he'd have killed them too. He'd seen what they'd done to his people, and he now knew for certain what it would mean, in this battle, for his people to lose. Killing was easy. Living, it seemed, was the hard part.
He wiped his knife on the back of his victim, and sheathed it. Men regarded him with hard, thoughtful eyes. When he walked to the ashpile, to view the remains of villagers he'd once known, no man moved to accompany him, or guide him, or pat him on the head. His Wakening remained many years away, yet his blade had tasted the blood of enemies. He was not yet a man, but today, Daryd Yuvenar was no longer a child.
Captain Tyrun was dead. Sasha stood in the central courtyard of Ymoth. Tyrun's body lay upon a low stone dais, hands folded on his breast, wrapped in his cloak to hide the drenching blood. A crowd of men had gathered and a light, misting rain fell from a bleak and weary sky. From the surrounding town, there carried the yells and instructions of men searching from house to house. But here, there was silence.
A Verenthane corporal from the Falcon Guard, who was learned in the ways of the temple, performed the Verenthane rites. Tyrun had been carried directly to this place from before the Ymoth wall, and this assembly had gathered fast, lacking any time for delay. He had been killed, men said, in the opening moments of the charge, when the formation he had been leading had plowed into the Banneryd flank. Tyrun had cut down one man, fended a second, then been struck by a third. It had happened so fast, a stunned sergeant had said. Northern cavalry were superbly skilled, even in such dire circumstances. Many men of those forward ranks had been lost before the Banneryd had been driven back.
At Sasha's side, Jaryd stood impassive and pale. Men of the Falcon Guard, in particular, appeared shocked. Sasha worried for them. And worried for the entire campaign, to have lost its true commander so early. She was the figurehead, perhaps, but this victory was surely Tyrun's. Without him keeping things together, and offering sage advice, she'd have been hopelessly lost from the first. But she dared not suggest such a thing, lest the men lose hope. She dared not shed a tear, lest the men recall that she was, after all, just a girl, whoever her absent uman might be.
The Verenthane corporal completed his rites, and stepped back. Then from the crowd came Jaegar-still alive, Sasha had discovered to her immense relief, as were all her Baerlyn friends. They had been in the rear half of Captain Akryd's attack and had escaped the initial casualties with barely a scratch. The luck of it all stunned her. Some villages had lost numerous men by simply being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Others were unscathed. It was outrageously unfair. And she recalled, suddenly, Kessligh's tired derision of her occasional statements of moral certitude. 'Nothing's fair,' he'd told her. 'Fairness is an invention of ours. One day, you'll understand that.'
Jaegar was stripped to the waist. Tattoos spiralled down his enormous chest and made rippling patterns upon the six outstanding segments of his stomach. He swaggered to stand behind Tyrun's body, a sword in his right hand, a knife in his left. His hair hung free of its braid, flowing loose upon massive shoulders. The right side of his face-the side clear of tattoos-was streaked with three red lines, beside which his tri-braid hung. Not only Chieftain of Baerlyn, Jaegar was Umchyl-spirit talker-for the town and its regions.
Now, Jaegar extended his arms, surveying the crowd with the stern, wide eyes of power. 'Umchyl!' the Goeren-yai chanted. 'Umchyl! Umchyl!' The arms extended out, then back, and Jaegar thumped himself on the shoulders, wrists crossed at the heart, with the hilts of his blades. Once, twice, and fortunate-three times.
'This day shall mark the passing of many great warriors!' Jaegar announced, in the slow, lilting chant of ceremonial Lenay. He stared about at the crowd, blades extended, muscles and tattoos rippling. He looked like a god. Sasha found herself staring, spellbound. 'One shall be appointed to lead them to the next world! Who here shall bear witness?'
'Umchyl! Umchyl! Umchyl!'
'This, our brother, was named Tyrun! He was born to the town of Banyth, in the province of Tyree! His was a wife, and his were three children! He did serve his family with honour, and his was the honour brought to his town, and his people! He was brought before his spirits by his father, and his spirits were the gods of Verenthane! To those spirits did he present his soul, and they did find him worthy!'
'Wor-thy! Wor-thy! Wor-thy!' Sasha found herself joining in. This, she had heard before.
