'The other lords claim otherwise.'
'They raise the taxes to pay our wages,' Tyrun said dryly, 'and to forge our weapons, tend our horses and upkeep our barracks. Those, they own. Our honour, they do not. When this is over, they can disband the entire company if they wish, but I'd like to see them try and find replacements when word spreads of what they did to Family Nyvar. This is a day of infamy for Tyree, M'Lady. But it shall not be a day of infamy for the Falcon Guard.'
It was said with the same dry calculation with which Captain Tyrun said everything… and yet, Sasha could not help but think that it was the most impassioned thing she'd yet heard the man say.
'Well,' she said after a moment, 'I'm glad you're here. I'm going to need some assistance, Tyrun. Kessligh taught me much, but… I haven't done this before.'
'Aye, M'Lady,' said Tyrun.
To ride at night through any part of Lenayin was no easy thing, for roads were rarely straight and level, and torchlight was of limited service after the setting of the moon. Thankfully there was plenty of oil for the torches and the wind was not too strong to weaken the flame. It swirled, however, cold and occasionally misty, threatening rain.
These and other thoughts crowded Sasha's mind. Before, on such rides, she could relax in the confidence that Kessligh would make the right decisions, now she worried and fretted. The sensation was most unpleasant, made worse by lack of sleep. How did anyone learn to handle such pressures as effortlessly as Kessligh had managed? She could not imagine.
Shortly, the road emerged from the forest onto the outlying Baen-Tar farmland, where the land lay relatively flat between rugged hillsides. The stone walls of farmhouses glowed dimly in the passing of many torches, displaying shutters firmly latched against the dark. It seemed unreal to be riding such a path at night. Torchlight did not reach the surrounding hills, merely caressing the lower fringes of their forested slopes. Above, the ridgelines were almost invisible against the black sky, featureless save for moving patches of stars through the cloud.
A new horse moved up on her right and Sasha recognised Andreyis's face beneath his hood.
'That was a good speech,' he said, his voice barely carrying above the plodding hooves, creaking harness and sputtering wind. He sounded anxious. 'You always said you never liked speeches.'
'I can assure you I didn't like that one.' She gazed at the distant, dancing shadow of a farmhouse and wondered if its occupants would cheer or curse them, were they roused from their sleep. Then she looked at her old friend in sudden concern. This was a war party and Andreyis had not yet passed the Wakening. 'We'll have to find you some mail.'
'You're not wearing any,' Andreyis retorted.
'Slows me down. If I lose my speed and balance, I've no advantage left. Safer not to wear any.' It troubled her, Andreyis being there. He was from her peaceful life on the hillside with her horses. Of course he'd always trained for warfare, as all Lenay men did, but she'd never thought to be present when he first put those skills to the test. And she'd certainly never thought to be in command. It scared her worse than anything had scared her so far in this night's young rebellion.
'Sasha, I'm… I just… wanted to say that I'm sorry.' Andreyis looked even more anxious now. As if concerned, in a way that he rarely had been before, of arousing her temper. 'Teriyan said you were angry at him. I knew that he was telling other Goeren-yai about you, but he told me not to say anything, and so did my father…'
'What did he say?' Sasha asked. 'Teriyan, I mean?'
'He…' Andreyis took a deep breath, and glanced aside. 'Folks were curious, Sasha. I mean, I've forgotten the number of times some out-oftowner stopped by the house on some business and wanted to ask me only about you. I always told them I only worked at the ranch, that I didn't know you real well… you know, just to shut them up. But they all gossiped, and that gossip went all across Lenayin.'
'I know,' Sasha said quietly. 'I know they gossiped. I know they wanted a royal Goeren-yai. There was lots of talk that Krystoff was the first. Some said that the spirits had taken him, and turned his heart to the ancient ways. When he died, and I left to live with Kessligh, many felt that spirit had passed on to me. The Taneryn say it's the will of the Synnich. Everyone has their own little legend or prophecy. Doubtless if I die, they'll invent some new one.'
'Sasha, don't blame Teriyan. He wasn't spying on you, he never told any personal details or anything…'
'Little enough he knows of my personal life,' Sasha snorted.
