'What?' She moved a step closer to him.
Idaho put both harass over his face.
'Look at what you've done to poor Duncan,' Leto said.
'He'll find other loves.' How callous she sounded, an echo of his own angry youth.
'You don't know what it is to love,' he said. 'What have you ever given?' He could only wring his hands then those travesties which once had been his hands. 'Gods below! What I've given!'
She sled closer and reached toward him, then drew back.
'I am reality, Siona. Look upon me. I exist. You can touch me if you dare. Reach out your hand. Do it!'
Slowly, she reached toward what had been his front segment, the place where she had slept in the Sareer. Her hand was touched with blue when she withdrew it.
'You have touched me and felt my body,' he said. 'Is that not strange beyond any other thing in this universe?'
She started to turn away.
'No! Don't turn away from me! Look at what you have wrought, Siona. How is it that you can touch me but you cannot touch yourself?'
She whirled away from him.
'There is the difference between us,' he said. 'You are God embodied. You walk around within the greatest miracle of this universe, yet you refuse to touch or see or feel or believe in it.'
Leto's awareness went wandering then into a night-encircled place, a place where he thought he could hear the metal insect song of his hidden printers clacking away in their lightless room. There was a complete absence of radiation in this place, an Ixian no-thing which made it a place of anxiety and spiritual alienation because it had no connection with the rest of the universe.
But it will have a connection.
He sensed then that his Ixian printers had been set in motion, that they were recording his thoughts without any special command.
Remember what I did! Remember me! I will be innocent again!
The flame of his vision parted to reveal Idaho standing where Siona had stood. There was gesturing motion somewhere out of focus behind Idaho... ah, yes: Siona waving instructions to someone atop the barrier Wall.
'Are you still alive?' Idaho asked.
Leto's voice came in wheezing gasps: 'Let them scatter, Duncan. Let them run and hide anywhere they want in any universe they choose.'
'Damn you! What're you saying? I'd have sooner let her live with you!'
'Let? I did not let anything.'
'Why did you let Hwi die?' Idaho moaned. 'We didn't know she was in there with you.'
Idaho's head sagged forward.
'You will be recompensed,' Leto husked. 'My Fish Speakers will choose you over Siona. Be kind to her, Duncan. She is more than Atreides and she carries the seed of your survival.'
Leto sank back into his memories. They were delicate myths now, held fleetingly in his awareness. He sensed that he might have fallen into a time which, by its very being, had changed the past. There were sounds, though, and he struggled to interpret them. Someone scrambling on rocks? The flames parted to reveal Siona standing beside Idaho. They stood hand-in-hand like two children reassuring each other before venturing into an unknown place.
'How can he live like that?' Siona whispered.
Leto waited for the strength to respond. 'Hwi helps me,' he said. 'We had something few experience. We were joined in our strengths rather than in our weaknesses.'
'And look what it got you!' Siona sneered.
'Yes, and pray that you get the same,' he husked. 'Perhaps the spice will give you time.'
'Where is your spice?' she demanded.
'Deep in Sietch Tabr,' he said. 'Duncan will find it. You know the place, Duncan. They call it Tabur now. The outlines are still there.'
'Why did you do it?' Idaho whispered.
'My gift,' Leto said. 'Nobody will find the descendants of Siona. The Oracle cannot see her.'
'What?' They spoke in unison, leaning close to hear his fading voice.
'I give you a new kind of time without parallels,' he said. 'It will always diverge. There will be no concurrent points on its curves. I give you the Golden Path. That is my gift. Never again will you have the kinds of concurrence that once you had.'
Flames covered his vision. The agony was fading, but he could still sense odors and hear sounds with a terrible acuity. Both Idaho and Siona were breathing in quick, shallow gasps. Odd kinesthetic sensations began to weave their way through Leto-echoes of bones and joints which he knew he no longer possessed.
'Look!' Siona said.
'He's disintegrating.' That was Idaho.
'No.' Siona. 'The outside is falling away. Look! The Worm!'
Leto felt parts of himself settling into warm softness. The agony removed itself.
'What're those holes in him?' Siona.
'I think they were the sandtrout. See the shapes?'
'I am here to prove one of my ancestors wrong,' Leto said
(or thought he said, which was the same thing as far as his journals were concerned). 'I was born a man but I do not die a man.'
'I can't look!' Siona said.
Leto heard her turn away, a rattle of rocks.
'Are you still there, Duncan?'
'Yes.'
So I still have a voice.
'Look at me,' Leto said. 'I was a bloody bit of pulp in a human womb, a bit no larger than a cherry. Look at me, I say!'
'I'm looking.' Idaho's voice was faint.
'You expected a giant and you found a gnome,' Leto said. 'Now, you're beginning to know the responsibilities which come as a result of actions. What will you do with your new power, Duncan?'
There was a long silence, then Siona's voice: 'Don't listen to him! He was mad!'
'Of course,' Leto said. 'Madness in method, that is genius.'
'Siona, do you understand this?' Idaho asked. How plaintive, the ghola voice.
'She understands,' Leto said. 'It is human to have your soul brought to a crisis you did not anticipate. That's the way it always is with humans. Moneo understood at last.'
'I wish he'd hurry up and die!' Siona said.
'I am the divided god and you would make me whole,' Leto said. 'Duncan? I think of all my Duncans I approve of you the most.'
'Approve?' Some of the rage returned to Idaho's voice.
'There's magic in my approval,' Leto said. 'Anything's possible in a magic universe. Your life has been dominated by the Oracle's fatality, not mine. Now, you see the mysterious caprices and you would ask me to dispel this? I wished only to increase it.' The others within Leto began to reassert themselves. Without the solidarity of the colonial group to support his identity, he began to lose his place among them. They started speaking the language of the constant 'IF.' 'If you had only... If we had but...' He wanted to shout them into silence.
'Only fools prefer the past!'
Leto did not know if he truly shouted or only thought it. The response was a momentary inner silence matched to an outer silence and he felt some of the threads of his old identity still intact. He tried to speak and knew the reality of it because Idaho said, 'Listen, he's trying to say something.'
'Do not fear the lxians,' he said, and he heard his own voice as a fading whisper. 'They can make the machines, but they no longer can make arafel. I know. I was there.'
