‘There's still an hour,’ said Pascoe.
'Aye, but Wieldy here won't be with us, will you, Sergeant? He's got another hospital appointment, if he doesn't manage to lose this one too. You and me though, Peter, we'll have a jar and go over these two statements with a fine-tooth comb.'
‘Three statements,' said Pascoe, crossing his fingers and trying to cross his toes.
'Three? What do you mean - three?'
Wield took a small step towards the window as if contemplating hurling himself through it when hostilities broke out.
'There's Swain's,' Dalziel went on. 'And there's Waterson's. What other bugger's made a statement that needs looking at?'
Pascoe wondered if the window were wide enough for a double defenestration.
He took a deep breath and thought that no matter what they paid chief inspectors, it wasn't enough.
'Yours,' he said. 'Sir.'
CHAPTER FIVE
The nurses' annexe at the Infirmary was a nineteen-sixties purpose-built block situated about a furlong from the main building and linked to it by what had once been a pleasant tree-lined walk. Pleasant, that is, in summer and daylight. A series of late-night assaults a decade before had made protection more important than pleasance, and now the pathway was flanked by more lamp standards than trees and corridored in high tensile steel link-fencing.
Wield found Pamela Waterson's room on the third floor. When she opened the door she regarded him blankly for a second, then said, 'Oh, it's you,' and turned away.
He followed her into the room where she flopped wearily into a chair. Her long blonde hair was loose now, its bright tresses about her face accentuating the dark shadows under her eyes.
'I'm sorry,' he said, 'I can see you're very tired.'
'You don't have to be a detective to work that out,' she answered bitterly. 'I was tired when I came off my last shift two hours late because my relief had a car accident. Then I only managed an hour's sleep before I was due on again -'
'Why was that?' interrupted Wield.
'Nothing special,' she said, lighting her third cigarette since his arrival. 'Life goes on, all the ordinary tedious things that take a few minutes when you're on top of them. Shopping, paying bills, washing, ironing -'
'Do you have a family, Mrs Waterson?' he interrupted again.
'Do I look like I have a family?' she said, gesturing around.
Presumably she simply meant that a bedsitter in a nurses' block was not a place to bring up a family, but Wield seized the opportunity for an open examination of the room.
There was little to be learned from the mainly institutional furniture. On the wall above the bed there was a little wooden crucifix; on another wall above a small bookcase hung a charcoal sketch of a female head whose laughing vitality delayed identification with the weary woman before him. He let his gaze fall to the books. Pascoe laid great store on books as revealers of personality. Mrs Waterson's choice ran mainly to biography and her taste was wide. There were a couple of Royals, Charles and Earl Mountbatten; several showbiz, including Monroe, Garland, the Beatles and Olivier; one political, Lloyd George; and a scattering of literary, ranging from Byron and Shelley through Emily Bronte and Oscar Wilde to Sylvia Plath and Simone de Beauvoir.
Looking for the meaning of her own life in other people's patterns was the way Pascoe would probably see it. Dalziel on the other hand would say, 'Sod the books! Poke about behind them, see what she's hiding!'
Wield knew all about hiding, knew also that we hide far less than we think. For years he had hidden his true sexual identity behind the dust jacket of a straight, middle-of-the-road, unemotional cop. But when he finally decided to come out, no delicate glowing butterfly emerged. He was still the same old lumpy green caterpillar nibbling systematically at the leaf till the holes joined up and he could see clear to the other side.
He returned now to his nibbling and pointed at the crucifix.
'You're a Catholic, are you, Mrs Waterson?'
'What? Oh, I see. And that means I should be producing every year like a brood mare?'
'I didn't say that. But there could be kids who stayed with their dad or went to gran when the bust-up happened.'
'Well, there weren't. And what do you know about my bust-up? Who've you been talking to? Some tittle-tattle at the hospital? God, if they worked as hard as I do, they'd have no time to gossip!'
She spoke with a fervour which brought colour to her wan cheeks. Wield, who had been trying to apportion the turmoil he discerned here between concern for her work and other causes possibly linked to his investigation, pushed a large emotional counter towards the job.
'Do you like being a nurse?' he asked with deliberate fatuity.
'Like? You mean, is it a vocation? Or, do I go around the wards singing?'
'Bit of both, I suppose. I mean, you must be good at it. How old are you, twenty-six, twenty-seven? And you're a ward sister already.'
She laughed and lit another cigarette.
'I'm twenty-four, Sergeant, and when I came here three years ago, they said I looked sixteen. And as for being a sister, I'm that because these days nurses are coming in in dribs and leaving in droves. Me, I reckon I didn't have half the experience necessary for it, and sometimes when I'm alone on the ward in the middle of the night and it's all quiet except for the odd groan and fart, and I can hardly keep my eyes open, I get to thinking that if something happens, some life or death emergency, I'm the one who'll be making the decisions till they rouse some poor bloody doctor who can probably hardly keep his eyes open either. Then I start shaking, partly with fear and partly with anger, at the sheer unfairness of expecting me to do the job at all.'
