Shay nodded slowly. 'I thought so. What was it?'
Tally pointed at Shay's scarf, and together they pulled it off and wrapped it tightly around Tally's wrist, another layer over the cuff. After another breath, she said in the softest whisper she could manage, 'We found a cure.'
Shay's eyes narrowed. 'It's about starving yourself, isn't it?'
'No. Well, that helps. Hunger, coffee, playing tricks— all that stuff Zane's been doing for months. But the real cure is … simpler than that.'
'What is it? I'll do it.'
'You can't.'
'The hell with you, Tally!' Shay's eyes flashed. 'If you can do it, I can!'
Tally shook her head. 'It's a pill.'
'A pill? Like vitamins?'
'No, a special pill. Croy brought it to me, the night of the Valentino bash. Try to remember, Shay. Before you and I came back to the city, Maddy had figured out how to reverse the operation. You helped me write a letter, remember?'
Shay's face went blank for a moment, then she frowned. 'That's when I was pretty.'
'Right. After we rescued you, when we were hiding out in the ruins.'
'Funny, those days are harder to remember than back when I was ugly.' Shay shook her head.
'Well, Maddy figured out a cure. But it was untested, dangerous. She wouldn't give it to you because you refused. You wanted to stay pretty. So I had to give myself up to test it. That's why I'm here.'
'And Croy brought it to you a month ago?'
Tally nodded, taking Shays hand. 'And it works. You've seen how it changed me and Zane. It makes us bubbly all the time. So once we get out of here, you can—' Shay's expression brought Tally to a halt. 'What's the matter?'
'You and Zane both took some?'
'Yeah,' Tally said. 'There were two pills, and we split them. I was afraid to do it on my own.'
Shay turned to the fire, pulling her hand away. 'I can't believe you, Tally.'
'What?'
Shay whirled to face her. 'Why him? Why didn't you ask me?'
'But I—' 'You're supposed to be my friend, Tally. I've done everything for you. I was the one who first told you about the Smoke. I was the one who introduced you to David. And when you came to New Pretty Town, I helped you become one of the Crims. Did it even occur to you to share the cure with me? It's your fault I'm like this, after all!'
Tally shook her head. 'There wasn't time … I didn't even—' 'No, of course you didn't,' Shay spat. 'You barely even knew Zane, but he was the leader of the Crims, so hooking up with him was the next trick on your list. Just like David out in the Smoke. That's why you split the cure with him.'
'It wasn't like that!' Tally cried.
'You are like that, Tally. You have always been like that! No cure is going to make you any different — you were busy betraying people a long time ago. You didn't need any operation to make you selfish and shallow and full of yourself. You already were.'
Tally tried to answer, but something horrible rose up in her throat, choking off her words. Then she noticed the quiet around them, and realized that Shay had been yelling. The other Crims looked on in puzzlement, only the hiss of the fire filling the silence. Pretties didn't fight. They hardly ever argued, and they certainly never shouted at one another in the middle of a party. That sort of obnoxious behavior was strictly for uglies.
She looked down at her wrist, wondering if Shay's raised voice had gotten through the layers of cloth and plastic. If so, it would all end tonight.
Shay pulled away and whispered fiercely, 'I may be my pretty self again tomorrow, Tally. But I'll remember this, I swear. No matter what sweet things I say to you, trust me, I am not your friend.' She turned and walked into the trees, thrashing through frozen branches.
Tally looked around at the other Crims, the champagne glasses in their hands glittering sharply in the moonlight, reflecting the wasteful fire. She felt alone and exposed with all of them staring at her. But after a few more horrible moments of silence, they turned away and started telling breakthrough stories again.
Tally's head spun. The change in Shay had been so shocking, so complete, and she hadn't even taken a pill. A few minutes of real anger had transformed her from a placid pretty to a wild beast. … It didn't make sense.
Suddenly, Tally remembered Dr. Cable's last words, about Zane helping Special Circumstances. After his friends had run away, he must have been taken to see her, confessing everything he knew about the Smoke and the mysterious David who took uglies there. Maybe that was what had kept him bubbly all these months — his shame about not running away, his guilt over having betrayed his friends to Dr. Cable.
Of course, Tally had her own guilty secrets. So she'd stayed bubbly too, never quite fitting in, never quite sure of what she wanted, no matter how much champagne she drank. Old and ugly emotions were always waiting, hidden inside, ready to change her.
And Shay had been transformed as well — not by guilt, but by buried anger. Concealed behind her pretty smiles were suppressed memories of the betrayals that had cost her David, the Smoke, and finally her freedom. All it had taken was climbing up the tower and falling through the ice— enough stimulation to break the logjam in her memories— to bring that anger to the surface. And now she hated Tally. Maybe Shay wouldn't need the pills at all — maybe old memories from ugly days were enough. Perhaps, thanks to every terrible thing that Tally Youngblood had ever done to her, Shay would find her own way to a cure.
Tally woke up with an ugly mind.
It was what she used to call bubbly — the gray morning light somehow bright and glittery sharp enough to cut flesh. The rain beat against Zane's window in malicious, half-frozen drops, tapping like impatient fingernails.
But Tally didn't mind the rain. It blurred the city's spires and gardens, reducing the view to gray and green blotches, the lights of other mansions casting halos on the wet glass.
The downpour had started late the night of the party, finally extinguishing the Crims' bonfire, as if Dr. Cable had called the heavens down to drown their celebration. For the two days since, Tally and Zane had been trapped inside, unable to speak freely within the smart walls of Pulcher Mansion. She hadn't even had a chance to tell him about Shay's outburst of old memories, or about meeting Dr. Cable in the woods. Not that she was looking forward to revealing what she'd confessed to Shay, or bringing up what Cable had told her about Zane's past.
This morning had brought another mountain of pings, but Tally couldn't face any more requests to join the Crims. The stadium collapse and the last two days of feed coverage had made them the hottest clique in New Pretty Town, but a bunch of new members was exactly what the Crims didn't need. 'What they needed was to stay bubbly. Tally worried, though, that a third day stuck inside by the rain would bore everyone back into being pretty- heads.
Zane was already awake, sipping coffee and staring out the window, absently spinning his cuff with one finger. He glanced at her as she stirred, but didn't make a sound. The silence between them since they'd been cuffed had felt conspiratorial, their secret whispers intimate, but Tally wondered if talking so little was gradually shutting them off from each other. Shay had been right about one thing: Tally had hardly known Zane before that day they'd climbed the tower. What Dr. Cable had told her made Tally realize that she still didn't know him very well.
But once the cuffs were off and they were outside the city, their memories freed from the blur of pretty- headedness, there would be nothing to stop them from telling each other everything.
'Bogus weather, huh?' she said.
'Just a few degrees colder and it'd be snowing.'
Tally brightened. 'Yeah, snow would be totally pretty-making.' She fished a dirty T-shirt from the floor, wadded it up, and threw it at his head. 'Snowball fight!'
He let it bounce off him, smiling softly. Zane's headache from the night of the party had passed, but it had left him in a serious mood. Without having said a word, they both knew they would have to escape the city soon.
