She shook her head. We were quiet for a long minute.
“Why are you here? They’ll be looking for you. The Americans. The CIA. They want your hide. You had one of their men killed in a pub. You killed their top turncoat.”
“They can’t touch me. I have immunity. I’m here for discussions. Confidential.
When Menachem’s men came for me they took me back to Palestine. Now I’m part of their negotiation team. We’re giving evidence to the UN Special Committee on Palestine.”
“Eretz Israel? You think they’ll let you have your own place?”
“The UN might. And the British are fed up being policemen.”
“Remind me. Why did we want to stop you?”
She smiled. “I told you before; the Arabs have the oil.”
“What about the Arabs who live there already? Won’t they mind?”
She shrugged. “They weren’t born there. It’s not their home. We made the desert green, and they started pouring in from all the other Arab states.”
“So you’ll boot them out. They become the refugees. A new Diaspora?”
She shook her head. “No. They’ll have their own state. All we ask is that they let us live in peace. The world owes us this. It’s time.”
We made small talk then. So small that I don’t remember a word of it. I kept looking at her and wondering what she’d do if I got up and kissed her. She was probably reading my mind for she never gave me that chance.
“I have to go. I shouldn’t be here. I slipped away. One of the men is looking out for me. He’ll be frozen.”
She got up and I followed her out into my office. I helped her on with her coat and she tucked her hair under her scarf. We stood looking at each other like it was the end of the world. It might as well have been.
“Eve? It doesn’t have to be like this. We could forget the past. I used to be good at that. A hard tap here -” I touched my skull “- and it’s gone. We could start again. I could… Hell, I could come to Israel.”
Her smile softened her face. “Oh, my darling, you’d hate it. All that sand. And the flies and the heat. Your Scottish skin…”
“Heat sounds good right now.” But I nodded and smiled back at her. She stepped towards me and we embraced. I smelt her hair and skin again and was lost forever.
“Goodbye, Danny.”
The winter of the new year of 1947 turned out the worst in memory. It dragged on till April. When spring finally hit, it happened fast. The mornings were filled with bird noise and the trees looked fresh minted. It was more a miracle than ever.
I read in the papers that the UN Resolution is likely to pass, even though the Arab countries are opposed. Sabre rattling; they wouldn’t attack Israel, would they? What have they got to fear?
I think of her often and hope that she finds peace. She took the hard road. She could have merged into the shadows here and continued as a journalist. She could have had me. But that wasn’t enough. She had to be creating the news, not reporting it.
She once told me that the battle between good and evil was never-ending and no one could be a bystander. You had to take a stance, one side of the line or the other. She got more lyrical, the journalist coming out: a lone voice gets swallowed up in the roar of history, but a chorus can be heard. I understand that. I’d even like to be part of something like that. Trouble is – and she knew this all along – I’ve forgotten where the line is.
