“The mission into the ocean.”
With a slight shake of her head, Deirdre said, “It’s more than just the mission. It’s about Andy and me … our relationship.”
Dorn asked, “Do you have a relationship?”
“We’re friends. I like Andy a lot. And I know he likes me.”
“Enough to be jealous of Franklin Torre.”
“You know about that?”
Dorn half smiled. “I’d have to be totally blind not to recognize it. While you’ve been having dinner with Torre these past few nights, I’ve been eating with Andy. Not that he’s done much eating.”
“Oh dear.”
Noticing that she hadn’t touched her coffee, Dorn asked, “Would you like a sweetener? Some cold soymilk, perhaps?”
Deirdre glanced down at the steaming cups. “No, black is fine.” She picked up her cup and sipped at it. The coffee was strong and hot.
Dorn took a swallow from his cup, then told Deirdre, “For what it’s worth, I think Andy likes you very much. I don’t know much about love, but he might very well be in love with you.”
“When I told him I was frightened of the ocean mission he said I shouldn’t go. He said I meant more to him than making contact with the leviathans.”
Dorn said nothing.
“I mean, he’s willing to throw away the whole reason why he came here to Jupiter, his chance for a breakthrough, his chance for success as a scientist. For me!”
Carefully putting his cup back on the little table, Dorn said, “You are a very beautiful woman. Andy is obviously smitten with you.”
“But don’t you see where this puts me?” Deirdre pleaded. “I like Andy, I think he’s very sweet. But if I don’t go down into the ocean with him I could be ruining his career. He’ll hate me!”
“That’s not what he’s said. He told you that you mean more to him than the mission, didn’t he?”
Impatiently, Deirdre replied, “Of course he did. And I’m sure he means it. Now. But what about after the mission? What about when he comes back without making contact with the leviathans? He’ll blame me, sooner or later. Instead of loving me he’ll start to hate me!”
Dorn leaned back in the wheeled desk chair, making it roll slightly away from Deirdre. He clasped his hands together, one flesh and one metal, and held them prayerfully before his lips.
At last he asked, “If he actually did blame you for his failure, would that bother you?”
“Of course it would!”
“Why? Because you want him to like you, or because his failure would hurt his career, his life?”
Deirdre started to answer, but clicked her teeth shut. Her thoughts were swirling too much for a quick reply. How do I feel about Andy? Am I miserable because of my own ego or because I’ll be hurting him?
Dorn sat watching her, silent as a graven image.
At last Deirdre heard herself say, “I don’t want to hurt Andy.”
“Do you love him?”
“I don’t know,” she answered. “I only know that I don’t want to hurt him.”
“Then you’ll have to go on the mission with him,” said Dorn.
Deirdre looked into his eyes: one gray as a stormy sea, the other a red-glowing optronic vidcam.
“Yes,” she said, in an accepting sigh. “I suppose I will.”
RODNEY DEVLIN
In his own mind, Red Devlin believed that he was the one who actually ran research station
He had come out to
It also meant that he was responsible for obtaining the foodstuffs and drinkables that supplied the kitchen. And other things, as well.
Very quickly, Devlin became the station’s unofficial procurer. He was able to acquire things, find things, bring people together, in a manner that was little short of Machiavellian. When a staff scientist needed a new set of sensors in too much of a hurry to go through the red tape of the station’s regular procurement department, Red got the sensors for him and let him fill out the paperwork later. When someone needed some recreational drugs for a party she was throwing, it was the Red Devil that she turned to. When a lonely administrator needed diversion, Devlin smuggled in virtual reality sex simulations. He brewed “rocket juice” in a still that was tucked away among the scoopship operators’ repair facilities. He hacked into the station’s personnel files to speed transfers and promotions.
He called himself a facilitator. Many times, over the years he had been at station
Or so he thought of himself.
Now and then he considered leaving
But as he sat up in his narrow bed, he mulled over this latest twist in the station’s sometimes Byzantine politics. Westfall wants a sample of nanomachines. Dangerous stuff, that. But she’s powerful enough to chuck me in jail. Or at least get me thrown off
His room was small, little more than a nook near the kitchen. Devlin had never been one for creature comforts. His tastes for physical well-being were little short of Spartan. What he enjoyed most was the smiling admiration of the people around him. Scientists, engineers, administrators—men and women of good families and high education. They came to him for help. They
Now I’m the one who needs help, he thought as he stared sleeplessly at the blank display screen on the bulkhead at the end of his bunk. Westfall can ruin my life if I don’t do what she wants. But what she wants might be dangerous, terribly dangerous.
Should I tell Archer about it? Devlin shook his head. Nah. He’s too straight-arrow. He always shied away from me when he was a punk kid, just arrived here. Devlin remembered the first time he had offered to get some VR sex sims for the young Grant Archer. The kid had looked like he’d just been offered a deal to sell his soul. Archer was a religious Believer back then. Still is, as far as Devlin knew. Married to the same woman all these years; no hint of him straying.
So what if I tell Archer about it? That’d set up a real head-to-head battle between him and Westfall. She’d wipe the floor with him. Grant could never fight the way she would. She’d have him tossed off
No, Devlin told himself, I can’t bring Archer into this. I’ve got to find a way to satisfy Westfall without running the danger of setting nanomachine gobblers loose all over the place.
But how? How can I do that?