He was moved by the vibrating quality of the last words. She seemed to be talking low of some wonderful enchantment, in mysterious terms of special significance. He thought that if she only could talk to him in some unknown tongue, she would enslave him altogether by the sheer beauty of the sound, suggesting infinite depths of wisdom and feeling.
'But,' she went on, 'the name stuck in my head, it seems; and when you mentioned it—'
'It broke the spell,' muttered Heyst in angry disappointment as if he had been deceived in some hope.
The girl, from her position a little above him, surveyed with still eyes the abstracted silence of the man on whom she now depended with a completeness of which she had not been vividly conscious before, because, till then, she had never felt herself swinging between the abysses of earth and heaven in the hollow of his arm. What if he should grow weary of the burden?
'And, moreover, nobody had ever believed that tale!'
Heyst came out with an abrupt burst of sound which made her open her steady eyes wider, with an effect of immense surprise. It was a purely mechanical effect, because she was neither surprised nor puzzled. In fact, she could understand him better then than at any moment since she first set eyes on him.
He laughed scornfully.
'What am I thinking of?' he cried. 'As if it could matter to me what anybody had ever said or believed, from the beginning of the world till the crack of doom!'
'I never heard you laugh till today,' she observed. 'This is the second time!'
He scrambled to his feet and towered above her.
'That's because, when one's heart has been broken into in the way you have broken into mine, all sorts of weaknesses are free to enter—shame, anger, stupid indignation, stupid fears—stupid laughter, too. I wonder what interpretation you are putting on it?'
'It wasn't gay, certainly,' she said. 'But why are you angry with me? Are you sorry you took me away from those beasts? I told you who I was. You could see it.'
'Heavens!' he muttered. He had regained his command of himself. 'I assure you I could see much more than you could tell me. I could see quite a lot that you don't even suspect yet, but you can't be seen quite through.'
He sank to the ground by her side and took her hand. She asked gently:
'What more do you want from me?'
He made no sound for a time.
'The impossible, I suppose,' he said very low, as one makes a confidence, and pressing the hand he grasped.
It did not return the pressure. He shook his head as if to drive away the thought of this, and added in a louder, light tone:
'Nothing less. And it isn't because I think little of what I've got already. Oh, no! It is because I think so much of this possession of mine that I can't have it complete enough. I know it's unreasonable. You can't hold back anything—now.'
'Indeed I couldn't,' she whispered, letting her hand lie passive in his tight grasp. 'I only wish I could give you something more, or better, or whatever it is you want.'
He was touched by the sincere accent of these simple words.
'I tell you what you can do—you can tell me whether you would have gone with me like this if you had known of whom that abominable idiot of a hotel-keeper was speaking. A murderer—no less!'
'But I didn't know you at all then,' she cried. 'And I had the sense to understand what he was saying. It wasn't murder, really. I never thought it was.'
'What made him invent such an atrocity?' Heyst exclaimed. 'He seems a stupid animal. He
'It wasn't murder,' she insisted earnestly.
'I know. I understand. It was worse. As to killing a man, which would be a comparatively decent thing to do, well—I have never done that.'
'Why should you do it?' she asked in a frightened voice.
'My dear girl, you don't know the sort of life I have been leading in unexplored countries, in the wilds; it's difficult to give you an idea. There are men who haven't been in such tight places as I have found myself in who have had to—to shed blood, as the saying is. Even the wilds hold prizes which tempt some people; but I had no schemes, no plans—and not even great firmness of mind to make me unduly obstinate. I was simply moving on, while the others, perhaps, were going somewhere. An indifference as to roads and purposes makes one meeker, as it were. And I may say truly, too, that I never did care, I won't say for life—I had scorned what people call by that name from the first—but for being alive. I don't know if that is what men call courage, but I doubt it very much.'
'You! You have no courage?' she protested.
'I really don't know. Not the sort that always itches for a weapon, for I have never been anxious to use one in the quarrels that a man gets into in the most innocent way sometimes. The differences for which men murder each other are, like everything else they do, the most contemptible, the most pitiful things to look back upon. No, I've never killed a man or loved a woman—not even in my thoughts, not even in my dreams.'
He raised her hand to his lips, and let them rest on it for a space, during which she moved a little closer to him. After the lingering kiss he did not relinquish his hold.
'To slay, to love—the greatest enterprises of life upon a man! And I have no experience of either. You must
