forward, reading a book, and running his fingers through his hair. Evelyne knew she shouldn’t be standing there, but she couldn’t move, she wanted to touch his soft, clean white skin. She had never felt like this in her life before. She was used to seeing and touching male skin from bathing her menfolk, but this was somehow different, she didn’t know quite why, but she had a pain in the pit of her tummy, and her whole body felt hot.
There were footsteps on the stairs, and she turned quickly, dropping a shoe. Mortified, she grabbed it and heard David’s door close as she scurried into her room. Oh, dear Lord, had he seen her watching him?
Evelyne pretended she was asleep as Doris crept around the room and then slipped out to the bathroom. The darkness was lovely, lying between clean sheets with clean smells all around her. She snuggled down into the bed but couldn’t sleep, because David’s face kept floating in front of her eyes. Oh, she had so much to tell Lizzie- Ann!
Evelyne did not see David again. Their visit had passed quickly, and they were about to depart for the railway station. Evelyne stood with clasped hands as Dr Collins handed Doris a parel, saying it contained a few things that had belonged to his wife that he would like her to have.
As Dr Collins waved them on their way, David came down the stairs, yawned and asked if they had gone.
‘I think you should have made the effort to come down, not good enough, you know.’
David shrugged, ‘I doubt if we’ll be seeing her again, and even if we do I hope she won’t bring that dreadful child with her. I mean, what on earth possessed her to bring the girl?’
The Doctor studied his fob watch, ‘Doris was always one for picking up waifs and strays — look at that chap she married. Illiterate, you know, broke up the family. Now I must be off on my rounds, will you be home for supper?’
David was always irritated by his father, the way his father referred to dinner as supper, it wasn’t done.
‘I’ll be dining out at the Carltons’.’
‘You know, son, it’s all very well you mixing with these chaps, but you must never forget your roots, don’t get above yourself.’
David swiped the top off his egg so hard it shot across the table. ‘Don’t get above yourself…’ David had every intention of getting above himself, out of his dreadful house, away from his father’s penny-pinching ways.
‘Goodbye, Father, have an enjoyable day,’ he muttered.
When they were on the tram, heading home across the mountains, Doris opened the small parcel. She sighed, knowing she would never wear the dead woman’s bits and pieces of jewellery. There were also a couple of woollen cardigans and a shawl.
‘You know, I never got on with my sister-in-law. Her name was Eleanor, and she was cruel to my dear husband, mocking him. I always said I would never visit while she was still alive, and now … well, did you enjoy it, Evelyne?’
‘Oh, yes, Mrs Evans, I loved every single minute of it, and I’ll never be able to thank you enough.’
Rewrapping the parcel, Doris murmured that she would give the clothes to the poor. Evelyne half hoped that Doris would give them to her.
‘Could you make use of these ribbons?’
‘Oh, yes, thank you Mrs Evans, thank you very much.’
Doris sighed and looked out of the window. The break had done her the world of good. She looked back at Evelyne who was carefully winding the ribbons round her finger.
‘We’ll make it a habit, I think, yes, I think it would be good for you to spend more time at the museums. Perhaps we can even go to the theatre.’
Evelyne grabbed Doris’ hand and kissed it.
‘Oh, thank you, thank you, Mrs Evans.’
Her whole slender body trembled with pleasure. Just think, she would be going back to that palace of a house and, even better, she would see him again — she would see David.
Evelyne knew there was something amiss the moment she let herself into the house. It was dark, cold and silent. The kitchen fire was almost out, and she stoked it quickly, disappointed to find no one at home, and worried.
‘Da, I’m home … Da?’
She ran up the stairs, bursting to tell her news, pushed open the door.
‘Oh, Da, I had such a time, such a wonderful time.’
Hugh was lying on the bed, holding Davey’s small, well-chewed teddy bear. He raised himself on to his elbow. He looked ill, his eyes were red-rimmed, but he was sober.
‘Has Lizzie-Ann not been looking after you?’ Evelyne asked, ‘I dunno, I leave you for no more than two days … does Mrs Pugh have little Davey, I’ll go and pick him up, I’ve built up the fire …’
Hugh moaned and lay down, put his arm across his face, and his body shook.
‘What is it? Has something happened? Da?’ He gripped the small toy and his face crumpled. He sobbed.
‘Aw, Christ, gel, I was drunk, I was drunk … he was up here, an’ I heard his hollerin’ and I went to bring him down, down to the fire … he was in my arms … halfway down I fell.’
Evelyne was on the bed, pulling at his arm, ‘Where is he, Da? Where is he? I’ll go to him, I’ll go to him.’
Hugh reached out and pulled her down to lie beside him.
‘I fell, Evie, I fell … I fell on the little chap, and God help me, I’ve killed him.’
She moved away, staring, her eyes bright with tears. ‘Ah, no, you didn’t… you didn’t… Davey, Davey!’ Hugh couldn’t stop her, he sobbed as he heard her running through the rooms calling out the little boy’s name. She gripped the side of his empty cot and called for him, all she could remember was his funny, fuzzy head, his drooling, soft mouth … and he was always so happy …
Lizzie-Ann, her belly even bigger, stood at the door. ‘Oh, lizzie, Lizzie, poor little Davey.’ Lizzie-Ann’s face puckered, a child carrying a child herself, ‘Maybe it was God’s doin’, he wasn’t right in the head.’
Evelyne wiped her tears with the back of her hand. All her stories, all the things she’d wanted to tell Lizzie- Ann meant nothing now. She could even detect the envy, see it in the puffy, pretty face, the huge, searching pansy eyes. Little Davey was far from her thoughts. ‘You have a good time?’
‘No, not really … I brought you back some ribbons, they’re on the kitchen table.’
Lizzie-Ann whooped and rushed to the kitchen, leaving Evelyne standing by the empty cot. She touched the chewed, sucked sides, and thought it could be put to use for Lizzie-Ann’s baby.
Later that night Hugh was heard thudding up the stairs. He was drunk as he had been on the night he had fallen and killed his little boy. He was struggling out of his filthy old working jacket, stumbling against the bed. Evelyne slipped into the room and he straightened up while she took his clothes off him. The bed smelt terrible, the sheets and pillows stained with beer and vomit. The huge man was so broken, so pitiful … he held out his massive, gnarled hand to her, she slipped her own into it, although she didn’t want to stay in the squalid room. Poor little Davey, his whole life just a few silly words, Da da-da-daaaa …
The next Sunday they buried Davey. Only a few villagers turned out to follow the sad, small family to the churchyard. They couldn’t even afford a hearse. Hugh was sober, and he carried the tiny coffin in his arms as if it was a precious box of eggs that would smash if he jolted it.
Over the tiny grave Hugh swore he would never touch another drop, so help him, and as the rain started the big man went down on his knees and wept. There were no cornflowers this time, as it was winter.
Evelyne was drained, but she knew her Da depended on her and didn’t give in. She stood, straightbacked, her arm ready for Hugh to lean on. Will wouldn’t meet her gaze, he was ashamed, like his father. The little boy who had been left in their care now lay alongside their Ma and the baby with no name.
Chapter 5
