“Sure it was,” Roy said. “Like it was a mistake when you bothered her two nights ago. You make a lot of mistakes, man.”
“It won’t happen again.”
“Now that’s the truth,” Roy said. “My boss told me to make sure it doesn’t.”
“What are you going to do,” I said, “hit me out here in front of all these people?”
“No,” he said, steering me back toward the club, “we’re going to show you a good time in one of our private rooms tonight.”
I couldn’t let him get me inside – if he did, I might never come out again. But I had a couple of blocks to deal with that. The important thing was getting him away from Susan. I let him walk me down the block.
Suddenly he stopped, and I saw a hand between us reaching up to tap him on the shoulder. We both turned back, and Susan was there, holding a canister in her hand, about the size of a cologne bottle or a travel-sized can of shaving cream. With her thumb, she depressed the trigger on top.
I dodged to one side and he tried to dodge to the other, but she followed him with the can, spraying into his eyes with a cloud of pepper spray that made me wince even from two feet away. Roy screamed, tried to wipe the stuff out of his eyes. With his other arm he was waving blindly in front of him, trying to knock the can away. Susan kept spraying, even once it was useless, just hitting the back of his sleeve. I took her arm and ran out into traffic with her, dodging cars, holding up my hand to get others to stop. One driver after another started honking.
“You shouldn’t have done that,” I said, pulling her along.
We were on the other side now, and Roy was still clutching at his eyes down the block from the Derby, cursing, with a crowd gathered around him at a distance of a few feet. Some of the people were pointing at us, and one seemed to be running to find a policeman.
“We need to get out of here,” I said. “Come on.”
We ran toward Twenty-third Street, turned in and raced to the subway station. My side was aching again and I was out of breath. At the turnstile, I fished in my pocket and she fished in her purse. I found my MetroCard and slid it through the readers of two turnstiles. “Go. Go!”
We pushed through to the platform. Behind us we could still hear noises from the street, shouting, cars honking. A train rumbled into the station and we got on it without even checking what train it was. It was going somewhere, and anywhere was better than here.
Miraculously, there were two empty seats together. I collapsed into one of them. She sat in the other and put her face in her hands.
“You shouldn’t have done it, Susan,” I said.
She raised her head and I saw that she was crying. “What should I have done? Let him take you away?”
“I would have gotten away from him. Somehow.”
“I can never go back there now.”
“No, probably not. Not there.”
“You think anyone else will hire me? They all talk to each other.”
She put her face back in her hands.
We’d gotten on a downtown train, which was fine if we wanted to go to the Village or Soho or Chinatown. But where did we want to go? I didn’t know where she lived, assuming she lived in the city at all – it had sounded like she was on some sort of circuit, traveling from club to club, and for all I knew her permanent home was in some other part of the country entirely. We could go to my apartment or my office, but neither of those seemed especially safe right now – where I worked was no secret, and though my home number was unlisted, it wouldn’t take much effort to turn up my address. We needed a place where she could crash and where we’d be sure no one would look for her.
There weren’t too many choices. Leo commuted in from a one-bedroom in Jersey, and I wasn’t going to drag her out there. We could take a hotel room, but I didn’t have enough cash on me, and charging a room to a credit card with my name on it – or hers – didn’t seem too smart. I could only think of one other place in the city that no one knew about or would connect with me, a place where I could stow her and she’d be safe, a spare bedroom I knew about because I’d lived there once, years ago.
I could take her home to mother.
When had I seen my mother last? It had been months. Her disappointment in me showed in her face, but she was much too polite to say anything, especially in front of a guest. I introduced Susan as Rachel, and had a strange feeling as I watched them shake hands. Mom, this is Rachel. She’s a stripper on the run from a thug she blinded with pepper spray and his boss, who works for a drug dealer who may also be a murderer. Can she stay here with you under a false name?
“How long have you known each other?” my mother asked. Before either of us could answer, she said, “I’m sorry, where are my manners? Would you like some tea? I know John doesn’t drink tea, but would you like some?”
Susan shook her head.
“Some juice? Coffee? I don’t have any soft drinks, I’m afraid.”
In a small voice, Susan said, “I’m fine, thanks.”
“Well, all right.” Now my mother waited for the answer to her first question.
“Rachel is involved with a case I’m working on,” I said.“We only met a few days ago.”
“All right,” she said again, slowly. “I just thought, if you’re bringing her to meet me-”
“I’m not – it’s just that she’s got no place to go.” On the way down, Susan had confirmed that she’d been staying at a hotel, and that the staff at the Sin Factory knew which hotel it was. “There are problems at the place she’s working, and she can’t go back there or go home, and I was thinking she could stay here for a few days.”
“Well, of course, John, you know that’s still your room and you can use it any time you want.” That was what she said. What she meant was, but I never expected you to show up out of the blue and put a strange woman in it. You and I are going to need to have a talk about this later, when we’re alone.
“Mom, you remember Miranda Sugarman?” Her face lit up. She’d always liked Miranda, had made no secret of her hope that we’d eventually get married. I put my hand on her arm and stroked it gently. “Miranda was shot a few days ago. She’s dead.”
“Oh my God.”
“Rachel worked with Miranda at the place where it happened, and she’s not safe there. I’m trying to help her. Do you understand?”
“Yes. Yes, of course.” It was as if a curtain had dropped, and my mother suddenly looked her age. She’d turn sixty-one in a few weeks, and though I didn’t like to think of her that way, she was starting to look more like an old woman each time I saw her. Her hair had gone grey when I was a kid, but while I was living there she’d had it dyed every other week. No more. Her face was narrower than it had been, her nose sharper. And though she stood as straight as ever, the top of her head only came up to my shoulder now.
“I should call Barbara,” she said, and stood up to head to the phone.
“I’m sorry, Mom. I went there, and Barbara’s-” Was there a good way to say it? They hadn’t been close, but they’d talked from time to time, no doubt conspired about the grandchildren we’d give them. “They told me she had a heart attack seven years ago.”
My mother sat down again. “Everyone’s going,” she said quietly. “Every day, you turn on the news and it’s someone else. Last week it was that actor, the one from all the westerns.”
“Michael Tynant,” I said. “I saw that.”
“You know who else died? Elyse Knechtel. Right here, 14-D, you remember. Just the other day, they found her in her bed, like she was asleep.”
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“And you know who else? Maria, who used to run the bakery on Seventh Street? Her daughter. She was only twenty-nine. Your age. Some sort of disease, muscular something. Everybody’s dying.” She looked at Susan, who’d been standing silently by the door, watching us. Susan’s eyes were red and her hands were shaking. “Listen to me, talking about things like this. Of course you can stay here, sweetheart. Let me get you some sheets and a towel.”
We sat in my old room, I on the room’s one chair, Susan on the twin bed with its fresh sheets. My Reservoir Dogs poster was still on the wall and I was sure none of the old clothing I’d left in the closet when I’d moved out had been touched.