'We are gathered today upon the ground of a great victory! The great peoples of Lenayin have joined together and brought honour in their unity! The great gods of Verenthane are strong! The great spirits of the Goeren-yai are strong! But together are they strongest, and most honourable! We are gathered today before the loyal men of Verenthane…' and here Jaegar's sword pointed to Jaryd, 'and before the brave men of the Goeren- yai…!' and his blade swept across the vast crowd behind, 'and before the wise ones of Saalshen…' as the blade pointed to Sasha's left, where the four serrin stood entranced upon the edge of the dark stone, 'and before the dark power of the ancient Synnich!'
The blade pointed at Sasha. A hiss escaped the lips of the Goeren-yai, and the rustling murmur of many spirit signs being made. Sasha stared back at Jaegar. She didn't quite believe he'd done that to her in front of all these people. Surely Jaegar had never thought of her in that way. Had he?
'Let them be joined in the sky as they are on the earth! Tyrun of Banyth shall lead and the fallen of Ymoth shall follow, Goeren-yai and Verenthane together, as brothers! Who shall bear witness to this journey?'
A wordless cheer followed, full of passion, fists thrust in the air. Repeated, twice, and then the crowd began to disperse. Horses were being watered in large groups down by the river, surviving barns and warehouses were being searched for any remaining feed, and as the afternoon darkened toward evening, there were many things yet to do. But they walked now with a greater purpose in their step than they had approached this gathering, having learned of Tyrun's death.
Jaegar was putting his undershirt back on, his mailshirt spread at his feet. Sasha walked up to him. 'I wish you hadn't done that,' she murmured. The bit about the Synnich, she meant.
'Would you deny it?' Jaegar replied, eyebrows raised. Sasha looked at her feet, unable to answer that. Daring not to, lest men who put their faith in her overhear and lose hope. And… and… for some other reason, too, that she could not truly define. 'Besides,' Jaegar continued, bending to gather his mail, 'they needed to hear it. Now more than ever.' He held the shirt up, effortlessly despite its considerable weight, and slid it on.
Sasha turned then to look for Jaryd, and found him standing by Tyrun's body. She walked over and put a hand on his arm. 'Come,' she said softly. 'You are Commander of the Falcon Guard now, for true and proper. It will not do for your men to see you grieving.'
'Yet I grieve all the same,' said Jaryd. His voice was tight as he gazed down at Tyrun's impassive, silent face. 'I am not half the commander he was. I was guarding the princess. I did not lead in this battle. I did not lead in any battle.'
'You are wounded,' Sasha replied, trying to be reasonable. 'You cannot be expected to…'
'Nothing can be expected of me,' Jaryd said bitterly. 'I am nothing. I was angry at my family's so-called friends for stripping me of everything that I had. Now, I wonder if I ever truly was anything. Perhaps father knew best when he called me worthless. Perhaps Family Nyvar could never truly have amounted to anything with me at its head. The only thing I was ever good at was riding and fighting, and now when the last people left in the world whom I love require my assistance, I can't even do that.'
'Captain Tyrun is dead, and you take the opportunity to feel sorry for yourself,' Sasha said angrily. She felt for Jaryd's suffering, but she simply didn't have time for this now. 'You look around you, Jaryd. You look hard. Many families have ended here, and more tragedies unfolded than I care to count. These men fight for something bigger than themselves or their families. If you can't feel that, if you can't understand what it was that Tyrun died for, then maybe you'd be better elsewhere.'
Jaryd stared at her, his jaw tight, his stare as hard as stone. 'If my services are not required,' he said coldly, 'then I shall leave.'
'Your services?' Sasha replied, incredulously. 'What do you believe in, Jaryd? Why be here, if not for a cause?'
'I believe in nothing. My family is no more, and my brother is dead. All the ideals of Verenthane brotherhood and Lenay honour I had been taught to believe are lies.'
'Then why are you still here? Why come this far at all?'
Jaryd looked down at Tyrun. The lateness of the day cast all colour, all life, all joy to shadow. The light, falling mist gathered at the tips of his lank hair as it fell about his face. 'The Falcon Guard are all I have left,' Jaryd said quietly. 'Yet with this arm, I cannot serve them.'
'Then just be here to pick up their wounded when they fall!' Sasha retorted. 'Jaryd, you're… you're such an
