She shakes her head. “That’d make life too easy. And as far as her work laptop goes, Bobby says it rides to the office with her in the Benz and comes home the same way, and when she stops at the gym, it waits in the car with her driver.”
Carr nods. “Dennis send you anything from her personal computer?”
“He spiked it, and he’s supposed to send me her e-mail and her browser history. He confirmed it doesn’t have the Isla Privada software on it, and none of the security hardware to access their network.” Valerie sits cross- legged on the bed and pulls a pillow onto her lap. “You think I’m not doing my homework?”
“Maybe you saw something I didn’t.”
Valerie shakes her head. “It’s what we thought: we want access to Isla Privada’s network, we need their hardware; we want access to that-to Amy Chun’s equipment, anyway-we need somebody who can hang out in her house. And that would be Jill.”
Carr nods slowly and sits up on the desk. “How’s your apartment working out?”
She shrugs. “Mid-nineties generic. Lot of corporate types in the building, on long-term business trips, plus some divorced dads with cars they can’t afford. I can see a slice of the Intracoastal from the balcony. It’s right for Jill.”
“We could’ve met there.”
Valerie narrows her eyes. “No we couldn’t,” she says, scowling. “I told you: Jill’s on her own.”
“Yeah, I got that. You color in any other parts of Jill’s life?”
“I’m waiting for the take from Amy’s computer,” she says. Valerie looks Carr up and down. “You’re perched on that desk like it’s a lifeboat. We sinking or something?”
“I’m trying to figure out if you’re going to keep snapping at my ass. I’m thinking maybe I can hide behind this thing.”
Valerie is still for a beat, and then she sighs. “Yeah. Sorry. It takes me a while to let her go. I can’t switch her off just like that.” She snaps her fingers, like a branch breaking. “Jill’s pretty much had it with men. She’s a little angry.”
“I get that.”
Valerie sighs again, longer and more heavily. “Not me, though. I’m not angry.” She pats the mattress beside her, and Carr crosses to the bed.
Afterward, covered in gooseflesh and the sour breath of the air conditioner, Valerie pulls him back from the edge of sleep. Her head is on his chest, and her fingers comb gently through his pubic hair. Her voice is husky.
“Let’s play geography,” she says.
Carr sighs. He can’t remember who started it, or when they started playing, but it’s become a fixture of the long stretches the crew spends together in cars, in vans, in darkened rooms-a way to relieve the monotony of sitting for hours with earpieces jammed in their heads, watching, listening, waiting. Dennis called it retirement geography, and it was simple to play: tell a story about what you’re going to do once you’ve made your nut, and where you’re going to do it-your dream of life afterward. Which, Carr thought, told you a lot about a person.
Bobby’s ideal retirement changed venues now and then-shifting from Nassau, to Vegas, to Macao, to Monte Carlo, and back to Nassau again-but regardless of the particular locale, it was always the same: a high-roller suite at a high-end gambling resort.
“These new villas, they have private elevators right down to the casino floor, and private hostesses who spoon-feed you caviar and wipe your ass with silk. I’ll make sure they all have pictures of my ex, with orders to shoot on sight.” A simple man, Bobby, with a simple plan.
Latin Mike’s vision of his golden years was also straightforward, if less gilded: he wanted off the grid. “A thousand acres in the high desert. I put up a wind turbine, solar cells, and a tall motherfucking fence. I have a few horses, maybe a goat, and nobody needs to send me a Christmas card.”
Ray-Ray had a second career in mind-a ski school in British Columbia, with a bar attached. “I’ll run the tourist babes up and down the mountain all day, and at night I’ll ply their sore little bods with alcohol.”
And Dennis dreamed of setting up a venture capital shop on Sand Hill Road and financing the next Google. Bobby always laughed at that. “You’re a fucking pure breed, Denny; you’re geek to the bone.”
Carr didn’t play the game, and neither did Valerie. He would simply shake his head when his turn came around; she chose deflection.
“I’m falling off the map, boys,” she said, the last time Bobby tried to goad her into it. “Over the edge, like those ships when the world was flat.”
Bobby laughed. “C’mon, Vee-that’s not how you play.”
“Fuck you-you think I want you guys showing up on my doorstep, looking to borrow money?”
Of all of them, Declan liked the game best, and he was best at it. It called to some Celtic storytelling gene in him, and he would spin elaborate yarns about his retirement by the sea. Over the years he’d had several shores in mind: Hoi An, in Vietnam, and Hua Hin, in Thailand, La Barra, in Uruguay, was a favorite for a long while. He would talk about them at length and in detail-the weather, the waters, the cuisines, and local real estate markets. Carr remembers him hunched over binoculars, waxing poetic about asado and fish empanadas, while the smell of his cigar filled the van.
“Yer young now, but you’ll see, when yer all wizened bastards like me, you won’t want to be working or whoring or-forgive me, Mike-roasting in the feckin’ desert. You’ll want a cottage by the sea, I’m telling ya, and a boat, and maybe a garden with a fruit tree. And who knows, but maybe you’ll want to do some breeding yerselves. Me, I’m hoping the local publican has a daughter of marrying age, or maybe the baker-a homely but grateful girl. That’s the ticket, lads.” The gravel whisper went on and on about the meals he’d cook, the wine he’d drink, the darts he’d play, and the dog he would buy.
Carr rubs his eyes and sits up in bed. “I thought you didn’t like that game,” he says.
“I didn’t,” Valerie says, “when it was just a game. Now it’s less abstract. Come on-you show me yours…”
Carr shakes his head. “I have nothing to show. I haven’t given much thought to afterward.”
Valerie sighs and settles herself again, her cheek on his thigh. “Bobby said you were talking to him about Mendoza. Asking about what happened again.”
“And?”
“And it worries him.”
“Worries him how?”
“He thinks you’re picking at something, and he doesn’t know what. He’s worried you’re taking your eye off the ball.”
“Screw him. He should keep his mind on his own goddamn job, and let me take care of mine.”
“He says you feel guilty.”
“Bobby’s a psychiatrist now? That’s a sure sign of the apocalypse.”
“I don’t like what happened down there either. It was a waste, and I was as broken up about it as anybody- but I don’t feel guilty.”
Carr shakes his head. “No offense, Vee, but I’m not sure you’re the best yardstick.”
Valerie sits up and pulls a sheet over her breasts. “If I wasn’t such a cold-hearted bitch, I might take offense at that,” she says with a bitter laugh. “Maybe I didn’t know those guys as long as you, but I trusted them with my life more times than I can count. I trusted them to back me up, and they didn’t disappoint. Not ever. Ray was like a kid brother, for chrissakes, and Deke…”
She looks at the ceiling and breathes deeply-once, twice-to steady her voice. “We told Deke what we thought about that job-you and me both. We said everything there was to say about the planning, the intel, the risks- everything and then some. Maybe you remember, he was pretty pissed at us when he left. I thought the two of you were going to come to blows. You tell me, what else were we supposed to do?”
Carr shrugs. “We should’ve been more convincing.”
“Right-’cause Deke was always so open to suggestions.”
“He listened to me.”
“He listened when he felt like it, but he didn’t listen then. And really, how many ways can you say bad idea and stupid fucking plan? I think we tried them all.”
Carr runs a hand through his hair. “Maybe it wasn’t just the plan that was bad. Maybe something else was going on.”
