'Sure?'
'Christ, Sylvie, I’m in this mess because you decided to give that fucking pumped-up freak a blowjob.'
'You’re in this mess because you decided to smash him on the nose. If you’d kept your fists out of things all we would have had was a bit of embarrassment.'
I stopped at the door to my room and slid the keycard into the lock. The tiny light above the handle stayed a stubborn red.
'He’s Ulla’s boyfriend.'
'So then it was between her and him, or maybe her and me. It had fuck-all to do with you.'
I turned the card around, swiped it again and shoved. The door stayed firmly locked.
'He used you.'
'Maybe I wanted to be used. Face facts, William, you can’t get it up so you don’t want anyone else getting any.'
I took her by the arm.
'You’d be the last girl I’d want to fuck. I’d be afraid my dick would go septic and fall off.'
I felt my fingers digging into her flesh. She reached up and kissed me. Her breath was sharp, her lips salty. I thought of where her mouth had been and pushed her away. 'If I’d wanted to taste that big poof’s muck I would’ve blown him myself.'
'Fuck you, William.'
'No, fuck you, you mad bitch.'
Sylvie turned away. I watched her walk slowly back down the corridor towards the lift then tried the card again. The lock glowed green. I pushed open the door, hesitated, then went in.
It was the stench that hit me first. I half gagged, trying to place it, then suddenly I knew. It was my smell magnified a hundredfold. A dim slice of light shone in from the corridor. It wasn’t much to see by, but it was enough to reveal the few possessions I’d brought to Berlin strewn around the shadows. My clothes had been dragged from the wardrobe, the duvet and pillows pulled from the bed. And somewhere, smashed amongst the debris, was a bottle of expensive aftershave that no longer smelt suave. I picked up the paperback novel I’d been reading. Its pages had been ripped from their cover. It was a shame. Now I’d never know how things worked out.
I pressed the light switch; there was a dull click but the room remained in gloom. It was a fitting end to the evening. I’d been beaten up, lost my job, alienated the girl I fancied, forfeited my money and fallen out with the only friend I’d made in the city. Robbery and a dead light bulb dovetailed perfectly. Way down the corridor I heard the lift doors breathe open then chime shut.
'Fuck, fuck, fuck.'
I snibbed the lock in the slim hope that Sylvie would decide to come back, then closed the door softly behind me and checked my watch. It was 3 a.m. All across the city people were snug in bed. Loved ones spooned together, rosy-cheeked children sucking their thumbs as they slumbered. I moved towards the window to let in whatever light the street offered, or maybe to watch Sylvie walking away. My foot hit against the whisky bottle lying on the floor and I bent over to pick it up, reminding myself that friends needn’t always be flesh and blood. Perhaps something snagged the edge of my vision because I turned in the direction of the bathroom door just as it started to open.
Montgomery looked older, as if retirement wasn’t suiting him. My waters shifted and I balled my fists, taking a step backwards. Montgomery shook his head sadly.
'You’re a bloody mess.'
His voice was soft, concerned. My own voice sounded gruff, but more confident than I felt.
'A bit like this room then.'
'Yeah,' He smiled a melancholy smile. 'Sorry about that, I thought I could save us both a bit of bother.'
I sat down on the bed. 'Maybe I’m getting thick in my old age, but I’m still in the dark.' I looked at the unlit room and amazed myself by laughing. 'Obviously I’m in the dark. What are you doing here?'
Montgomery took a bulb out of his pocket and screwed it into the bedside lamp. A soft light showed up the full mess of the room.
'Better?'
I looked around at my scattered belongings. The ex-policeman had done more than search. His assault on my possessions had been furious. The duvet and pillows had been sliced open, coating the floor in a mess of foam and feathers. My jackets were shredded.
The jaws of my suitcase gaped wide, its red lining slit and lolling, reminding me of the damage I’d inflicted on Kolja’s face and making me wonder if I was about to taste my own medicine. I took a pack of cards from my pocket and started shuffling, giving my hands something to do.
'Not really, no, in fact I’m two seconds away from phoning your Berlin colleagues.'
'You’re a disappointment, William. For a moment there, when you were straight about recognising me, I thought you were going to be a good boy.' Montgomery stood in front of me and I realised it had been a mistake to sit down. 'Where is it?'
'I’ve got perfect recall remember? Part of the job.' I squared the shuffle. 'It’s an advantage in my game. For instance, I’ve memorised this entire deck in the time we’ve been talking.' I offered him the pack. 'Pick a card and I’ll tell you the rest of the sequence. Then you can tell me what it is you’re after.'
Montgomery knocked the cards from my hand; they scattered over my lap and onto the floor, like a cheap metaphor for my life.
