Barefoot: A Novel

“You’re kidding, right?”

“Sit,” Blaine said. He held up Horton Hatches the Egg. “Read to me, please.”

Josh sat and the baby sat. The baby was just as baffled as Josh, perhaps, because he quieted. Josh set the bottle on the closed toilet seat. He opened the book, cleared his throat, and started to read.

A few minutes later, Josh thought, Yes, that’s right. I am Horton the Elephant, sitting on an egg for lazy Mayzie bird who flew off to Palm Beach. If anyone at Zach’s party could see me now, they would taunt and tease and torture me as surely as the other animals in the jungle taunted Horton. I am that unlikely. That well-meaning but misplaced. I am not competent. This is not easy money. I was led here by lust for the mermaid and a crazy sense that the Three and I were somehow connected. I am a fool, an idiot. I quit the airport. How dumb I am. Horton.

And yet, before Josh had finished the book, peace settled over the bathroom. Blaine, in the tub, had fal en asleep. Porter, lying on his side on the cool tiles, was sucking down his bottle. It was too good to be true. He drained the bottle, then crawled over to Josh. Josh picked him up and he burped.

“Good boy,” Josh said. “Good baby.”

Josh changed Porter’s diaper in the bedroom. The diaper was crooked, but it was on the right way and Porter seemed comfortable enough.

Somewhere in the folds of the covers, Porter discovered his pacifier. He popped it in his mouth and kicked contentedly.

“Do you want to go to sleep?” Josh asked. He could have sworn he saw the baby nod. It was barely dark out, but Josh was exhausted. Those beers. He took off his shoes and climbed onto the bed next to Porter. Porter grabbed his ear. Whose bed was this? Josh wondered, though he knew it was Vicki’s bed. The cancer bed. Josh thought about Brenda’s bed and Melanie’s bed. Then his cel phone rang.

He checked on Porter—asleep. Josh felt jubilant as he flipped open his phone. So jubilant that he answered even though he could see on the display that it was Didi cal ing.

“Hel o?” he whispered.

There was loud, thumping music in the background. Then Didi’s voice, as pleasant and soothing as smashing glass. “Josh? Are you there? Are you coming to Zach’s? Josh?”

Josh hung up the phone and closed his eyes.

The story had been told so many times with such precise sameness that it no longer seemed true, and yet, it was true: Victoria Lyndon met Theodore Adler Stowe at a late-night high-stakes poker game.

Vicki had been living in Manhattan for a little more than a year when she discovered the poker game. She’d harbored a vision of herself as a party girl—nothing was too late or too wild for her, she never ran out of gas— though the fact of the matter was, her weeks were consumed by work as a paralegal at an al -female law firm and her weekends fel into a postcol egiate pattern of dinner at cheap ethnic restaurants fol owed by drinks at a string of bars on the Upper East Side populated by extremely recent graduates of Duke, Princeton, Stanford, Wil iams. Vicki was ready for something different, something edgier, more authentical y New York, and so when a friend of a friend, a guy named Castor—who had long black hair and wore silver jewelry—invited her to a midnight poker game on the Bowery, she panted into the phone: Yes, yes, yes!

The address Castor gave her had once been a brownstone, but the windows were blown out and boarded over, the door was pocked with bul et wounds, and the place exuded an aura of shithole. Okay, Vicki thought, he must be kidding. Or he’s trying to scare me. Or he’s trying to kil me.

Because how wel , real y, did she know Castor? Or maybe she had the wrong address. Except he’d been very clear, and this was the place. Half a block down, music pumped out of CBGB, but despite that, Vicki clenched her rape whistle. She had thirty dol ars in the pocket of her leather pants, a lipstick, and her keys.

Castor pushed open the door of the building from the inside. “Come on in,” he said.

The building had smel ed like burning hair. The stairs were sticky with—blood? urine?—and Vicki heard the scuttling of rats.

“Where are we going?” she said.

“Upstairs,” he said. “Al the way up.”

She fol owed Castor up the stairs, down a pitch-black hal way, up some more stairs, toward a door outlined with green light.

“The color of money,” Castor said.

They pushed into a cavernous room, decorated like a 1920s speakeasy. It was someone’s apartment—a little bald man named Doolie, who was, in fact, a squatter. He had transformed this room into the hottest poker game in the city. A three-piece jazz combo played in the corner.

Juil iard students, Castor said. A bar was set up and a Rita Hayworth look-alike in a red flapper dress passed around fat corned-beef sandwiches.

The center of the action was a round table that sat twelve, though half the seats were empty. It was a poker game, six men grimacing at one another.

“It’s a hundred-dol ar ante,” Castor said. He handed Vicki a bil . “I’l spot you your first game.”

“I can’t,” Vicki said. “I’l lose your money.”

“You don’t know how to play?”

“I know how to play.” There had been some beer poker at Duke and, years before that, funny games with her parents and Brenda at the kitchen table. About as different from this kind of poker as Vicki could imagine.

“So play.” Castor nudged Vicki forward and she stumbled into one of the empty chairs. Only one of the men