her father, out of his study, pulling her to her feet. He was not used to being an affectionate man, and he did not love to touch even his children, but he took her into his embrace and let her weep against his shoulder for long minutes, until she felt smothered by the scent of wet wool. She did not know if there was ever a moment when she’d loved her father so well, or needed him more, or was so glad to have his guidance.
Now she looked upon this strange girl as she sat hunched over, a mournful, almost bovine sound escaping her lips, and Lucy wanted to comfort her, wanted to offer her some small portion of what only another person can provide in such moments of grief. As they approached, the girl did not regard them at all, and they saw she was bent over a book. The text must be passing melancholy, Lucy thought, to elicit such a response.
Martha hung back, but Lucy circled around, and Mr. Blake walked by her side, a look of pure concern upon his wrinkled face. When they could see the girl’s face, they noted that she was pretty, with a fair countenance, somewhat marred by freckles and a nose broad and flat at the bridge, but with large, very beautiful hazel eyes—red and moist with tears though they might have been.
As Lucy and Mr. Blake approached her from the side, the girl suddenly started and scrambled to her feet in a terrified scurry, more animal-like than human. Once she rose, however, she appeared somewhat calmed by the sight of the two young ladies and the kindly older man, who anyone could see posed no threat. There was, however, a marked look of incomprehension on the girl’s face. Her mouth hung slightly open, her eyes squinted as though willing the world to form into some intelligible shape.
Curiously, the girl wore a slate around her neck, held on by a piece of thick cord, and in her hand she held a piece of chalk. The book she’d been reading lay on the ground, and Lucy read the spine. It was Byron’s
“Hello,” Lucy said cautiously. “We are sorry to have startled you.”
Martha had now come around to face the girl, who had begun to mark up her slate with furious speed.
Lucy gestured that she would like the slate so she might respond, but the girl shook her head and gestured toward her lips. Lucy had read of deaf people who could understand words by watching a speaker’s lips, though she had never seen the thing done herself. Overwhelmed by the wonder of it, Lucy said, speaking slowly and moving her mouth in exaggerated gestures,
The deaf girl laughed, and in her laughter, she appeared remarkably beautiful.
“I am sorry,” Lucy said. “I did not mean to offend you. Or to startle you. We heard you weeping, and wished only to make sure you were not in distress.”
“Not in distress,” said Mr. Blake. “In love.”
She wiped at her eyes with her fingers and wrote,
Unable to help herself, Lucy said, “Not with Byron, I hope.”
Sophie took a step backwards.
“Only a little,” said Lucy, not wishing to set herself up as a rival to this deaf girl, though she
Lucy and Martha exchanged looks. Lucy liked him, certainly, but she was almost entirely confident that she did not love him. Martha took the uncertain look upon Lucy’s face as amusement, and began to laugh, and Lucy laughed too. She did not wish to mock the deaf girl, and tried to stop herself, but to her surprise the girl laughed with them.
“What does she mean, Lucy?” asked Martha.
Sophie smiled.
Lucy felt a sudden pang of paralyzing fear. These phenomena were unavoidable. These people were ubiquitous. It seemed as though she had been living in a fantastical world her whole life, one that willfully ignored the magic all around. She had been too blind to see it, but now that her eyes were open, it was everywhere.
“Who came to you?” asked Lucy.
Lucy put a hand to her mouth. It had been Lady Harriet and Mr. Buckles. It could be no one else, and they too were interested in the
Martha took her hand. “You look so pale, Lucy. And I cannot understand a word the two of you exchange. This is more curious even than Mr. Blake, if you will forgive me for saying so. What is all this?”
Lucy forced a smile. “Just local lore, too tedious to explain.” She looked at Sophie and gave another easy smile. “Have you been in the house?”
Martha stepped closer, looking concerned. “Do you want anything? Food? A ride somewhere? We have a coach just at the roadway.”
The girl shook her head.
Mr. Blake watched her go and then rubbed his hands together. “What a remarkable day! But now I have a long journey back to London. May I see you ladies off?”
He escorted them back to their coach, and waved kindly as they rode off, as though he were an uncle or an old friend. Several times Martha turned to Lucy to ask questions, but each time she stopped herself. It soon became evident that, whatever she might wish to ask, she was not certain she would want to hear the answer.
20
Much to her own surprise, Lucy found herself feeling jealous that this deaf girl had been shown the pages.
Since his arrival, Lucy had done her best to avoid Mr. Buckles, either by staying out of any room that he might occupy or by directing all of her attention to the baby when he was around. He had, she was now certain, stolen her birthright and her independence, and she hated that she must pretend he had not. But now, it seemed to her even worse. It was not simply that he had stolen from her out of malice and greed. If Lucy’s suspicions were right, Mr. Buckles was involved in a complicated and long-standing conspiracy against her—a conspiracy whose scope and goal was beyond her understanding.
After she and Martha returned from Newstead, Lucy had excused herself by saying she was tired so that she might go to her room and pursue answers in her books. She had found none. She did not even know what she looked for, but she could not bear to do nothing. After several hours, she abandoned the effort and joined the family