Kathleen turned to a dressing-table and pointed with the spoon to where there were many silver-framed photographs. Anna got up to look at them. They were family pictures, the young Kathleen smiling to camera and very obviously heavily pregnant, another with her husband and holding a small toddler. They went from a schoolboy smiling with a bicycle to a young handsome teenager, with the same blue eyes as his mother, but even from the photographs there was a shyness about him.
Anna picked up one and returned to sit beside Kathleen. It was, she surmised, probably quite a recent one. Alan was carrying a surfboard, so perhaps it had been taken abroad or in Cornwall, as Tina had mentioned he went there. He was tanned and smiling and looking more confident than in any of the other photographs.
‘He used to phone you, didn’t he?’
Kathleen nodded, scraping the bowl for the remainder of her jelly.
‘He is a very good boy. I never had any trouble with him and he comes to see me, but not for a while I don’t think. Do you know where he is?’
‘I am trying to find him.’
Rose barged in with milky tea in a plastic cup with two handles.
‘Do you want one?’ she asked Anna.
‘No, thank you.’
Rose cleared the tray and placed the tea on the little table.
‘Did you see Alan recently?’ Anna asked her.
‘No, not for weeks. He would drop by here sometimes after work to see his mum – always brought flowers and she likes jelly babies so he’d bring them for her too. She gets confused now and I don’t think she’s realised how long it’s been, but it’s almost seven or eight weeks.’
‘How did you get along with him?’
‘Me?’
‘Yes. The last time you saw him, did he seem out of sorts or worried?’
‘No, he was always cheerful. Well, it was a bit put on for her because he was actually very worried about how his father would cope. She’s got worse, but whenever he came she would brighten up.’
Kathleen held the plastic tea cup with both shaking hands.
‘I just said how much you liked the visits from Alan.’
‘I’m not deaf, Rose – no need to shout at me.’
Rose lifted her eyes to the ceiling.
‘This lady is a detective, Rose.’
She threw a look to Anna and walked out.
‘She treats me as if I’m deaf, but it’s not my hearing that’s the problem. And she always puts too much sugar in my tea.’
‘Did you meet Alan’s fiancee?’
‘Who, dear?’
‘Your son’s fiancee, Tina?’
‘Is he coming?’
‘I don’t know, but did you meet his girlfriend?’
Kathleen nodded and plucked a tissue to dab at her mouth.
‘She’s rather common, but I never said anything to him. She wanted to cut my hair, but I didn’t want it short, I’ve always had long hair. She asked if I had it dyed. “My hair is natural,” I said, “and my husband has always liked it, and he sometimes brushes it for me when I go to bed.”’
‘So you didn’t really approve of Tina?’
Kathleen’s pale eyes looked confused. ‘Who, dear?’
At this moment there was the sound of the front door and Edward Rawlins called out, ‘I’m home!’ Anna heard him running up the stairs and the bedroom door opened. ‘Rose said you had a visitor and—’
There was such a bereft look on his face when he saw Anna that she realised he had thought it was his son.
Anna stood up to shake his hand.
‘I am so sorry,’ he said. ‘Rose was eager to leave and she just said we had a visitor. For a moment . . .’
He attempted to hide his emotion by crossing to his wife and kissing her.
‘How are you, dearest?’ he asked.
Kathleen looked confused again and he sat back on his heels beside her. ‘It’s Edward, dearest,’ he said gently. ‘It’s me. Have you had your tea?’
‘Not yet. Rose is bringing it up.’
Edward turned to Anna and suggested they go downstairs and leave Kathleen in peace. She said in an aside to him that Rose had already brought up his wife’s tray.
‘I know she forgets when she has eaten, or forgets to eat. Do go down and I’ll join you in a moment.’
He turned back to his wife, ‘Do you need the toilet?’
Kathleen nodded. It was as endearing as it was wretched to see him help his wife from the chair, but it was too late. Anna could hear him saying he would get her a nice clean nightdress.
Downstairs, Anna was unsure which room to use. She pushed open the door to what looked like a comfortable lounge with a television and gas fire. The furnishings were not as worn, but looked well-used, and there was a tray with a napkin over a plate.
Edward eventually joined Anna and asked if he could offer her a glass of sherry, and although she didn’t want one, she agreed. He was such a sprightly little man, fetching crystal glasses, opening the bottle and placing a small table at Anna’s side. He glanced at the covered tray.
‘Rose will have opened another tin of tuna. She means well, but I sometimes wish I could tell her that I’d prefer to make my own supper. She even manages to mangle the tomatoes.’ He moved the tray away and sat, then lifted his glass and sipped the sweet sherry.
‘Your wife must have been very beautiful,’ Anna began.
‘She was. To me she still is, but I don’t know how long the Social Services will help me, keeping on a carer like Rose. Still, I’m sure you are not here to be privy to our problems.’
His puppy-dog eyes were like a spaniel’s as he asked, ‘Do you have any news of Alan?’
‘No, I’m afraid not, but I interviewed Tina today.’
Mr Rawlins nodded and sipped his sherry again.
‘Your wife wasn’t too keen on her.’
‘Did she tell you that? Well, that surprises me. Kathleen never says a bad word about anyone. She only came here a couple of times. Kathleen’s problems started a while ago, and in the early stages, before she was diagnosed, we didn’t understand her mood changes. She could sometimes say things totally out of character, and she and Tina didn’t hit it off.’
‘She remembered that Tina was a hairdresser.’
‘Ah yes. That’s sometimes so hard to understand – how she can suddenly recall mundane things and then forget the important ones.’
‘She didn’t like her – did you?’
‘To be honest, I had hoped Alan could do better, but he seemed to dote on her, so who was I to say anything? Often, the less said the better, and I sort of hoped that in time he would see for himself.’
‘See what?’
‘She’s a bit of a pushy girl and I know he helped finance her salon, but then when he said they planned to marry I suppose I just accepted it. He is such a shy boy and I thought that having her with him might give him a bit of a confidence boost.’
‘Did it?’
‘I don’t know. He was always very busy and saved every penny as they were buying a house together. I helped him buy this old Mercedes and he was doing it up to sell. We’d done a couple of other cars and he’d always made a profit and split the proceeds with me. He’s as honest as . . .’ His voice started to crack. ‘I’m sorry, I just can’t seem to accept the fact that he’s disappeared. It just doesn’t make any sense.’
‘Tell me, did he have another, secret girlfriend?’
‘No, not that I know of, but then he wouldn’t have told me. Well, I don’t think he would have because deep
