'You are a dear, faithful child,' he said at last. 'Come here to your father.' And he got up, holding out his hands toward her.
The words were a surprise, and they gave her an exquisite joy. She went to him, and he put his arm round her tenderly, soothingly; and then he kissed her. After this he said:
'Do you wish to make me very happy?'
'I should like to—but I am afraid I can't,' Catherine answered.
'You can if you will. It all depends on your will.'
'Is it to give him up?' said Catherine.
'Yes, it is to give him up.'
And he held her still, with the same tenderness, looking into her face and resting his eyes on her averted eyes. There was a long silence; she wished he would release her.
'You are happier than I, father,' she said, at last.
'I have no doubt you are unhappy just now. But it is better to be unhappy for three months and get over it, than for many years and never get over it.'
'Yes, if that were so,' said Catherine.
'It would be so; I am sure of that.' She answered nothing, and he went on. 'Have you no faith in my wisdom, in my tenderness, in my solicitude for your future?'
'Oh, father!' murmured the girl.
'Don't you suppose that I know something of men: their vices, their follies, their falsities?'
She detached herself, and turned upon him. 'He is not vicious—he is not false!'
Her father kept looking at her with his sharp, pure eye. 'You make nothing of my judgement, then?'
'I can't believe that!'
'I don't ask you to believe it, but to take it on trust.'
Catherine was far from saying to herself that this was an ingenious sophism; but she met the appeal none the less squarely. 'What has he done—what do you know?'
'He has never done anything—he is a selfish idler.'
'Oh, father, don't abuse him!' she exclaimed pleadingly.
'I don't mean to abuse him; it would be a great mistake. You may do as you choose,' he added, turning away.
'I may see him again?'
'Just as you choose.'
'Will you forgive me?'
'By no means.'
'It will only be for once.'
'I don't know what you mean by once. You must either give him up or continue the acquaintance.'
'I wish to explain—to tell him to wait.'
'To wait for what?'
'Till you know him better—till you consent.'
'Don't tell him any such nonsense as that. I know him well enough, and I shall never consent.'
'But we can wait a long time,' said poor Catherine, in a tone which was meant to express the humblest conciliation, but which had upon her father's nerves the effect of an iteration not characterised by tact.
The Doctor answered, however, quietly enough: 'Of course you can wait till I die, if you like.' Catherine gave a cry of natural horror.
'Your engagement will have one delightful effect upon you; it will make you extremely impatient for that event.'
Catherine stood staring, and the Doctor enjoyed the point he had made. It came to Catherine with the force— or rather with the vague impressiveness—of a logical axiom which it was not in her province to controvert; and yet, though it was a scientific truth, she felt wholly unable to accept it.
'I would rather not marry, if that were true,' she said.
'Give me a proof of it, then; for it is beyond a question that by engaging yourself to Morris Townsend you simply wait for my death.'
She turned away, feeling sick and faint; and the Doctor went on.
'And if you wait for it with impatience, judge, if you please, what
HIS eagerness will be!'
Catherine turned it over—her father's words had such an authority for her that her very thoughts were capable of obeying him. There was a dreadful ugliness in it, which seemed to glare at her through the interposing medium of her own feebler reason. Suddenly, however, she had an inspiration—she almost knew it to be an inspiration.
'If I don't marry before your death, I will not after,' she said.
