to wait here until the doctor comes?”
“You don’t need to stay,” she said. “I’m fine now.”
“I’ll stay with you,” I said.
“Thanks,” said Lily. “The pictures are pretty amazing, right?” She watched me. Somewhere in the building- maybe next door-I heard footsteps on old wooden floorboards, and the sound of people yelling at each other. No words came through, but the sounds were from the direction of the old doctor-Hutchison’s-apartment.
“Yeah.”
“Marianna kept everything, pictures, diaries, letters she liked to surround herself with it all, she told me,” said Lily.
I looked at more photographs crammed on the marble ledge: Simonova in a striped summer dress on a beach near a river; Simonova in Red Square with Paul Robeson; Robeson alone in front of Lenin’s Tomb, wearing an overcoat with a fur collar and a Karakul hat. There was a tumble of digital snaps, too, piled on the mantel and some of them were recent, I could see by Simonova’s face. In one, she was playing a guitar. In another she posed, mugging for the camera with Lily and Dr. Hutchison.
“I met the doctor from next door,” I said. “Hutchison.”
Lily looked up from the picture she held. “How come?”
“He was out on the terrace smoking.”
Lily laughed briefly. “He does that. His wife doesn’t like it. Celestina is ninety, and she rules that roost. Poor Lionel. She keeps him on a tight leash. This building, most of them are old. Most of them never leave. Until they die.”
“I got the feeling that Dr. Hutchison already knew about Simonova.”
“I don’t think so,” Lily said. “Why?”
“You tell me. When’s Simonova’s doctor coming?”
“I told you, I called. She’ll be here.”
“When?”
“As soon as she can, OK? I left a message.” Lily hesitated. “Listen to me, I thought about this while I was in the shower.” Her voice was low now, almost a whisper.
“What is it?”
“I feel I have to tell you something.”
“Go on. It’s fine. Whatever it is.”
“It was me, Artie.”
“What do you mean?”
“I killed her. Marianna. Give me a minute.” Lily turned her back to me, walked across the room, opened the door and disappeared onto the terrace.
Lily’s face was red with cold and there was snow in her hair when she came back inside. “I think I can tell you now,” she said. “I need to sit.”
There was a small couch on one side of the room. It was covered with a blue plaid blanket. Lily sat on the edge. I sat next to her.
“Whatever it is, I’m here,” I said.
“Yes.”
“You said you killed her. Lily?”
“I made her tell me those stories over and over, sometimes she could hardly breathe and I would say, ‘Go on, just finish,’ so I could tape it. I thought I could write a book. I killed her. I murdered this woman who was my friend, I made her tell me all her stories and I killed her.”
“For her stories?”
“You don’t think people kill for that?”
I put my arm around Lily’s shoulder, but she shrugged it off. “I didn’t check on the meds, either. I was supposed to check. I forgot.”
I waited.
“Last night I went out to a party and I forgot. This morning I counted the pills, like I always do, and she had missed a dose.”
“Which meds?”
Lily was rattled. “I’m not sure, I think the bottle’s in the bathroom.”
“Look. Look at me.” I got hold of Lily’s hand. “Simonova’s doctor will tell you she didn’t die because she missed a pill. It doesn’t work like that. Dr. Bernard, that’s her name? At Presbyterian?”
“I already told you it was her name.”
“It’ll be fine. You didn’t kill her, Lily. You didn’t do anything. You were her friend, isn’t that right?”
Lily didn’t answer. I could hear the second hand on my watch. I waited.
And then, Lily just jumped up. Looked at me. “That’s right, Artie, you’re right, of course,” she said. “Dr. Bernard will explain it. Of course. Anyway, I have to go now. I have things to do.” Lily was brisk now, her mood changing again.
“What things?”
“Errands. Christmas. Things,” she said. “You don’t mind, do you? I won’t be long. You can wait over in my place if you want. Yeah, that’d be good, you can wait for Dr. Bernard. Or whatever.”
“Don’t you want somebody here with Mrs. Simonova?”
“What for?” said Lily. “She’s not going anywhere,” she added. “Wait at my place. I made coffee.”
“I should move my car first. It’s in the driveway. I don’t want to get towed,” I said. We were both lying now.
“That’s a really good idea.” She kissed my cheek. “You do think it’s OK to leave Marianna for a little while?”
“Will anybody come in?”
“Nobody else has her keys,” said Lily. “I told you. I’ll call you when I hear back from Dr. Bernard, Artie, and I can always get Lionel to call her. Lucille Bernard was his protegee, he told me once. I’ll do that. I’ll ask him. They worked together. He was her teacher.”
