In times past, Calopodius would have resisted. But he no longer felt any need to prove his courage, and a part of him -- a still wondering, eighteen-year-old part -- understood that his safety had become something his own men cared about. Alive, somewhere in the rear but still on the island, Calopodius would be a source of strength for his soldiers in the event of another Malwa onslaught. Spiritual strength, if not physical; a symbol, if nothing else. But men -- fighting men, perhaps, more than any others -- live by such symbols.
So he allowed Luke to guide him out of the bastion and down the rough staircase which led to the trenches below. On the way, Calopodius gauged the steps with his feet.
'One of those logs is too big,' he said, speaking firmly, but trying to keep any critical edge out of the words. 'It's a waste, there. Better to use it for another fake cannon.'
He heard Luke suppress a sigh. And will you stop fussing like a hen? was the content of that small sound. Calopodius suppressed a laugh. Luke, in truth, made a poor 'servant.'
'We've got enough,' replied Luke curtly. 'Twenty-odd. Do any more and the Malwa will get suspicious. We've only got three real ones left to keep up the pretense.'
As they moved slowly through the trench, Calopodius considered the problem and decided that Luke was right. The pretense was probably threadbare by now, anyway. When the Malwa finally launched a full-scale amphibious assault on the island that was the centerpiece of Calopodius' diversion, they had overrun half of it before being beaten back. When the survivors returned to the main Malwa army besieging the city of Sukkur across the Indus, they would have reported to their own top commanders that several of the 'cannons' with which the Romans had apparently festooned their fortified island were nothing but painted logs.
But how many? That question would still be unclear in the minds of the enemy.
Not all of them, for a certainty. When Belisarius took his main force to outflank the Malwa in the Punjab, leaving behind Calopodius and fewer than two thousand men to serve as a diversion, he had also left some of the field guns and mortars. Those pieces had wreaked havoc on the Malwa attackers, when they finally grew suspicious enough to test the real strength of Calopodius' position.
'The truth is,' said Luke gruffly, 'it probably doesn't really matter anyway. By now, the general's reached the Punjab.' Again, the heavy hand settled on Calopodius' slender shoulder, this time giving it a little squeeze of approval. 'You've already done what the general asked you to, lad. Kept the Malwa confused, thinking Belisarius was still here, while he marched in secret to the northeast. Did it as well as he could have possibly hoped.'
They had reached one of the covered portions of the trench, Calopodius sensed. He couldn't see the earth- covered logs which gave some protection from enemy fire, of course. But the quality of sound was a bit different within a shelter than in an open trench. That was just one of the many little auditory subtleties which Calopodius had begun noticing in the past few days.
He had not noticed it in days past, before he lost his eyes. In the first days after Belisarius and the main army left Sukkur on their secret, forced march to outflank the Malwa in the Punjab, Calopodius had noticed very little, in truth. He had had neither the time nor the inclination to ponder the subtleties of sense perception. He had been far too excited by his new and unexpected command and by the challenge it posed.
Martial glory. The blind young man in the covered trench stopped for a moment, staring through sightless eyes at a wall of earth and timber bracing. Remembering, and wondering.
The martial glory Calopodius had sought, when he left a new wife in Constantinople, had certainly come to him. Of that, he had no doubt at all. His own soldiers thought so, and said so often enough -- those who had survived -- and Calopodius was quite certain that his praises would soon be spoken in the Senate.
Precious few of the Roman Empire's most illustrious families had achieved any notable feats of arms in the great war against the Malwa. Beginning with the great commander Belisarius himself, born into the lower Thracian nobility, it had been largely a war fought by men from low stations in life. Commoners, in the main. Agathius -- the great hero of Anatha and the Dam -- had even been born into a baker's family, about as menial a position as any short of outright slavery.
Other than Sittas, who was now leading Belisarius' cataphracts in the Punjab, almost no Greek noblemen had fought in the Malwa war. And even Sittas, before the Indus campaign, had spent the war commanding the garrison in Constantinople which overawed the hostile aristocracy and kept the dynasty on the throne.
Had it been worth it?
Reaching up and touching gently the emptiness which had once been his eyes, Calopodius was still not sure. Like many other young members of the nobility, he had been swept up with enthusiasm after the news came that Belisarius had shattered the Malwa in Mesopotamia. Let the adult members of the aristocracy whine and complain in their salons. The youth were burning to serve.
And serve they had ... but only as couriers, in the beginning. It hadn't taken Calopodius long to realize that Belisarius intended to use him and his high-born fellows mainly for liaison with the haughty Persians, who were even more obsessed with nobility of blood-line than Greeks. The posts carried prestige -- the couriers rode just behind Belisarius himself in formation -- but little in the way of actual responsibility.
Standing in the bunker, the blind young man chuckled harshly. 'He used us, you know. As cold-blooded as a reptile.'
Silence, for a moment. Then, Calopodius heard Luke take a deep breath.
'Aye, lad. He did. The general will use anyone, if he feels it necessary.'
Calopodius nodded. He felt no anger at the thought. He simply wanted it acknowledged.
He reached out his hand and felt the rough wall of the bunker with fingertips grown sensitive with blindness. Texture of soil, which he would never have noticed before, came like a flood of dark light. He wondered, for a moment, how his wife's breasts would feel to him, or her belly, or her thighs. Now.
He didn't imagine he would ever know, and dropped the hand. Calopodius did not expect to survive the war, now that he was blind. Not unless he used the blindness as a reason to return to Constantinople, and spent the rest of his life resting on his laurels.
The thought was unbearable. I am only eighteen! My life should still be ahead of me!
That thought brought a final decision. Given that his life was now forfeit, Calopodius intended to give it the full measure while it lasted.
'Menander should be arriving soon, with the supply ships.'
'Yes,' said Luke.
'When he arrives, I wish to speak with him.'
'Yes,' said Luke. The 'servant' hesitated. Then: 'What about?'
Again, Calopodius chuckled harshly. 'Another forlorn hope.' He began moving slowly through the bunker to the tunnel which led back to his headquarters. 'Having lost my eyes on this island, it seems only right I should lose my life on another. Belisarius' island, this time -- not the one he left behind to fool the enemy. The real island, not the false one.'
'There was nothing false about this island, young man,' growled Luke. 'Never say it. Malwa was broken here, as surely as it was on any battlefield of Belisarius. There is the blood of Roman soldiers to prove it -- along with your own eyes. Most of all -- '
By some means he could not specify, Calopodius understood that Luke was gesturing angrily to the north. 'Most of all, by the fact that we kept an entire Malwa army pinned here for two weeks -- by your cunning and our sweat and blood -- while Belisarius slipped unseen to the north. Two weeks. The time he needed to slide a lance into Malwa's unprotected flank -- we gave him that time. We did. You did.'
He heard Luke's almost shuddering intake of breath. 'So never speak of a 'false' island again, boy. Is a shield 'false,' and only a sword 'true'? Stupid. The general did what he needed to do -- and so did you. Take pride in it, for there was nothing false in that doing.'
Calopodius could not help lowering his head. 'No,' he whispered.
But was it worth the doing?
'I know I shouldn't have come, General, but -- '
Calopodius groped for words to explain. He could not find any. It was impossible to explain to someone else the urgency he felt, since it would only sound ... suicidal. Which, in truth, it almost was, at least in part.
But ...
'May -- maybe I could help you with supplies or -- or something.'
