to keep his mouth shut. But the Dale I know wouldn't have been able to keep a secret for all the money in the world. So I saw to it that I was the last person he would talk to. It gave me no pleasure, but I have to confess I felt a certain satisfaction at observing that my old skills were not quite forgotten.
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Oslo. 17 May 2000.
Oslo. 8 February 2000.
For more than fifty years Edvard and I have been meeting six times a year at Schroder's. The first Tuesday of every second month, in the morning. We still call it the staff meeting, as we used to do when Schroder's was in Youngstorget. I have often wondered what it was that bound Edvard and me together, being as different as we are. Perhaps it is simply a shared fate. We are marked by the same events. We were both at the Eastern Front, we have both lost our wives and our children are grown. I don't know. The most important thing for me is that I have Edvard's total loyalty. Naturally, he never forgets that I helped him after the war, but I have also given him a helping hand in later years. Such as at the end of the 1960s, when his drinking and betting on horses got out of control, and when he would have almost lost his entire truck business, had I not paid off his gambling debts.
No, there is not a lot left of the fine soldier I remember from Leningrad, but in recent years Edvard has at least come to terms with the fact that life is not quite as he had imagined, and he is trying to make the best of it. He concentrates on his horse, and he no longer drinks or smokes; he contents himself with passing on racing tips to me.
And, speaking of tips, it was him who tipped me off about Even Juul asking whether Daniel could still be alive. The same evening I rang Even and asked him if he had gone senile. But Even told me that a few days ago he had lifted the receiver of an extra telephone they kept in the bedroom and had overheard a man claiming to be Daniel scaring the wits out of his wife. The man on the telephone had said she would hear from him on one of the following Tuesdays. Even had recognised the sounds of a cafe, and now he had decided to trawl the cafes in Oslo every Tuesday until he found the telephone pest. He knew the police wouldn't be bothered with such a trivial matter, and he had not said anything to Signe in case she tried to stop him. I had to bite the back of my hand to stop myself from laughing out loud and wished him luck, the old idiot.
After moving into the flat in Majorstuen I haven't seen much of Rakel, but we have talked on the telephone. We both seem to have tired of waging war now. I have given up explaining to her what she did to me and her mother when she married that Russian from the old family of Bolsheviks.
'I know you think it was betrayal,' she says. 'But it's a long time ago now. Let's not talk about it any more.'
It is not a long time ago. Nothing is a long time ago any more.
Oleg has asked after me. He is a fine boy, Oleg. I only hope he doesn't become obstinate and wilful like his mother. She has that from Helena. They are so similar that tears have come into my eyes as I'm writing this.
I have borrowed Edvard's chalet for next week. I'll test out the rifle then. Daniel will be happy.
Harry hit the kerb with the front wheels and the impact recoiled through the car. The Escort leaped inelegantly through the air and suddenly it was on the grass. There were too many people on the path, so Harry drove over the lawn. He lurched between the lake and four young people who had decided to have their breakfast on a blanket in the park. In the mirror he saw the blue flashing light. The crowds were already packed around the guardhouse, so Harry stopped, jumped out of the car and ran towards the barriers around the Palace Square.
'Police!' Harry shouted as he ploughed his way through the crowds. Those at the front had got up at the crack of dawn to ensure they had a good view of the band and were reluctant to move. As he jumped over the barrier a guardsman tried to stop him, but Harry put his hand to his side, flashed his ID card and staggered on to the open square. The gravel under his feet crunched. He turned his back on the children's procession, Slemdal kindergarten and Valerenga youth band, which was at that moment riling under the Palace balcony, with the royal family waving above them, to a terribly out of tune rendition of 'I'm Just a Gigolo'. He stared at a wall of shiny, smiling faces and red, white and blue flags. His eyes scanned the lines of people: pensioners, photo-snapping uncles, fathers with toddlers on their shoulders, but no Sindre Fauke. No Gudbrand Johansen. No Daniel Gudeson.
'Fuck! Fuck!'
He shouted more in panic than anything else.
But there, in front of the barriers, he at least saw a face he knew. Working in civilian clothes, with a walkie- talkie and reflector sunglasses. So he had followed Harry's advice about giving the Scotsman a miss and supporting the fathers in the police force.
'Halvorsen!'
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Oslo. 16 May 2000.
Oslo. 16 May 2000.
Signe is dead. She was executed as a traitor three days ago, with a bullet through her false heart. Having been with him for such a long time, I wavered when Daniel left me after firing the shot. He left me in lonely confusion. I allowed doubts to creep in and had a terrible night. The illness didn't help. I took three of the pills Dr Buer said I should take one of, but still the pain was unbearable. I managed to sleep in the end and the following day Daniel was back with renewed vigour. That was the penultimate stage and now we are boldly pressing on.
Join the circle of men round the fire, gaze at torches so golden and bright, urging soldiers to aim even higher, pledge their beings to stand up and fight.
It is approaching, the day when the Great Betrayal shall be avenged. I am undaunted.
The crucial thing is that the Betrayal will be made public. If these memoirs are found by the wrong people, there is a chance they will be destroyed or kept secret out of concern for public reactions. For safety's sake, I have also given the necessary clues to a young policeman in POT. It remains to be seen how intelligent he is, but my gut instinct is that he is at least a person with integrity. The last days have been dramatic.
It began on the day I determined I would settle accounts with Signe. I had just phoned to say I was coming for her and as I walked out of Schroder's I saw Even Juul's face through the glass front of the coffee bar on the other side of the street. I pretended I hadn't seen him and walked on, but I knew he would put two and two together once he had thought things through.
Yesterday the policeman called on me. I didn't think the clues I had given him were so obvious that he would understand how they fitted together until the mission was complete. However, it turned out he had followed the trail of Gudbrand Johansen to Vienna. I knew I had to gain time, at least forty-eight hours, so I told him a story about Even Juul which I had dreamed up in case precisely such a situation should arise. I told him Even was a poor damaged soul and that Daniel had taken up residence in him. Firstly, the story would make it seem as if Juul was behind everything Signe's killing too. Secondly, it would make the suicide I had meanwhile planned for Juul more credible.
When the policeman left, I set to work immediately. Even Juul didn't seem unduly surprised when he opened the door today and saw me on the step outside. I don't know whether he had worked it out or was simply no longer capable of surprise. He already looked dead. I held a knife to his throat and assured him that if he made one false move I could slice him up just as easily as I had done his dog. To make sure he understood what I meant, I opened the bin bag I had with me and showed him the animal. We went upstairs to his bedroom where he readily allowed me to place him on the chair. He tied the dog lead to the ceiling hook.
I don't want the police to have any more clues until this is over, so we have to make this look like suicide,' I said. But he didn't react, he seemed indifferent. Who knows, perhaps I was doing him a favour?
Afterwards, I wiped off my fingerprints and put the bin bag containing the dog in the freezer and the knives in the cellar. Everything was in place and I was just giving the bedroom a last check when I heard the crunch of gravel and saw a police car in the road. It was parked, as if it was waiting for something. I knew I was in a tight corner.
