Romance

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Had he allowed himself to make a provoking movement, a dubious gesture of any sort, I would have flung myself upon him at once; but the nonchalant manner in which he looked away, while he extended to me his hand with the candlestick, amazed me. I simply took it from him. He stepped back, with a ceremonious bow for Seraphina. La Chica ran up close to her elbow. I heard her voice saying sadly, 'You need fear nothing for yourself, child'; and they moved away slowly. I remained facing O'Brien, with a vague notion of protecting their retreat.

This time it was I who was holding the light before his face. It was calm and colourless; his eyes were fixed on the ground reflectively, with the appearance of profound and quiet absorption. But suddenly I perceived the convulsive clutch of his hand on the skirt of his coat. It was as if accidentally I had looked inside the man—upon the strength of his illusions, on his desire, on his passion. Now he will fly at me, I thought, with a tremendously convincing certitude. Now———All my muscles, stiffening, answered the appeal of that thought of battle.

He said, 'Won't you give me that light?'

And I understood he demanded a surrender.

'I would see you die first where you stand,' was my answer.

This object in my hand had become endowed with moral meaning—significant, like a symbol—only to be torn from me with my life.

He lifted his head; the light twinkled in his eyes. 'Oh, I won't die,' he said, with that bizarre suggestion of humour in his face, in his subdued voice. 'But it is a small thing; and you are young; it may be yet worth your while to try and please me—this time.'

Before I could answer, Seraphina, from some little distance, called out hurriedly:

'Don Juan, your arm.'

Her voice, sounding a little unsteady, made me forget O'Brien, and, turning my back on him, I ran up to her. She needed my support; and before us La Chica tottered and stumbled along with the lights, moaning:

'Madre de Dios! What will become of us now! Oh, what will become of us now!'

'You know what he had asked me to let him do,' Seraphina talked rapidly. 'I made answer, 'No; give the light to my cousin.' Then he said, 'Do you really wish it, Senorita? I am the older friend.' I repeated, 'Give the light to my cousin, Senor.' He, then, cruelly, 'For the young man's own sake, reflect, Senorita.' And he waited before he asked me again, 'Shall I surrender it to him?' I felt death upon my heart, and all my fear for you—there.' She touched her beautiful throat with a swift movement of a hand that disappeared at once under the lace. 'And because I could not speak, I———Don Juan, you have just offered me your life—I——— Misericordia! What else was possible? I made with my head the sign 'Yes.''

In the stress, hurry, and rapture encompassing my immense gratitude, I pressed her hand to my side familiarly, as if we had been two lovers walking in a lane on a serene evening.

'If you had not made that sign, it would have been worse than death—in my heart,' I said. 'He had allied me, too, to renounce my trust, my light.'

We walked on slowly, accompanied in our sudden silence by the plash of the fountain at the bottom of the great square of darkness on our left, and by the piteous moans of La Chica.

'That is what he meant,' said the enchanting voice by my side. 'And you refused. That is your valour.'

'From no selfish motives,' I said, troubled, as if all the great incertitude of my mind had been awakened by the sound that brought so much delight to my heart. 'My valour is nothing.'

'It has given me a new courage,' she said.

'You did not want more,' I said earnestly.

'Ah! I was very much alone. It is difficult to———'

She hesitated.

'To live alone,' I finished.

'More so to die,' she whispered, with a new note of timidity. 'It is frightful. Be cautious, Don Juan, for the love of God, because I could not———'

We stopped. La Chica, silent, as if exhausted, drooped lamentably, with her shoulder against the wall, by Seraphina's door; and the pure crystalline sound of the fountain below, enveloping the parting pause, seemed to wind its coldness round my heart.

'Poor Don Carlos!' she said. 'I had a great affection for him. I was afraid they would want me to marry him. He loved your sister.'

'He never told her,' I murmured. 'I wonder if she ever guessed.'

'He was poor, homeless, ill already, in a foreign land.'

'We all loved him at home,' I said.

'He never asked her,' she breathed out. 'And, perhaps—but he never asked her.'

'I have no more force,' sighed La Chica, suddenly, and sank down at the foot of the wall, putting the candlesticks on the floor.

'You have been very good to him,' I said; 'only he need not have demanded this from you. Of course, I understood perfectly.... I hope you understand, too, that I———'

'Senor, my cousin,' she flashed out suddenly, 'do you think that I would have consented only from my affection for him?'

'Senorita,' I cried, 'I am poor, homeless, in a foreign land. How can I believe? How can I dare to dream?— unless your own voice———'