'Aye, well…' Andreyis fidgeted with a handful of rein. 'But someone had to talk to them. Goeren-yai from all over Lenayin were fascinated, Sasha. They'd all have turned up on your doorstep if Teriyan and Jaegar hadn't done some talking. It's not easy for them sometimes, you know, having you and Kessligh in town. I mean… I get told all the time, how Baerlyn ceased to be a normal town when you two arrived. Most are pleased, don't get me wrong… but it's just different, that's all.'
'You didn't talk to any gossip-mongers?' Sasha asked him with a firm gaze.
Andreyis blinked. 'And tell them what? That you shave your legs with a hunting knife and candle wax?' Sasha bit back a grin and tried hard to look annoyed. Unsuccessfully, because Andreyis saw and smiled, exasperatedly. 'I don't know what these idiots want, Sasha. Teriyan does. They want to know signs, you know… that you can quote some Tullamayne, that you make the spirit sign, that you wear the tri-braid and prefer wine to ale. Some holy folks think they can read the spirits' will in little things… I don't know, what colour socks you wear. Stupid stuff. Teriyan doesn't like it either, but they tell folks this stuff so Baerlyn doesn't become some damn pilgrimage town for crazy Goeren-yai hoping to catch a glimpse. It keeps them satisfied so they don't have to come and find out for themselves. Which wouldn't have made Prince Koenyg real happy, I'd guess.'
Sasha breathed a deep, dark breath. 'It's honeycomb wax,' she said on an impulse. 'Candle wax hurts too much.'
Andreyis gave a snort of laughter. 'Some people think you're a tomboy, but I know better. You're still just a pampered princess underneath, with all your girlie things in your washing stall..
'I happen to dislike body hair in the wrong places!' Sasha retorted. 'What's wrong with that?'
'I counted nine different soaps and oils,' Andreyis countered accusingly.
'I take my luxuries where I can get them.'
'Exactly.'
'Did Teriyan tell them that too?' Sasha asked, with a lingering sideways look.
'How could he have? I didn't tell him. Besides, he was trying to protect you from that kind of prying, Sasha. People were going to pry anyway, you being who you are. Teriyan and Jaegar just tried to manage it, that's all.'
Sasha sighed, heavily. Ahead, the vanguard's torches lit a wavering, ghostly line across the paddocks-a treeline, where the forest closed in once more. 'Alythia accused me of trying desperately to fit in where none would willingly accept me,' she said sombrely. And laughed bitterly. 'Isn't that just like a sister, to know just where to stick the needle so it hurts the most? I just wanted to fit in, Andrey. I wanted friends and a place to belong. I didn't want to be a burden, or a… a pilgrimage attraction. Just a person, you know?'
Andreyis smiled at her, with friendly exasperation. 'Sasha… you don't understand, do you? Look behind you.' She looked over her shoulder. A vast column of horses, torchlit across the dark, rolling fields. Cloaked and armoured men in their hundreds. 'You did fit in. The Goeren-yai are following you, Sasha. Teriyan spread word about you and men liked what they heard. They always have, even in Baerlyn folks think you can walk on clouds…'
'Don't be ridiculous!' Sasha said incredulously. Thinking of all the rib bings she'd received at the hands of Baerlyn men and women alike, the goodhumoured slander, the teasing about her hair and how she showered far more affection on horses than young men, and how all those same young men were too frightened to flirt with her…
'I'm not being ridiculous!' Andreyis protested. 'We don't do hero worship real well, Sasha… Goeren-yai men are proud, they don't bow at the feet of others easily. I'm your friend, Sasha. I've wrestled you down the hillside and rubbed dirt in your hair. But I'm not riding here tonight just because you're my friend. I'm riding here because I'm Goeren-yai and the Goeren-yai need a leader. They've chosen that leader to be you. And I couldn't think of anyone I'd rather follow.'
Sasha gazed at him, a cold gust of wind threatening to remove the hood from her head. Tears prickled her eyes, and she reached and grasped Andreyis's hand with her own. 'I don't know if I deserve that trust, Andrey,'
