number for our optometrist-but the mere sound of his voice washes over me, and I feel my heart flutter. I wish I could talk to him sooner than next Monday. My promise is ready on my tongue:
I hit save, flip my phone shut, and look up to see Zoe, still mesmerized by the mime. She is now holding her beret in her hand and the sun is shining on her hair, making it look redder than usual. For one glorious moment, I am filled with a sense of well-being and peace.
And then everything changes in an instant.
I see the boy first, a scrawny skateboarder wearing baggy shorts, Converse high-tops, and an orange helmet. I wonder how he managed to get out of the house without a coat on a day like this. He is no older than twelve and has an adolescent awkwardness about him despite his fluid, confident stunts. He is clearly showing off, but pretending to be oblivious to his few admirers who have tired of the mime. He must be a loner, I think; boys his age usually travel in packs. I watch him surf several stairs and land effortlessly before picking up speed. That's when I see Zoe running back over to me, directly in his path. I freeze, knowing what's about to happen, but feeling powerless to stop it. Sort of like watching a scary scene in a movie with a menacing soundtrack. Sure enough, the boy careens toward Zoe, grunting, 'Yo! Yo! Watch out!' I can see his body strain to change direction, and I pray for his skills to prevail. But as he pivots, he slips off the board and crashes into her. Zoe is thrown backward like a small doll, making a sickening thud on the sidewalk. The boy is sprawled on the sidewalk next to her, looking more embarrassed than injured.
I hear myself scream, can feel my heart pounding in my ears. Everything seems to move in slow motion as I weave past the crowd and kneel over Zoe. Her skin looks gray, her eyelids are closed, and blood is streaming down the left side of her face onto her white rabbit-fur collar. Fear and terror fill me as I check to see if she's breathing. She is. Still, I think,
I can feel the stares and concerned hush around me as I find a Kleenex in my purse. As I press it against Zoe's head, her eyes flutter and open. I say her name in a rush of gratitude. She whimpers and touches her face. When she sees the blood covering her pink-gloved hand, she shrieks. Then she turns to the side and throws up. Somewhere, in a remote place in my brain, I remember that vomiting is a sign of a concussion, but I can't recall how serious a concussion is. And I have no idea how to treat one.
Zoe sits up and begins to wail for Maura and Scott. 'Mommy! Daddy! I want my mom-
The skateboarder limps over to us and mumbles an apology. 'Sorry,' he says. 'She got in my way.' He looks afraid that he might get in trouble. I want to blame him, yell at him for skateboarding in a crowd, but I just say, 'It's okay.' He slinks off with his board tucked under his arm, moving on with his afternoon.
As I turn my attention back to Zoe, an older man emerges from nowhere, crouching over us. He is well dressed and has a low, soothing voice. He gently asks me if I am her mother.
'I'm her aunt,' I say guiltily.
'I hailed you a cab,' he says, pointing a few yards away to a cab in the driveway in front of the hotel. 'He's going to take you to the NYU Medical Center. She probably just needs a few stitches.'
Zoe wails at the mention of stitches and then frantically protests as the man tries to lift her from the pavement.
'Let him carry you, honey,' I say.
She does. A few seconds later, I slide into the cab. The man hands me Zoe, along with a soft, white handkerchief with his monogrammed initials:
By the time we arrive at the hospital, Zoe's bleeding has slowed, and I am no longer worried about paralysis or permanent brain damage. Still, her name is called almost immediately after we register at the front desk. Which is in striking contrast to my trip to the ER with Ben when he broke his ankle playing flag football and we sat in the waiting room for seven hours. Or the time I ate bad sushi and literally thought I might die from stomach pains but still had to wait for what seemed like every gang member in New York and a fleet of Hell's Angels to be seen before me.
So I feel an enormous sense of relief when Zoe is given priority, and we are led to an examining room. A nurse helps her change into a gown and then takes her vitals. One beat later a sunny resident whips through our curtain partition and introduces himself as Dr. Steve. Dr. Steve is a mix between Doogie Howser and George Clooney's character on
Zoe freaks at the mention of stitches (they need to come up with a new name-what kid would be okay with the thought of her skin being sewn together with a needle?), but Dr. Steve flashes his dimples and convinces her that not only do his stitches not hurt, but also he will use
'What are the X-rays for?' I ask, still a bit fearful that there could be some sort of serious head injury.
'Just a precautionary measure,' Dr. Steve says, turning his dimples loose on me. 'I'd be very surprised if she had anything other than a superficial injury.'
I nod and thank him. Dr. Steve leaves to order Zoe's X-rays and collect his pink thread while I find a piece of paper in my purse and initiate a rousing game of hangman.
Two hours and minimal drama later, Zoe's X-rays confirm Dr. Steve's prognosis, and she is as good as new with five pink stitches and a major crush on her doctor. He hands her a lollipop-the good kind with a Tootsie Roll inside-and says, 'So, Zoe, I like you and all, but I really hope I never see you again in here.'
She smiles, becoming uncharacteristically shy.
'So what do you say, Zoe? Do you promise to stay out of the path of speeding skateboarders?'
Zoe says she'll try, and he high-fives her.
I wonder if Dr. Steve took a class in bedside manner with young children or if all of this just comes naturally to him. Maybe it's something that requires practice. Maybe I could find a how-to book on the subject:
Then I think of Ben. If I am lucky enough to get him back, I won't have to be perfect. We can figure things out